Day 3 of 3

Perhaps this is the way to top off our trip to Port Dickson, by visiting the lighthouse perched by the seaside and to watch the sunset. It really is glorious, not just the sunset but to see the sea and how vast it really is. It puts into perspective that everything that we hold dear can sometimes be as insignificant as a drop in the sea. Much more in the eyes of our Heavenly Father where even nations however large and cumbersome they are are just a drop in a bucket to Him. Our problems in the grand scheme of it all are meaningless and hardly worth noting when compared to the glory which shall be and even now is being revealed in each of us through Messiah. Honestly, looking at the sea has made me quite contemplative of sorts. But the trek here were quite the up winding road.

We are about to head home to both Semarak and Mantin and it doesn't pain me to leave here, for I know that should Elohim be willing we will return yet again and if not He is all the more gracious for something far more incredible than all these. It has been an enjoyable three days here at Port Dickson where ultimately I finally managed to catch up on some reading time of the Word of Elohim which was well needed. This trip has been wonderful and perhaps if Elohim wills it I would like to bring the boys here one day as well to unwind and to just soak themselves here in the presence of Yahweh in Port Dickson. The sun is setting, the night sky is turning up and more so there is nobody and nothing around me save the quiet humming of the lighthouse and the occasional chirps of swallows around the trees near me. The presence of our Lord Yeshua Messiah is here too and that makes this trip worth noting and remembering. Though I know deep within that whatsoever I have experienced, even greater things await me in the days to come. Such that even I cannot imagine. Praise Yahweh. For His mercy endures forever.

-Wednesday, 30th May 2018, 2 years 8 months 23 days, 1903

Day Two of 3

The second day here at Port Dickson is winding down and I am all the more enjoying myself here at this prayer house. It's simply just me and Yeshua for the entirety of the day and that encompasses so much more than what I can imagine to do here. I had plans to go out to many places to take a gander at but in the end, it was so much more fulfilling staying back here at the prayer house to just read the Bible and to just wait upon Him. I am so content with this and this only serves to prove that all one needs is not many activities but simply the presence of Yahweh and the leading of the Holy Spirit and the Word of Elohim; fullness right there.

Just recently I went out for a prayer drive around the town and that too was very fulfilling to my spirit man. I cannot express to the reader right now just how much I am enjoying my time here though it may not seem like I'm going many places nor doing many things. I realise that I don't have to in order to have a good time, fullness of joy and pleasures forevermore are at the right hand of Yahweh and all it takes for us is to tap into His presence and then we can really enjoy ourselves in Him. My schedule here is really irregular in the sense that I sleep late at around 5am, wake up around afternoon and just to read the Bible and nap and eat until it is early morning once more. That's really all there is to it and that is already such a contentment for me.

The second day is passed and now we enter the third and final day of our stay here at Port Dickson. Time flows like a river here and it really zooms past like nobody's business. Having read chunks of the Word of Elohim I find myself filled like how one would be filled with food physically, I too am filled spiritually by reading much of His Word. And yet, there is still a longing for yet more. I want more and with the time blessed me I shall have my heart's desire. This is the time for me to unwind and at the same moment to prepare myself for yet greater things not just for this week presently but also for times to come, however near or distant it may be. Perhaps one day I may, Elohim willing; bring the boys here as well just to rest in the prayer house and enjoy themselves in the town of Port Dickson, surely they'll love that. I know I would, of course Elohim willing...

-Wednesday, 30th May 2018, 2 years 8 months 23 days, 0131

Day One of 3

Oh wow, it's been who knows how long that I've since blogged previously. And now I'm starting again once more especially now that I'm here at Port Dickson just to spend my 3 days to seek Yahweh and to just enjoy myself in His presence.

The last few weeks have been pleasant, challenging but altogether enjoyable. I have thoroughly enjoyed my time during the Waiting Upon Yahweh seminar that had just finished a week ago and now at the end of it all I am here just to find time once again to soak yet more in the presence of Elohim. It truly is a beautiful place, Port Dickson is. Even as it's situated next to the sea the air is clean and briny, the ocean blue and its waves calming. As I just sit here at the beach side on my first of three days here I realise that I truly am the favoured one of the Most High. He has given me so much, blessed me with more than just material blessings but even the spiritual blessings in the heavenly places in Messiah. And I realise that I have contentment, satisfaction in everything I set my hands to because He gives me His pleasures all the day long.

Having just arrived here and beginning to settle down I will most definitely use my three days here to the fullest to unwind, read the Bible more, and just to enjoy myself in Yeshua. That's the greatest pleasure I can find, that wherever I go I may enjoy His presence and so much the more for these three days where it's just me and Him. Having had a desire to come back to the prayer house here, its been months since I had returned and I find that this place is reminiscent of my second home long ago in the highlands of Pahang. There's just such a warm, nostalgic sense as soon as I come here that it truly reminds me of times spent in quietude and when they were less of the hustle and bustle.

I am enjoying myself serving Elohim and by no means am I weary of it. What's to be weary about when everyday is a refreshing and a joy to serve the living Elohim? But I also find that in this ministry the spotlight is constantly on each and every one of us, even when we don't think so. So, to find a place of solace just to seek Yahweh as well as the time is indeed a rare but welcomed gift as I believe not just for me but for everyone in this ministry. It is good that we minister to the people as their needs require so as the glory of Messiah may rest upon us but it too is also good that we take time to minister firstly to Elohim that we may receive empowerment to minister to men.
I haven't take such a long leave as this not since I went to the Holy Land, but perhaps this is well needed. I know for myself that I would need this and now I have and am resting myself in the Lord. It is good to just spend three full days of doing nothing save ministering to Him, surely then my soul shall be refreshed. Let it all slide off and let me continue my rest day, praise Yahweh.

-Monday, 28th May 2018, 2 years 8 months 21 days, 1523

Spiritual Disciplines

You know, as I ponder more and more about how to be even more spiritually minded both in life and mind I find that it really takes less of the talk and more of the walk. I've got no place to speak spiritual things if I myself first do not walk down the same path. So I find that the more spiritual the road becomes the more the walk and talk becomes real. What I mean is that I find myself speaking less about the spiritual matters but living and experiencing more of what I've once spoken of before. This season for me is not where I'm meant to speak so much but rather to absorb, refined, and moulded into something and someone that Messiah the Master would find to truly be sanctified and useful for His purposes.

I'm not really sure how to put what I'm experiencing into words but I find that my talk and daily going ons with the boys under and around me have become quite real. That's no point to talk spirituality when first the life is not spiritually disciplined. So in the various jobs and duties given to us I maintain a real connection with them, not to exalt myself or lord it over them but rather I find myself just speaking real things with them. What I mean by that is that many times I would tell them what we would be doing for today, and slowly coach and show them how this also gives spiritual refinement to the spirit man. Take throwing rubbish for example, simple no? But if left aside for even more than two days and it piles high. Inasmuch as cleaning out surroundings as well takes an everyday reminder and practice, it breeds spiritual discipline I find and in my humble opinion works far better in regards than just fasting.

Spiritual discipline equates a proper growing soil for the Word and Spirit of Elohim to fully grow and develop within a person. And because of that I find that my life is somewhat full of many and various disciplines of Yahweh upon me. Situations, people, occasions, teachings, even the simplest duties I see now instill and distil spiritual discipline. And that's good. One cannot hope to reign over spirits oppressing man when one's own spirit is not in subjection to ourselves in Yeshua Messiah.

[1Co 9:27] But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway.

[1Co 14:32] And the spirits of the prophets are subject to the prophets.

Entering the seminar "Waiting Upon Yahweh" next week, I'm excited. Not only because I'm experiencing new parts of the seminar like never before, but also because I can tell from the offset that something is different from my involvement in it. This is not to boast or to brag about but because it is the Lord's work in and through every one of us. Where we go, we make the difference and change the situations, not the other way around. I am fully confident in the fact that I am indeed the son of Elohim through faith in the Messiah Yeshua and because I am His son I bring His blessing and presence wherever I go. It may not feel like it, I may not even do that but nonetheless because I believe it is done in Yeshua's name.

The same goes for all of us, we are the blessings of heaven to the earth. And I find that inasmuch as Elohim has loaded upon me all His promised benefits from Genesis to Revelation, it is all mine; there needs to be a reigning in of my own spirit so that I would not fall by the same path of pride and arrogance. It's ever so easy to become conceited with what Yahweh has blessed us with and so I thank Yahweh that He rarely leaves me long enough to gloat in myself. With every blessing He brings as well a humbling, a teaching and because of that I am grounded somewhat in Him. Such is the mercy and grace of the Elohim Whom I serve in and with my spirit.

The seminar's going to be awesome, something amazing is bound for us. Praise Yahweh.

-Saturday, 5th May 2018, 2 years 7 months 28 days, 1718