Remembering His Goodness

We're nearing the end of the year 2020 in just a few days now and it's in these moments I recall back all the things that had taken place in my life, both the good and the not so. And all I have is to give thanks to Yahweh for once more leading me to the end of yet another year of being able to still continue to serve Him in the place where He has called me and I'm so grateful for that. The year most assuredly had its ups and downs however it all pales in comparison to my own personal journey with the Lord Yeshua and how He has brought me once more further and further and deeper and deeper unto Himself. 

As we are about to enter the new year in but a few short days' time and again as I remember what has transpired throughout this year, surely a lot has taken place even things which I would consider to be highlights and the lowlights of my time. However as I've said now the Lord Yeshua is bringing me to a point where everything else doesn't matter any more, even the things which I go through both the joys and the pains it all loses its glimmer in the light of His countenance. This truly has been the year where I could say I have come to such a personal level with the Holy Spirit that even when I feel like I'm making my own choices somehow it always turns out to be the leading of the Holy Spirit. 

As example of just recent events, we of Glory Place were invited to worship and share the Word of Elohim in Trinity Sanctuary AG, Semenyih this past Sunday. I for one had prepared myself to sing a few particular songs and was ready that day however the Holy Spirit had a different agenda. After the 1st Service I had received the call to prayer once again by the Holy Spirit and after much struggling and wrestling I yielded and allowed Him to wake me up to pray. I didn't get a wink's sleep that day and I was scheduled to worship in the morning in a different church?! Truly it is only Yahweh Himself that can take over now! And He did, the presence of Yahweh was so tangibly felt and the Holy Spirit was moving so powerfully that day. Throughout the night time I kept asking the Lord as to why and what I am praying for specifically but I had received no answer in that time other than to continue to wait and tarry with Him in prayer. It was only after the Sunday worship that He answered me and told me that He wanted to takeover and to do that He had to bring me to the end of myself even in the things I was enabled by Him to do. And so I praise Yahweh that He did thus, it could never have turned out as glorious as it did had he not taken over and it was just me. 

And even just yesterday once more there has been a breakthrough. While we were worshipping and just listening to the Word of Elohim last night our senior pastor, Pastor Jean sensed that the Holy Spirit was moving so mightily in our midst and in the midst of the nations, especially China. On that night itself there was a great leading of the Holy Spirit that I could count myself so blessed to be led by Him and to be chosen by Him. Let me explain: 

After the meeting was over, I intended to go back home to see my family so I had requested aunty Florence to not put me on the after meeting harp watch as I wanted to go back. She said okay, but just before the meeting began she mentioned to me that I should at least do 11pm-12am before I head back home to which I said alright. So it was around 10pm that the Holy Spirit began to move very powerfully although I couldn't really sense it or follow along. But I just believed that He is here in the midst of us and that He is bringing a great change in everyone of us present and online at the time. It was after much praying by different people to respond to His mighty move tonight that I went to do my harp watch at 11.20pm. And just seconds after I had begun the Holy Spirit began to speak through Pastor Jean again to us. 

"I've seen your cries and I've seen your patience especially those of you who takes the watches both for worship, prayer and reading My Word. Blessed are you because I shall work mightily in your life. It is not a coincidence that you have your watches because I am watching over you and I shall bless you and release you and set you free completely so that you may serve Me and worship Me and be a pleasure to Me. I remember you." (I'm paraphrasing the words spoken and while it was going on I was laughing and so joyous because I'm on watch exactly at that moment when the word was being released. So I took it for myself to which I believe it was meant for. Even aunty Florence saw that and told me I'm truly blessed by Yahweh.)

And it was only today that I sensed in my spirit a release. A release of what I do not know yet but this is a release that I've never experienced before. It felt like blocks of weights in my heart just fell and I was feeling so light and carefree. Everything that I have and know is of no concern to me and all that was on my mind was that I can just concern myself with being together with the Lord Yeshua just as it is His desire for so. 

Mark 3:13-15

[13] And He went up on the mountain and called to Him those He Himself wanted. And they came to Him.

[14] Then He appointed twelve, that they might be with Him and that He might send them out to preach,

[15] and to have power to heal sicknesses and to cast out demons:

John 17:24

[24] “Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.

Such is my calling, such is my pleasure, such shall be my life. Praise Yeshua for calling me unto Himself. What a privilege it is to serve Him and to give up my life for Him and His Word. 

-Tuesday, 29th December 2020, 5 years 3 months 22 days, 2106

Grace

During the overnight once again I was going through something. I had felt that my sins had caught up with me and I just felt one kind, I didn't really have the heart to worship that night. Yes, I realise what the Word of Elohim says and speaks of, that anyone in Messiah is a new creation and old things have passed away. That there's no more condemnation to those in Messiah Yeshua who do not walk according to the flesh but the Spirit. I realised all these but yet the feeling persisted and persisted and I couldn't shake that uneasiness forming within me. But as I worshipped especially for the song John 4:23-24 the Holy Spirit once again spoke and ministered to me. As I was feeling weighed down by my own thoughts and mistakes He spoke clearly to me. "I didn't choose you to worship and serve Me because you were able to. I am the One Who makes you able to worship and serve Me. I don't choose the qualified, I qualify those I have chosen." 

It wasn't an audible voice by the way, but a clear cut of His Word in my spirit that I knew without a doubt that it was the Lord Yeshua Who had spoken to me just now. When He told me that gradually I felt as though wave after wave of His presence just coming upon me and cleansing me from all my thoughts and my sins. As I began to worship more I felt more and more released and set free and as we sang in the Spirit after John 4 I just felt so grateful and humbled that Yahweh would choose someone like me to be able to worship and serve Him all the days of my life. I felt that giving my entire life to Him was but the least that I could do for all that He has done for me. And He gave me this Word as well: 

1 Corinthians 1:27-31

[27] But Elohim has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and Elohim has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty;

[28] and the base things of the world and the things which are despised Elohim has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are,

[29] that no flesh should glory in His presence.

[30] But of Him you are in Messiah Yeshua, who became for us wisdom from Elohim—and righteousness and sanctification and redemption—

[31] that, as it is written, “He who glories, let him glory in YAHWEH.”

And when I received that word from Him I realised that He is right and just in all that He says and does. I am so humbled that despite all my flaws, the areas in my life that I still need a breakthrough yet He would still choose me and cause me to draw near to Himself by the blood of Yeshua. That despite all that I am, I can still stand in His presence with the hosts of heaven by His grace, mercy, and love towards me. At that point in time I am glad that I had chosen to serve the Most High, there's really no greater pleasure or place to go besides. Praise Yahweh for the breakthrough and for His Holy Spirit always with us in whatsoever we go through. 

-Saturday, 12th December 2020, 5 years 3 months 5 days, 1414

Once Again, Breakthrough

Just a quick update about what's been happening lately in my life and pursuit of the Most High and to attain to the oneness that is in Messiah Yeshua. During the previous Friday overnight 2 weeks ago as I was worshipping on stage I felt a very strong impression upon me by the Holy Spirit that in such times of revival and breakthrough like these that He wants me to fast and to seek Him earnestly like never before. So He has called me to fast for a lengthy period of time, for the month of December and Elohim willing until January 20th. That's actually a long time to fast and normally I'm not so keen as to be fasting ever so often. But I know that this is the prompting and the leading of the Holy Spirit because I would never have thought of fasting for such a lengthy period of time. So I have steeled and readied myself for this fast and I have already begun it actually with our monthly Staff and Helpers Fast & Pray. 

During the Esther fast I was feeling very, very irritated and annoyed. It was not that anyone had said or done anything to me but for two days ever since I woke up I just felt so annoyed and troubled in myself, there wasn't any peace nor any rest for me but I kept feeling like everyone and everything was getting on my nerves. It was almost to the point where I was just in a state of unrest and trouble. And I didn't know what it was, that was perhaps what irked me the most. Was it my character? Was it something that I had not settled with Elohim or with someone? Was it cleansing and deliverance taking place? Was it I was simply tired or didn't have enough rest? Despite it all, although I had such thoughts I had never once questioned leaving nor running away from the presence of Yahweh because I know in my heart that as long as I continue to persevere that I will indefinitely receive my breakthrough from Him. I was greatly soothed every time it was my turn to worship on the harp and particularly Daniel 7. As I kept singing it over and over again I felt the weights and the burdens in my heart being lifted from me. I almost didn't want to stop although the time for my watch and worship had come to an end. 

But this issue persisted against me until the last day of the Esther fast. Even after I had broken fast with dinner I was still somewhat annoyed and disturbed in my spirit. My breakthrough came as was promised during the recent Friday overnight just yesterday. I couldn't worship at all that night because I was just so out of it but as I cried out to the Holy Spirit to take over before we began to worship He responded and said that He will do so. After that I don't know how to explain but the way that I sang and worshipped that night was completely different. It was like I was looking at myself in a 3rd person view. I just saw myself worshipping and worshipping and as I just kept worshipping I was caught up. The Holy Spirit just took over and I felt such a release in my spirit that I could just relax and let the Holy Spirit lead the worship. Even as we continued worshipping for a long time I didn't even feel tired but rather the longer we did so the more I felt strengthened and refreshed. 

And then again while singing Daniel 7 the Lord answered me as to what was happening to me. He told me that He was cleansing me and then suddenly my eyes opened and I realised that over the course of this Esther fast I had been set free in another major area in my life. I won't say as to what it is but there was a time where I was addicted to it and had the desire to do it again and again but during this Esther fast the Lord Yeshua opened my eyes to see that He had set me free. I had no more desire for such things and even when I think about it, it becomes more of a burden than a boon to me and it turns me away from it. Amazing. 

I am free at last! After so long, it is done! And when He had told me that during the worship I felt a rush of His presence just fill me and such joy and thanksgiving burst forth from me because He has set me free. 

I am truly grateful for the times I can worship especially during the Friday overnight meetings because that's when I'd usually receive my breakthroughs looking back on it now. Despite what anyone may say, I will not let anyone deny me the work that the Holy Spirit does in my life. If all but me should receive something that night I would consider it to be a night worth remembering and giving thanks for because He has looked upon me and heard my cry and saved me again and again. Such an Elohim so mighty and awesome, is He not worthy of all our lives and our service every moment? 

Psalms 34:1-10

[1] I will bless YAHWEH at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

[2] My soul shall make its boast in YAHWEH; The humble shall hear of it and be glad.

[3] Oh, magnify YAHWEH with me, And let us exalt His name together.

[4] I sought YAHWEH, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears.

[5] They looked to Him and were radiant, And their faces were not ashamed.

[6] This poor man cried out, and YAHWEH heard him, And saved him out of all his troubles.

[7] The angel of the YAHWEH encamps all around those who fear Him, And delivers them.

[8] Oh, taste and see that YAHWEH is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!

[9] Oh, fear YAHWEH, you His saints! There is no want to those who fear Him.

[10] The young lions lack and suffer hunger; But those who seek YAHWEH shall not lack any good thing.

Praise Yahweh! 

-Saturday, 5th December 2020, 5 years 2 months 28 days, 1622