Fresh Rain

With this I have at long last come to the end of my 3 months of disciplinary action and reflection and praise Yahweh that at long last I can now begin to move about and help others in ways I was so limited before. Not to say that I couldn't but I was hindered by my own discipline and where I saw the need I was not able to do anything with it because of what has been put on me. But praise Yahweh that at last it has been lifted and now things resume as though they never changed at the beginning.

Looking back, I've had many situations occur because of this discipline and many events have taken place during my discipline. At the very beginning I had thought it wonderful that I was relieved of so many of my duties and responsibilities but now at the end of it all I realise that I do miss them. More so that I was more concerned that where I saw my brothers and sisters in need of assistance and help in many occasions I couldn't do anything to remedy it as my discipline was in effect upon me. But praise Yahweh that now it has been lifted with grace and mercy from the Lord Yeshua to me and now all things resume as of old.

[Phi 3:12-14] Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Messiah Yeshua. Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of Elohim in Messiah Yeshua.

Like I said many things have transpired during and because of this discipline but now it is passed. With every end there is a new beginning of a season with the Lord Yeshua and I am hopeful and expectant of great and glorious things concerning His nature and doings in and through me. What has happened now needs to be laid to rest and to now reach forward toward the things which are before us.

I cannot begin to emphasize enough that this was a rather eventful discipline yet at the same time uneventful. Not much occurred but when it did it was no small blow out. But Elohim be praised because just as He is faithful then He is proven faithful even now in that He has sustained and saw me through all of this to the very end.

Now is the time for a fresh beginning, a time for new things to crop up and for the old to vanish away. Now is the time where Yahweh will begin to bring forth the latter rain which yields bountifully a harvest. Praise Yahweh.

[Zec 10:1] Ask ye of YAHWEH rain in the time of the latter rain; so YAHWEH shall make bright clouds, and give them showers of rain, to every one grass in the field.

-Friday, 1st March 2019, 3 years 5 months 22 days, 0104

Praise Yahweh

A lot has happened in this past week but I really want to praise Yahweh that once again He has proven and shown that above all else He can be trusted to lead me in the right way I should go, even when I myself know not the road I should go. Every time and at every way point He has given markers and signs to turn back and if not in His grace and mercy He makes me to return to Him. Such love the Heavenly Father has toward a son such as I and for that I am forever grateful. Truly He maketh us to lie down in green pastures whether we want to or not.

With the end of all of this, at last we have reached the new beginnings promised to me by the Holy Spirit. And it truly does feel as though I have begun yet again, a rebirth of some sort. The zeal and the joy which I prior to this was slowly declining in intensity has now been reignited to greater heights and depths like never before. Now I realise that it is the time to see through the purpose of Yahweh for this entire year.

With such a great warfare comes great spoils of much gain and abundance as well and I am looking forward to what lies ahead of me. Now is the time as I believe to not only intensify my seeking of the Lord Yeshua for His guidance and leading by His Holy Spirit but also to reconfirm and affirm that all that has happened truly has been from the hands of the Lord and it is to transform me to be like Him all the more. It is as though the scales have dropped from my eyes and at last I see clearly again. I thought that my eyes and ears were opened but through this situations of mine I found that I clearly still have much to learn and mature into. Clearly the clarity that I see has not yet attained to the perfection that is spoken of in the Word of Elohim.

[1Co 13:12] For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

And surely it is now time for me to truly come to the understanding of where and Who I stand upon: the Word of Elohim, Yeshua Messiah. And whatsoever that He says is the truth and cannot lie. That is what I choose to believe and conform to in the hopes that one day soon I will be like Him just as He is. To lay hold of the things for which He has already laid hold of me. Now is the time to seek Yahweh in all aspects and prospects of life and walk with Him and to find that He is more than was promised.

[2Ch 9:6] Howbeit I believed not their words, until I came, and mine eyes had seen it: and, behold, the one half of the greatness of thy wisdom was not told me: for thou exceedest the fame that I heard.

[Eph 3:20] Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,

-Saturday, 23rd February 2019, 3 years 5 months 16 days, 2326

Standing at Two Turning Points

This is definitely crunch time for me. How exactly are you leading me Lord Yeshua and to what manner or form are you bringing me into? Does it call for me to continue onwards knowing fully well that once again I'm stepping into unexplored territory or does it fall to me to remain here at the moment and to witness perhaps the change that Yahweh intends now in this time and season? How exactly are you leading me Lord Yeshua?

Throughout the prayer advance the Holy Spirit had been speaking to me concernng events to come and He has told me to prepare for what He intends to do in and through me in the course of the next season and time. Unexpectedly the answer that came to me was not only one which I was definitely not anticipating but one that will surely bring conflict with it. I am at the mark of crossroads now and with clarity of heart and the peace and comfort of His Spirit I know what the next few steps shall lead me into. Although what awaits for me know is surely heart rending because I know what must be done and the price to pay for it.

I am at peace with what Elohim intends to do and change in me in times to come but I am concerned because of the aftermath of it all once I have made my decision. I am deeply concerned about my family, friends, and loved ones because I know what I must do and the cost of it will charge me exceedingly. But yet there is this assurance from the Lord Yeshua that everything is from His hand and surely even this. In the leading up to what shall happen very soon I see that everything has been by the preparation of Yahweh by His Spirit. Every circumstance and situation of mine points to the fact that this is the way He wants me to go right now for this current new season to come.

Now is the time to truly seek Yahweh right and true and mayhaps Yahweh shall lead us on into the way that He wants and not what we more so I would want. I wait for you o Lord Yeshua. Take over me completely that I may know You and the way You have prepared for me to walk into.

-Sunday, 17th February 2019, 3 years 5 months 10 days, 1927

Pressing Through

Honestly speaking, I can feel as though my tenure of my trials and tribulations are nearing its end and yet for many others around me it has only just begun. During these 3 months where I've been under disciplinary probation has been conflicting in many regards to say the least. I've learnt so much and yet at the same time I've learnt so little. I'm feeling very complex now looking back on the past three months. Truly it was full of many trials to overcome and to learn from and I do believe I have but at the same time I also believe I have not learnt enough to what I ought to. It really is such a complex feeling right now, but nonetheless I give thanks that truly every thing and every moment has fallen into the sovereign hands of the Lord Yeshua.

[Psa 16:5-6] YAHWEH is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup: Thou maintainest my lot. The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places; yea, I have a goodly heritage.

But now as we near the end of February I realise that now for many others the challenge mountain has just begun whereas for me it is to His praise and glory that I am nearly to the point of finishing it all and entering into yet another season with Yahweh. But I've come to realise time and time again that I've only made it thus far simply because He has been there throughout all my situations and circumstances and He has become the reason that I was able to come out unscathed for the most part from it all.

Now, it's time to begin once again. Throughout this time I've been pondering who exactly am I serving and I've finally been able to come to the understanding that I'm serving Yahweh here in this place. Not man, certainly not myself but the Lord Yeshua Messiah. With such a clarity given to me about it I realise that come what may I will not falter;

[2Ti 1:12] For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know Whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.

Such a year has been given to me by Him to seek Him earnestly and to find Him nearer than I first believed. Such a time is this that He has bestowed upon me that now whatever may happen I believe that it is from His hand and for that I gladly receive them with open arms. To Elohim be the glory, amen.

-Thursday, 14th February 2019, 3 years 5 months 7 days, 2033

Simply Amazing He Is

It's been quite the exciting prayer advance. Transforming Glory and it was most certainly the time for many transformations of such. Particularly for me it was one of the most abundantly fruitful times I've had in the sense that I've had plenty of conflicts, trials, disagreements, and even break out of fighting. But truly praise Yahweh that each and every single one in its due time was firmly and completely settled and resolved in its own measure and degree. This is the time I've truly enjoyed because it is such moments as these that I truly come to the understanding where I exactly am in my walk with the Lord Yeshua. And I found that in many of these cases I am still lacking, which is good!

Not good in the sense that I've completely whiffed so many of them but that through these experiences I've found that there is still so much for me to learn and grow into before Yahweh sets me forth for Himself and for His own purposes and will. I've found that I've still many things into which I have yet come to a fuller understanding which means that my journey has yet to be concluded. Praise Yahweh, because I know in myself that if I had succeeded in each and every case given then surely there would be room in me for pride and arrogance to grow in. But having barely pulled through each and every single one of them by the grace and mercy of the Lord Yeshua, I know that I've only come so far because He loves me and that He has something He wants to do in and through me one day and one time ahead.

Until then, I ought to use this time to continue to grow, mature, and nurture the Holy Spirit and His relationship with me. There is still a long, arduous road ahead of me but in the name of Yeshua surely He shall set me in the high places and my feet in a broad place. As far as it concerns me, the beginning of this year of 2019 has indeed meant and dealt well with me, not as I myself see it but because I see Yeshua being formed slowly but surely in and through me. Although what I say concerning myself counts little and next to nothing, it is those around me that will truly be able to tell in time to come and even now. The journey continues and I see the goodness of the Lord upon me. Great and glorious things are beginning to arise and appear now.

[Psa 21:6] For Thou hast made him most blessed for ever: Thou hast made him exceeding glad with Thy countenance.

[Isa 60:1-3] Arise, shine; for thy light is come, and the glory of YAHWEH is risen upon thee. For, behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people: but YAHWEH shall arise upon thee, and His glory shall be seen upon thee. And the Gentiles shall come to thy light, and kings to the brightness of thy rising.

-Monday, 11th February 2019, 3 years 5 months 4 days, 2219