Joh 16:13-15 Howbeit when He, the Spirit of truth, is come, He will guide you into all truth: for He shall not speak of Himself; but whatsoever He shall hear, that shall He speak: and He will shew you things to come. He shall glorify Me: for He shall receive of Mine, and shall shew it unto you. All things that the Father hath are Mine: therefore said I, that He shall take of Mine, and shall shew it unto you.
It has been an exciting and an awesome year. As we had begun the year with the prophecy that this year shall be the year to declare forth the Word of Elohim due to it being the Hebraic year of 5778, I have seen that indeed this year has been nothing but the lifting up of the Word of Elohim in all the nations where we have went together with and without. Everywhere that we went and everyone that we met were hungry and desirous for the Word of Yahweh and that was what many had received, myself included. Throughout the length of this year the Lord has developed a hunger and a thirst in me for more and more of His Word simply because His Word is truth. What He has spoken shall surely come to pass and shall not tarry, so what more if I wanted to know what He has spoken concerning me?
This year has been one of the steepest learning curves that I have experienced thus far in my journey and my walk with the Lord Yeshua Messiah. I remember that early on in the year I had nearly wanted to leave the ministry thinking perchance that this was the will of Yahweh for me that I had to follow. Needless to say through much prayer and the revelation of His Word and presence to my family and I, by His grace and mercy here I still stand in the house of Yahweh, a testament to His faithfulness upon His children.
2Sa 14:14b yet doth He devise means, that His banished be not expelled from Him.
Throughout this year 2019 I have experienced the birth of many new friendships and the closing of others, the reinvigoration of relationships and the finality of some as well. And for it all I thank Elohim that He has stayed true and faithful to me even to the very end of this year 2019. I've seen many doors opened not just to me but for the ministry as well and many others closed by the will of Elohim. And as we venture into 2020 I am excited that we shall surely see an even greater manifestation of His power and glory and kingdom upon us all. Praise Yeshua.
Perhaps you could say the turning point for this year would have had to come on the last month itself, during the December's Young People's Camp entitled Victory Through The Cross. It was during this time that revival swept through the ranks of the young people present, myself included. And at the end of this camp as I ponder about what had taken place I realised that I have been changed. Although to say what area I was changed in I could never tell you since I myself do not know, but what I know for certain is that the Lord had changed me in some way, substance, or form. Soon after I began to realise that my life had taken a different turn from how it once was before this camp.
Speaking plainly I used to have fast internet connection to my phone but after the camp was over I had to replace my SIM card because my phone no longer detected the old one and that in turn meant they my internet speed has been cut down significantly. I can still use WhatsApp and the other need apps but now to browse the internet has become such a long patience game to which I am no longer a frequent partaker of. So I see this as a godsend. Yahweh is slowly weaning me off the need and the usage of the internet and instead to spend time more with His Word. Ironically, now that most of what I used to watch and see on the internet has become redundant because of the slow internet, all that I can access to now is but to read books online which I find now is much more enjoyable since I can access Christian books as well to read and to learn however much I want. But still, the Word trumps as the go-to to read.
But perhaps the greatest blessing from the Lord that I have received is one that I just received but a few weeks prior. I had always desired intimacy with the Lord Messiah and this is what I have especially received as of late and I know that this is a major turning point in my life because of it. I have always sensed and felt the presence of Yahweh especially during the times where we come together to worship as one and also in the times where I am alone, whether in the private closet and working by myself. But recently the presence of Yahweh became much more tangibly felt and experienced by me, especially when I pray, worship and am merely conscious of Him. I don't really know how to explain it properly but I have felt the mighty, awesome presence of Yahweh. He is love, just as He is holy. When I pray or worship the presence of the Lord rushes upon me and I am overwhelmed by Him, many times just silently crying and giving thanks for His being there. I found the the greater His presence the more I see that I am nothing before Him and yet He still chooses to see me and to love me.
The presence of Yahweh become so powerful that now I can sense the holiness of Yahweh inasmuch as His love. He is so holy that all those who are not like Him will have their sins exposed and revealed in the light of His glory. Even when I know the blood of Yeshua has cleansed me from all my sin, whenever His presence is there I am reminded that I was truly unworthy of Him and all that He is to me. I felt so filthy and ashamed before Him because of all the things that I have done but still, still! Still He chooses to love me and call me His son. Still He draws me nearer to Himself like never before and brings me to His very throne to worship and find grace to help in times of need. Still He has forgiven me and has made me holy and pure before Him just like He is. I truly humbled myself again and again because I see that everything that I am doing ultimately makes no difference before the Lord Yeshua, but still He looks upon me and my works and acknowledges them.
I cannot begin to express in words then the love and the holiness of Yeshua given to me and I received and felt it. And every time I just humbled myself before Him and He pours out more and more of His Spirit. How awesome, I look back and I see that perhaps this might be the culmination of the year 2019 for me. In just a span of a few short weeks, His presence a side of which I had never before experienced has changed me so although outwardly I still feel the same. In my spirit I know that He is doing a great, deep work in me and one day His life and glory will be manifested for all to see and glory in Him for the things He has done. Praise Yeshua, praise Him for 2019 and praise Him for 2020 and years to come. Amen. Even so, come Lord Yeshua!
Rev 22:20 He which testifieth these things saith, Surely I come quickly. Amen. Even so, come, Lord Yeshua.
-Tuesday, 31st December 2019, 4 years 3 months 24 days, 0233
I can see that you have a personal encounter with the Lord Yeshua Messiah.
ReplyDeleteIn His presence we felt so unworthy and so ashamed of our sins and yet in His presence of holiness we choose to abide.
In His presence we are so aware of our inadequacies but yet we have abundant of joy bubbling inside.
In His presence we are so wretched that we want to hide ourselves from Him, but yet we are so drawn to Him and partake of His love and joy.
There are much more contradiction in Yeshua presence as we experience His love and grace of God towards us. He bore the cross for us that we might wear the Crown of life.