21 Days Fast, 3 Days Times 2

We're fasting now for the upcoming 47th National Prayer & Intercessor's Ads NCS called "Manifesting the Glory of Yahweh's Presence" and we'll be partaking in a 21 day fast to prepare ourselves physically and spiritually for it. And in the course of these 21 days we'll be having 2 or more Esther's fasts as well, meaning no food and water for 72 hours. And what's more it will be back to back! As I write this we are already in the last 24 hours for the first Esther's fast and next week we'll be resuming it once again, what joy eh? 

Honestly speaking, I haven't yet come to the level of fully enjoying the fasts. I mean I understand its benefits and appreciate it much but I do not relish going into it because I know what's going to happen. Cleansing, deliverance, everything that is in the heart will just be exposed because as the flesh is made weaker the spirit is made stronger and everything within is made known to all. Not just for myself but for everyone who partakes in these fasts, after all... 

Isaiah 58:6

[6] “Is this not the fast that I have chosen: To loose the bonds of wickedness, To undo the heavy burdens, To let the oppressed go free, And that you break every yoke?

We have a song about it now, although we haven't sang it yet. But going back to what I was saying, it seems that in this particular area my mind needs to be renewed some more to the point I can actually look forward with joy to fasting. I look forward to the end, but everything leading up to it not so much. May Yahweh have mercy on me because I am found lacking in His sight, there's still so much more for me to grow into in Him. 

One thing is that during fasting the spiritual warfare is very real. As the flesh weakens our connection to the physical also weakens and we become more sensitive to the things happening spiritually. Because of that, the warfare becomes intensified and when there is seemingly no strength, this is the time where we truly learn what it means to fully trust Elohim for all things. 

Zechariah 4:6b

[6b] ‘Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ Says YAHWEH of hosts.

Isaiah 59:19b

[19b] When the enemy comes in like a flood, The Spirit of the YAHWEH will lift up a standard against him.

Even so today the enemy was really bombarding me with so many different thoughts and accusations and condemnations that my mind felt like it was so heavy and on fire but praise Yahweh that as I persisted in the presence of the Lord Yeshua and continued to read His Word I was set free. My mind returned to its clarity but the heaviness and oppressive heat, like the heat of a midday sun beating straight down on me was still there. But praise Yahweh that when it was time for me to worship just now with the harp I was completely set free. Praise Yahweh. There were so many times that I just felt I wanted to run away from the sanctuary but I knew that this was the enemy within me coming out and being exposed. So as I continued to stay in the presence of Yahweh and read His Word and worship Him, the breakthrough came. Now it's as though I'm not fasting, meaning that while I am fasting I am neither hungry nor thirsty but instead I feel full and sated. That's the power of the Word of Elohim for you. 

Matthew 4:4

[4] But He answered and said, “It is written, ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of Elohim.’ ”

We also have a song about this. Truly praise Yeshua for His mercy upon me. I'm not there yet, not by a long shot and yet He continues to look upon me favourably and keeps me in all my ways. Truly this is His grace and love towards me. Praise Him. 

-Friday, 31st July 2020, 4 years 10 months 24 days, 0133

Anticipation

My goodness, it's been a really long time since I've updated. What I've spoken has indeed come to pass, the trials and the tribulations are here. The enemy like I've mentioned likes to come and intrude when we are at our highest because that's when our guard is the lowest. But if you are watching, praying and are ready when he comes then you will not be caught unawares but you will be ready to stand and face him. Well, the good news is that I did that but still I was still found lacking, having chinks in my armour here and there. I wasn't fully prepared and because of that I really had a time of spiritual warfare. The incident I'm referring to happened only just yesterday. Having been riding the high hills of Yahweh I was having the time of my life but because of that high I was careless with my words and inevitably went up causing offense and misunderstanding to occur with my carelessly spoken words. But I praise Yahweh that everyday I have watches on the harp (worship) and the bowl (prayer & intercession) so I have every opportunity to make right with Elohim and with the people I've wronged with my words and I did and boy, does it feel good... 

When I carelessly blurted out my words I realised I couldn't take it back, even if the people knew that I didn't mean it the damage was done already. The sword cuts deep and deep wounds need time to heal but the healing process is sped up in the presence of Yahweh. I felt quite perturbed and uneasy until I made right with the Lord Yeshua for simply mouthing off my words like that and having made right with those I've hurt, I was finally set free from the knot in my stomach and oppression in my mind. Praise Yahweh. 

It really just goes to show that everything the Bible speaks of and the Holy Spirit brings to our remembrance is true, every single one of it. Especially when it regards to our walk with Him, He warns us of every pitfall, every trap and snare, every hurdle that runs our way and He gives us the means to escape and overcome each and every single one of them. 

1 Corinthians 10:11,13

[11] Now all these things happened to them as examples, and they were written for our admonition, upon whom the ends of the ages have come.

[13] No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but Elohim is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. 

Really I want to praise Yahweh that all things work together for good to them that love Him, to us who are the called according to His purpose. And I praise Yahweh that (and this is personally for me more than anyone else) majority of my warfare and my struggles have a one day time period. As it comes I know that as I continue to fight the good fight and to stand on the Word of Elohim, within a span of 24 hours majority of them will be resolved. Such a wonderful mercy the Lord Yeshua has given me and to which I will always remember. 

Psalms 30:5b

[5b] Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning.

Isaiah 21:11-12

[11] The burden against Dumah. He calls to me out of Seir, “Watchman, what of the night? Watchman, what of the night?”

[12] The watchman said, “The morning comes, and also the night. If you will inquire, inquire; Return! Come back!”

Praise Yahweh. 

-Thursday, 23rd July 2020, 4 years 10 months 16 days, 0121

The Hiding Place

It's been yet another week since I had last written but again there's not much else to write about at the moment. Everything is going smoothly and well but that just means that I need to stay on high alert and keep my guard up at all times. Because it is usually when I'm at a high point that the enemy likes to come in and sweep the rug from under my feet. In fact I've been noticing that that's become a trend that the enemy, that it is usually when we have just experienced breakthrough or something miraculous then the enemy will always come in to attack. When we relax after a victory in warfare then that's when the deadliest of strikes come, when we let our guard down. So that's why now after many times falling for the same trick over and over again, I've finally learnt through arduous experiences to keep my guard up especially high during the times of peace and rest in Yahweh. 

You know everyday I've been experiencing the great and awesome presence of the Holy Spirit leading me and guiding me every step of the way. Everyday He empowers me to go through the work given to me with joy and gladness and everyday He refreshes me and takes over the worship during the night sessions when we meet. And everyday He speaks to me and reveals more and more things, everything that the Bible says concerning Him is true. 

John 14:16-17

[16 ]And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever—

[17] the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you.

John 14:26

[26] But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.

John 15:26

[26] “But when the Helper comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who proceeds from the Father, He will testify of Me.

John 16:13-14

[13] However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come.

[14] He will glorify Me, for He will take of what is Mine and declare it to you.

This is the season and the time for us to draw closer to Elohim. He has given us His Holy Spirit as a witness and the seal of our hope for eternal salvation through our Lord Yeshua Messiah. In Yeshua we have the fullness of the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit, being made complete and perfect in Him. As such, we should make full use of the fact that we are so close to the Lord Yeshua now and draw deeper and closer to Him. Because the days are coming when our relationship with Him will be put to the test and through the daily trials and troubles that we have. The enemy will only intensify themselves against us so we must go deeper into the Lord. 

Psalms 32:6-7

[6] For this cause everyone who is godly shall pray to You In a time when You may be found; Surely in a flood of great waters They shall not come near him.

[7] You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance. Selah

-Monday, 13th July 2020, 4 years 10 months 6 days, 0458

Mount Zion

There isn't much to write other than the fact that everything is truly glorious. I cannot begin to explain or describe the exceeding joy that I am experiencing right now as I write this. As I write and remember what has transpired for the past week and prior to that such joy just wells up from within me. I am truly glad to be a son of Elohim, and to dwell in the house of Yahweh and to serve Him all the days of my life. 

Everyday the glory of Yahweh is being poured forth abundantly in such great measures and I am so blessed to be able to be here right now. In this generation, in this time and right now at this place and moment in time I can bear full witness to the confirmation and the glorious revealing of my Lord Yeshua Messiah, in me and in all of us here at Glory Place. When I remember especially the works of Yahweh that He had manifested already in my life and the great work He's doing in me I cannot help but smile and rejoice. Because I remember, as He has brought into my remembrance what He promised me when I first began my journey now He is bringing it forth and it is glorious to behold indeed. Everything and I do mean that. Our Lord Yeshua is faithful, even when many times I must confess that I have doubted or thought it was misguided. 

Because of that I am so glad and I rejoice that I can be found in His presence and that now my fruit is found in Him. 

Hosea 14:8b

[8b] I have heard and observed him. I am like a green cypress tree; Your fruit is found in Me.”

And when I read I begin to understand more and more the story of Jacob turned Israel. From a deceiver, supplanter turned Elohim contended, Wrestled with Elohim, Triumphant in Elohim. And when I read his prayers I find that I can relate to that because having started out knowing not one single thing about my Lord but being superficial about it, I now have become so intimate with Him and everyday now He is here with me. Even now.. Praise Yeshua. 

Genesis 32:10

[10] I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies and of all the truth which You have shown Your servant; for I crossed over this Jordan with my staff, and now I have become two companies.

-Saturday, 4th July 2020, 4 years 9 months 27 days, 2351