Silent Path

I'm still awake at this time and hour. Considering what is awaiting for me in the early morning I have nothing to really say except that this is a pleasure indeed. As I've said before Yahweh is causing me to see the 24 hours each day as they are. They don't just fly by though they do, but I have been given every and all opportunity to seek Yahweh at the cost of my sleep and that I find is a sacrifice worth undertaking. Because the end results far exceeds what I go through in the moment. Anyways, with this I do believe that the Chinese version of the latest album "On Earth As It Is In Heaven" is officially done. More than that, I found time and a quiet place to just read more of the Bible. To eat, and to sustain for future days.

I truly want to give thanks to the Lord Yeshua for thus far leading me in His path and perfecting that which concerns me. I found that though there may be many things that I want, in His presence I found myself to desire nothing save He Himself. When I am confronted with His goodness and His presence, I am always found boggled because all that I want and intend to bring before Him fades away like wisps. Yeshua brings me into a place where I see that all that I want is met and all I need is fulfilled when I have Him. Because in the end, first it is Him and then everything else follows suit. I truly am privileged. To be able to abide in His house all my days and to continuously bask myself in His presence changes me in ways I sometimes do not see taking place. It's only when the time comes for the Word to bear fruit in my life then will I truly know whether I am thus far walking in the Spirit or no.

For me it's still a time of silent contemplation of many things. And I do believe that won't be changing for quite sometime because I find such answers in the solace with Elohim in the Spirit. Many things are taking place in my life and now I find that the only course of action is taking no action but instead to enter the secret place of the Most High. It's there where I can meet the Most High and everything shall be met.

[Psa 138:8] יהוה will perfect that which concerneth me: Thy mercy, O יהוה, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of Thine own hands.

The road I'm personally taking now, no one can follow. However the road is open to all to traverse, though it be a silent road. Just like how we all have a singular goal to reach the peak of the mountain, there are many ways to get there, many paths to take. This is just the road that the Holy Spirit as I believe is taking me on. And I quite enjoy this road. There is of course a need for the whole body of Messiah, however there will come a time where it there will be no one but just you and Yahweh. What then? If there is no cultivation of a personal relationship with Him and only one of a corporate relationship as the ecumenical body of Messiah then how will we stand? No one can go to our own cross on our behalf, it is our death but also our new life awaiting us after death. It's a road we all must take and so why not begin now? It'll only add to us in future times.

-Monday, 29th May 2017, 1 year 8 months 22 days, 0514

Rest at Work

These past few days have been yet a time where I have been just contemplating about many things but mainly I realise now that Yahweh is doing a great work as I remain quiet and distance myself from the hustle and bustle of daily life. That is not to say exclude myself like a hermit in my room continuously but rather learning to just talk less and enjoying the atmosphere around me more. I've also found that it has become much more pleasurable for me to be able to commune with Elohim when I'm by myself or rather when I'm in a state of quietude with Him.

I've realised something, Yahweh has been adding to me daily though I may not have noticed it. Just recently as I was talking to brother Koh about the work I needed to do for the coming day, he commented that almost everyone has something for me to do. And when he said that (Not exactly that because I've forgotten it, but something along that line. The reader will get the gist) it clicked to me. Yahweh is adding to me, both physically and spiritually through this time of solace and quietness with Him. And I realised that in this time there is no need for me to feel as if something is happening, because what the Holy Spirit does in my life is past feeling, past seeing, and past finding out until He reveals it to me.

I realised that much work has been added unto me and yet the burden of it has not been added. The weight of it is not on me simply because I realised long ago that it is not mine to bear. This work which has been given to me is of the Lord Yeshua Messiah. And as such He will carry me through it. All I have to do on my part is to walk into and through that which He has prepared for me beforehand.

[Eph 2:10] For we are His workmanship, created in the Messiah Yeshua unto good works, which יהוה hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

The work which I am doing now is indeed plenty, however it is not of me to fulfil it. The work, the desire, and even the means to fulfil it is of Elohim Who shall indeed confirm His Word in and through me. Thus, on my part is no pressure at all whatsoever. In fact, all of the work given to me I thoroughly enjoy it because through them I find what is lacking and add it to myself, I find what I need improvement upon, and I find what I have some measure of skill and capabilities in.

[Phi 2:13] For it is יהוה which worketh in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure.

I am also beginning to enjoy my 24 hours each day. I find that I have the liberty to seek Yahweh at any and all given time in the day, of course it comes at the cost of my sleep but in the end such things can always be caught up on. Hearing what Pastor Jean shared on Sunday at City Revival Centre, I felt fired up. Something changed, more so because now I find myself drawn to read the Word of Elohim more than I already am reading and I find that I can just enjoy myself in the house of Yahweh. Any time I can come into the sanctuary to just be in His presence and I find that I am thoroughly enjoying myself here in Glory Place. That is not to say that the previous year and a half had not been enjoyable but rather now I'm enjoying my residence here in His house in a different way. It took a renewing of the mind and that matte will spread on into yet another topic altogether.

Suffice it to say that now, a new season of Yahweh is here now and it is a much more quieter season than previous ones. It's going to be quite the interesting season no doubt.

-Friday, 26th May 2017, 1 year 8 months 19 days, 0056

Quiet

This week has been rather idyllic, though quite contemplative for me. Though few things have happened in this week, the monthly staff and helpers' 3 day fast and pray, and even a wedding; these events really brought me into a time of contemplation and silent meditation. And through this time of just silent thinking I've come to multiple conclusions and many of them are, of course; dealing with myself.

During the 3 days of fasting and praying, I've received once again another breakthrough of strength well needed from Elohim. In all honesty, fasting should be like this, walking in the strength of Yahweh and not succumbing to the weakness of the flesh, no matter how tempting it may be. But that doesn't exclude me from every now and again stumbling at the same stumbling block. To me, I've realised that this war cannot be won through the complete destruction of the enemy, that is the spoil of the war, the treasure awaiting. The real victory comes through attrition because now I see that many of the young people have begun to experience shakings and turmoils in their lives that they begin to question their being here in the first place. Their conviction is beginning to waver and I find that just means their foundation is unsure upon the gospel of Messiah. What we need most right now is not to get rid of our enemies but to learn through the waging of war against them how to endure and become stout hearted.

[Jdg 3:1-2, 4] Now these are the nations which יהוה left, to prove Israel by them, even as many of Israel as had not known all the wars of Canaan; Only that the generations of the children of Israel might know, to teach them war, at the least such as before knew nothing thereof; And they were to prove Israel by them, to know whether they would hearken unto the commandments of יהוה, which He commanded their fathers by the hand of Moses.

We know how to pray, how to worship, how to war, but we don't really know how to endure. The littlest of things slip us up and causes offense to come in. We as the young people, myself included; don't know our end. We think we know so much and yet time and time again we've been proved wrong. And when we are wrong we do not want to learn from it but rather gloat over it. Nevertheless, Yahweh is merciful in that He will not stop teaching us until we either learn or become to stony hearted to continue learning. To whom He loves He chastises that they may bear peaceable fruits into righteousness in Elohim.

[Heb 12:11] Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.

Another thing that I've been so reminded of recently is that truly it is about Yeshua. Without Him we can do nothing and are nothing and yet many times we do so many things without Him and attribute the success of it to ourselves. Life is about Yeshua, everything is about Yeshua. Without Him then we will all be lost already. I've been reminded time and time again that before Him I have nothing to hold my head up high before. Because He causes me to see that it was and is He who makes me ride the high hills and without Him, I become submerged in the depths. He has shown me plenty in this week that I am all I am now because of Him alone. If I were to take charge of my own course then I would surely perish, but I am here now though not perfect yet but being perfected, because of Him. I don't know how to be more precise, Yeshua Messiah is all in all.

[1Co 8:6] But to us there is but one Elohim, the Father, of Whom are all things, and we in Him; and one Master Yeshua the Messiah, by whom are all things, and we by Him.

[Eph 4:5-6] One Master, one faith, one baptism, One Elohim and Father of all, Who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

I would not be here in this present time without Yeshua.

Another thing that Elohim has really been speaking to me about is about entering into the stillness of His presence where it's only Him and me. I found that time of quiet meditation is very needful even for someone like myself. It doesn't exactly have to be quiet, it just has to be Yeshua and me. Whether by myself, on the road or even in the bathroom I begin to find where I can be with Him where He is I can be myself. Everything of myself can just come out and I can freely voice myself to the Highest Who answers those who call upon Him. Whether my issues, my needs, my struggles, my desires, or even that of others I can just bring it all before Him knowing that surely He will help. Thus, I found that this particular week where no one really talked much with me proved to be time where I can just be with Elohim. Very, very nice. Although, it is also in His presence that the nastier side of things tend to surface as well. The deep, well kept secrets all I can freely surface it before Yeshua Who cleanses away all my sin with His blood. And blows, blows cleanse away deep evils.

It's in the time of quietness I can wrestle with Elohim in the sense that what I desire is contended against what Elohim requires of me. And always I find that though I may sometimes not like it, to say I don't enjoy it would be a lie. Because I simply benefit so much by having so much of the burden removed from me.

Though we may find trouble and sorrow, unlike the world we can call upon the name of Yeshua and He saves us. We then can return unto the rest of our souls because Yahweh deals bountifully with us.

-Sunday, 21st May 2017, 1 year 8 months 14 days, 2146

Abundance in the Lord

Why is everything going my way? It feels as though the blessings of heaven has opened on me and that at every given moment I am blessed, either by something or someone. I am greatly blessed of Yahweh and this day truly it is a privilege to be of His household.

I am reminded of one particular psalm for the entirety of this week and it is not just poetic but increasingly glorious and abundant to those who begin to meditate on it.

[Psa 36:7-10] How excellent is Thy lovingkindness, O Elohim! Therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of Thy wings. They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of Thy house; and Thou shalt make them drink of the river of Thy pleasures. For with Thee is the fountain of life: in Thy light shall we see light. O continue Thy lovingkindness unto them that know Thee; and Thy righteousness to the upright in heart.

The more and more I begin to ponder and just meditate upon just these few verses of Psalm 36 I find that everything is becoming a reality. I am indeed abundantly satisfied with the fullness of His house. Yahweh makes me drink from the river of His pleasures. And in His light, the life of Yeshua is the light of men; I see with clarity. The road I am taking is not dark but I clearly see the beautiful ending awaiting me. Over the course of this week, I have felt somewhat burdened for the young people and that burden took the form of words during my sharing for the Youth Meeting in CRC. After that, the burden is cleared from me and it was at that point in time I once again found the vision to continue my walk ever with joy.

I am the blessed of Yahweh. Not because of what He has done for me, but because He lives in me and loves me. Yeshua in me makes me the accepted one in the Beloved. I am the called according to His purpose and I see the road ahead of me. Though it may be fraught with many a things but simply because Elohim, not His power nor His works; but He Himself is with me then I shall never be moved. More often times than not, we tend to focus more on the gifts of Elohim instead of actually pleasuring ourselves in the Giver of gifts instead. We take our boast in the gifts of Elohim by the Holy Spirit upon our lives when in fact our boast, though boasting brings no profit but is a necessity sometimes; should be in Yeshua. Not of the works we or even He has done in and through us but because He lives and ever lives in us that we can have our boasting. Not in things that will vanish in time, but in He who lives forevermore.

I am free, and surely He Whom the Son sets free is free indeed. And yet, many a times the liberty I have is put into question. Nevertheless I found such a joy, a pleasure that comes about when you are in the will of Elohim. The days ahead for me have never been sunnier, and yet everyday there is a contention with the enemy who attempts to block my view. May I in the grace of Yahweh continue to stand in His Son, for there is no Rock save the Lord Yeshua.

-Sunday, 14th May 2017, 1 year 8 months 7 days, 2110

Resting

I find now that time and even the atmosphere is getting much more quieter for me in the sense that though the sounds of everyday life is still there, the melody of harps, praying tongues, and the every now and then voices of those communally living with me in Glory Place and Semarak; it is as though I am being brought into a place where I find the most comfort alone with Yeshua.

[Mar 6:30-31] And the apostles gathered themselves together unto Yeshua, and told Him all things, both what they had done, and what they had taught. And He said unto them, Come ye yourselves apart into a desert place, and rest a while: for there were many coming and going, and they had no leisure so much as to eat.

I realise that this is exactly what is happening to me. Even as I am hearing and have heard that the lives of my brothers and sisters in Messiah are becoming much more busy than it already was, myself included; I find that there is a quiet drawing that has been graciously extended to me. I found that now is the time to cultivate the presence of Elohim in solace and solitude.

Don't get me wrong, we as the body of Messiah do need one another and to go alone with oneself makes our walks that much harder to walk. There is a strength in the unity of Yeshua's body, each doing what each part has been destined to do. And yet, and this is for me in this particular season; I find that I can take the most comfort and pleasure as I am by myself. As the work is being done by yours truly, as I drive back alone, even as I sit and have my dinner in silence I just feel so strengthened and comforted. But when I begin to interact I find that the strength I have drawn is flowing out for that time to suffice it.

This season is graciously given unto me because I have learnt that there is strength that can be drawn unlike any other when one is alone with Elohim. There is a glory that can only come when one is alone before Yahweh and not with others. Just like Moses, he alone was given the pleasure to see the glory of Yahweh like none before him. Although he had taken Joshua and the seventy elders up the mountain with him, Elohim only desired to reveal His glory to him alone.

[Exo 24:12-16] And יהוה said unto Moses, Come up to Me into the mount, and be there: and I will give thee tables of stone, and a law, and commandments which I have written; that thou mayest teach them. And Moses rose up, and his minister Joshua: and Moses went up into the mount of Elohim. And he said unto the elders, Tarry ye here for us, until we come again unto you: and, behold, Aaron and Hur are with you: if any man have any matters to do, let him come unto them. And Moses went up into the mount, and a cloud covered the mount. And the glory of יהוה abode upon mount Sinai, and the cloud covered it six days: and the seventh day He called unto Moses out of the midst of the cloud.

I can sense that despite every duty and responsibility given unto me in this time and season, Yahweh has extended that calling even unto me. To enter His presence, to witness His glory, to enter His rest and just be there. To draw a quiet strength from His presence for days to come. I found that for many of us we have our 'quiet' times. Times when we do nothing and just give ourselves entirely to the ministry of the Word of Elohim, which is good and something to be practiced. But I shall pose a question, what happens when you find yourself having no longer an opportunity for a 'quiet' time? It's not an 'if', it's a 'when' question. Because at the pace the Holy Spirit is working in and through every one of us, the work count will get higher and higher and more vast than we can imagine, encompassing nations about. If we say that we can only draw strength during our 'quiet' times, then does that mean we will be left without strength and help from Elohim if we do not have those times anymore?

One thing I've learnt is that a person may be busy and yet in his heart he is in a place of stillness and quietness with Elohim. A person may be sitting down, praying and worshipping and yet can be so busy in the mind. How to tell them apart? Just look at their faces, do they radiate stress when you look at them or a satisfaction that comes from the presence of Elohim?

[Isa 30:15-16] For thus saith the Master יהוה, the Holy One of Israel; In returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength: and ye would not. But ye said, No; for we will flee upon horses; therefore shall ye flee: and, We will ride upon the swift; therefore shall they that pursue you be swift.

Many a times we think that for many solutions in our lives, something must be done when in fact all solutions in our life stems first from entering the rest prepared by Elohim through Yeshua for us. As we desire to run swift without the rest of Yahweh upon us we will find our problems will be as swift if not swifter than us to overtake us. But as we enter the rest of Elohim, we no longer run per se but instead in Him we begin to move, to live, to have our being. What made Elijah run faster than the chariots of Ahab? Was it not the Holy Spirit upon him? How much more now that the Holy Spirit dwells in us that we can run and not faint? Many are fainting because many don't understand what and how it is to enter the rest Elohim desires us to enter into.

To enter the rest is not anything we can do, on our part is no effort except to believe.

[Heb 4:3a] For we which have believed do enter into rest

[Heb 4:9-11] There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of Elohim. For he that is entered into His rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as יהוה did from His.
Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.

I receive my help and sustenance while on the move because I understand that rest is not simply lying down and sleeping, true rest is from Yeshua. As we go to Him, He will give us the promised rest we so need and desire of to partake. Not just in the times we are physically still, but we can be about our daily needs and duties and still be ever so rested.

Anyhow, this season is for me. Most definitely. Something new is coming and I am expectant to just what it may be. Praise Yeshua.

-Tuesday, 9th May 2017, 1 year 8 months 2 days, 2335

Minister by Worship

When someone says they minister, it means that at the same time Elohim also ministers to that someone. When we draw near to Him, He too draws near unto us.

[Jas 4:8a] Draw nigh to יהוה, and He will draw nigh to you.

[Zec 1:3] Therefore say thou unto them, Thus saith יהוה of hosts; Turn ye unto Me, saith יהוה of hosts, and I will turn unto you, saith יהוה of hosts.

And when we draw near to Him, we enter into His presence by faith and by the Holy Spirit. For now, just picture the high priest. He enter by the veil into the Holiest of All and what does he see inside there? Nothing but the Ark of the Covenant and the incense that seeps in from outside the veil, from the altar of incense which speaks of intercession. The Ark speaks about the presence and the glory of Yahweh manifested and just like the high priest we too now, when we minister do enter that same glorious presence where we can worship and pray unto Yahweh in the liberty that Yeshua Messiah died to bring us into.

[Heb 10:19-22] Having therefore, brethren, boldness to enter into the Holiest by the blood of Yeshua, By a new and living way, which He hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, His flesh; And having an High Priest over the house of יהוה; Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience, and our bodies washed with pure water.

When we minister we are joined by one Spirit to be able to connect and minister to Elohim by the Spirit. And when we do thus, we are changed all the more. Whenever you come into the presence of Yahweh, are you changed? Do you feel recharged, refreshed? Do you experience cleansing, deliverance? Has something been lifted off or put onto you? Any changes whatsoever? Because one cannot but expect change whenever we come into the presence of Yahweh. If nothing is there, if there is no change; then it is simply ministry time and not ministering time. Because when we are in His presence something takes place and we ourselves will know it, whether we have joined together with Messiah or not.

[Rom 12:1-2] I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of יהוה, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto יהוה, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of יהוה.

We all want to fulfill the will of Elohim in our lives but to do that we must first know what it is. To know, we must be transformed with the renewing of the mind. And to be renewed, we must first offer up ourselves as a living sacrifice of praise unto Elohim to take over. I've mentioned partly about how this passage of Scriptures remind me of the Levitical burnt offering, the only offering where the priests have no portion in it whatsoever; all is given to Elohim. Likewise us as well, we are to offer up all so that we may receive all. Yahweh is not satisfied with the majority, He is only satisfied with the fullness that we can give with our giving up of ourselves entirely. On that note, the particular note I'm playing on ministering is about worship and its benefits to one who has truly experienced it.

Worship is likened unto ministering because that is what ministering is all about. The definition of ministering is to serve, to wait upon. It is to put Elohim first and foremost above all. And worship, at least to me; is just like that. When we come to worship together we ought not to bring our problems, our cares, our needs before others or even Elohim in that moment of time. This is about Him being exalted and not about Him meeting our needs though He is able. A habit of mine, is that whenever I'm on worship to always be half an hour early to the sanctuary, not to tune harps or whatnot, though I must sometimes; but rather to tune myself to the flow and working of the Holy Spirit. To just still myself and allow Him to take over the flow of worship. Men can sing songs, but its only those led by the Spirit who will worship.

[Joh 4:23-24] But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship Him. Elohim is Spirit: and they that worship Him must worship Him in spirit and in truth.

Does it not clearly say in Hebrews that it is only by and through Yeshua that we can only continue to offer up our praise unto Elohim even?

[Heb 13:15] By Him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to יהוה continually, that is, the fruit of our lips giving thanks to His namel
Sometimes, we think we know what is best to flow into worship. What songs to choose, how long per song, but none of that is relevant before Yahweh. The Holy Spirit Who directs us is like the wind, we know not where it comes from or where it will go. Our job is to simply avail ourselves to that leading and flow together and not take the leading position, even if we are called worship leaders. The real Worship Leader is none other than the Spirit of Elohim and unless we can flow together there will be no real time of ministering, it'll all be just for show. Even as a worship leader, I recognise that unless I myself can connect with the presence of Yahweh present in every place then I cannot expect the congregation to connect either. If I'm being bogged down by burdens, weights, depressions, and oppressions, then that is exactly what I'm transmitting to the people: my cares, my worries, my problems. They want to see Yeshua, not me.

Thus, the half hour before worship is needful for me to clear out everything of myself so as to allow Yeshua in me to take centre focus. No matter what I've gone through, whether in the current day or in previous times, I've learnt to leave them at the door and just put on the Lord Yeshua Messiah because only by Him can we worship. Because I find that in worship, one can be so refreshed and changed that they only desire more of it as times goes by. Even as I write this, I had a dream prior to this. In that dream, and it was clear; I was worshipping during a prayer drive at night along some road in KL together with my father and Joseph from Vietnam. During that time in the dream, I just felt the presence of Yahweh come down and minister unto myself and I felt so refreshed. The dream ended with us heading back to a house for the night and when I awoke, I found myself totally refreshed.

Given that I have some duties to attend to in a few hours time writing this, I thought I would have needed more hours of rest but once again, Elohim has confounded me. All it takes is just to minister to Him and to believe and you will see the glory of Elohim. Such is the simplicity in the gospel of Messiah that one does not need to wrap his mind around how it is, he just has to believe and then he shall see. It's not the hours, it's simply Yeshua and then everything will be taken care of. Praise Yahweh.

-Thursday, 4th May 2017, 1 year 7 months 27 days, 0721