Hard Knocking

I'm facing a reality. The reality of my service to Elohim and I realise that when I look into the Word of Elohim as my mirror I find that there is much in so many areas that I'm lacking. From since the beginning of this year I've realised that Yahweh is doing something new in me and halfway through the first month of 2019 I've realised that's it's a crackdown of my service to Him. I've come to know by the revealing of the Holy Spirit that I'm lacking in many areas of my life towards Him and that He has given me this year to draw even nearer to Him than ever before.

It's as though I'm once more finding my paths and my ways once more in His leading. Where once I was ever so confident of the road Yahweh intended me to take, now I realise He has stripped that off me to know that I am to live everyday simply as He wants for that day. And through it all I've realised that slowly but surely I'm changing, for the better or otherwise I cannot say. Only those around me can bear witness to that and not I. For one thing I've become more honest about myself and now I realised that it bears results. I now understand what authority is, although to put it to practice I've yet to refine it. Not only the power and the authority to trample and destroy serpents and scorpions but also the authority and power to command my situations to come into alignment.

Honestly speaking, the road ahead of me has darkened save for the light that illuminates my way one day at a time. And I realise that I am slowly being taught by Elohim not only to live a life worthy of His calling and separation on me but also to live a life full of power and authority in the name of Yeshua. Honestly, it's like I'm coming face to face with myself and I see all the spots and wrinkles therein me. There is nothing for me to do except to return and amend my ways as He has given me this time to do so.

I haven't attained to it yet, neither can I say that I have truly been tested but all I can say is that the Lord Yeshua has never failed me and thus far has He brought me by His grace and mercy. With the removal of many, many things in my life and the bringing in of things I can scarcely conceive of all I can do now is to look up. Surely His salvation is near to those who fear Him, that glory may dwell in our land. Praise Yahweh for all He has done.

-Wednesday, 16th January 2019, 3 years 4 months 9 days, 2320

It's like there's a storm churning within me. Words without expression keep flowing around that all I can do is just commit myself to Yahweh.

Honestly speaking, the videos showing the works of the enemy really put such a sour taste in my mouth. Knowing that we are not ignorant of the devices of the devil we are not meant to be knowledgeable about them as we ought. It is enough as I believe to know that the works of the devil are there and they are working about but to delve deeper is one thing that holds much risk for each and every single person. Yeshua Himself tells the church of Thyatira:

[Rev 2:24] But unto you I say, and unto the rest in Thyatira, as many as have not this doctrine, and which have not known the depths of satan, as they speak; I will put upon you none other burden.

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