2019

It's 2019 now. Honestly, the year 2018 passed us by ever so quickly and we have now come to the start of a brand new year in Messiah Yeshua.

Perhaps it's best to begin with remembering all the great and marvellous things which He has wrought in my life throughout the year of 2018. But where would I begin? Time would fail if I should recount each and every single good and perfect thing which Yahweh has done in and through my life throughout this past year. And of course the fact that I can't remember some of it also factors into the equation as well. Honestly speaking, 2018 was a most excellent year for in it I can see the hand of Yahweh working mightily throughout the entirety of the year right until the very last second of it and into the new year. I am glad that throughout this year He has taught me how to rejoice in Him. He brought many of my plans to nothing but in bringing them to futility He has caused His own plans to manifest and be fulfilled in my own life. So through it I've been taught to rejoice not in the fact that my plans are spoiled but that in the spoiling of my plans, His greater purposes are brought to light and ultimately fulfilled. And thus I rejoice that not only am I a witness to the fulfilment of the will of Elohim in my life but also a partaker of it. For such I truly am glad.

2018 was a year where many things were set into motion, many firsts for me. And in those times I found myself either rising really high or falling really low. But in the end, it all served one purpose which was to bring me to a closer walk and intimacy with the Lord Yeshua. Have I attained to what I've desired for the past year in my relationship with Him? I cannot say for sure but I hold onto a greater hope that 2019 will be another year where not only shall I deepen my walk with Messiah but also come to such a level of intimacy with Him that I will not be shaken. I find that throughout the year 2018 there were many things that had to be done and should be done even now but above all else, our intimacy with the Lord Yeshua comes first. When we set out focus and attention right on Him then everything else will be made beautiful in its time of its own accord. For example, the ministry and care needed at Glory Place is far too vast for just a few boys to manage them all. We need the Holy Spirit to take over and when He does take over then the place truly becomes beautiful. And not only that but for every single thing we have to first build our relationship with Him. Then He will fulfil the desires of those who seek Him.

Undergoing this discipline of mine, what is there to say except that truly I've been most blessed by what Yahweh wants to do in and through me during it. Whether it was rightly called for or not no longer matters to me, for it is only a trivial matter in the end. Throughout this time as one who's been relieved of major duties I have the privilege to seek Yahweh and learn many great things from Him through Him speaking by His Word or even by others as well. And even as the tenure of this discipline is continuing on until the next few months I've realised that Yahweh has begun to cleanse me thoroughly. I can feel as though my sins and darkness in me are made manifest for all to see and that brings no shame to me because it is merely the Word of Yahweh that is coming to pass.

[Eph 5:13] But all things that are reproved are made manifest by the light: for whatsoever doth make manifest is light.

[Joh 3:20-21] For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in Elohim.

That's exactly how I feel. Every time the presence of Yahweh begins to flow I can feel as though something dark is being flushed out from my body and I'm made all the more cleaner. Praise Yahweh for that, so thus I come into the light. And not everything that is done is beautiful to behold, sometimes it is gritty and uncomely but nonetheless to walk in the light and have the blood of Yeshua cleanse me is more desirable now than to conceal and allow the wound to fester. When it does manifest and makes itself known then it is done away with forever and I am set free. Praise Yahweh.

2019 is going to be a year of great change for many of us. It's going to be a time where if we're not careful we'll be easily shaken by what we hear and see and do. This is the time where He really is beginning to shake the heavens and the earth and only the kingdom which cannot be shaken will remain and left standing. Changes are coming, although I don't know what sort of changes they are but they will affect the community and will cause many to be shaken if we're not careful. It may be subtle or it may be completely evident changes but above all else, these all come from the Lord Yeshua to us so we must now shun them but embrace them with opened arms. Then we'll begin to see the shift in the spiritual realms brought to the natural. Praise Yahweh.

-Tuesday, 1st January 2019, 3 years 3 months 25 days, 1407

Bible Reading

The Bible Reading is going on and I am thoroughly enjoying myself in it. Just sitting in the sanctuary for almost 24/7 for the past two days has truly allowed me not just to catch up with the reading of the Word of Elohim but also to continuously devour and chew the Word to its fullest capabilities.

I don't plan to make this a long post but I just want to say that the spiritual atmosphere here really allows for so much reading and digesting of the living Word of Elohim. Time just passes by like it was nothing and as soon as I knew it we are already encroaching upon the third day already of this Bible Reading marathon. I really am just enjoying myself during this time. I can really just soak in the atmosphere all day and be in no want. In fact I would hardly feel hungry unless approaching the midnight hour for the entire day, I'm being fed from the spiritual food of the Word. Praise Elohim.

Spiritually speaking this is truly a significant thing which I sore needed once again. To just soak myself in the presence of Yahweh and allow Him to build up for His next manifestation in and through me. For that once more I am thankful that everything truly does work together for good to them that love Him, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

By the way, we're in Ezra now...

-Wednesday, 26th December 2018, 3 years 3 months 19 days, 2209

Reaching Forward

Praise Yahweh for the Young People's Camp. I really enjoyed myself during this camp, having almost nothing to do during it I was able to just soak in the presence of Yahweh and immerse myself in His Word. Because of that I believe that I have received yet again another confirmation for a new anointing but more so I've realised that during my three month long discipline that the anointing is building up. I've come to realise that these three months though people may say what and what not but I personally have come to see the good that Yahweh shall perform upon me during this time and season.

During this camp I have received plenty, even from the onset. But I would like to share what good the Lord Yeshua has done for me during this camp. Throughout the entirety of this camp I've received confirmation after confirmation that there is a new anointing coming upon me and that when it is fully manifested it shall indeed bear fruits to glorify the Lord Yeshua. But during this time I am to let the anointing simmer and to ripen unto maturity and only when He reveals it during His timing then He shall be glorified through all. And throughout this camp I can sense that Yahweh truly is pouring out His anointing day after day. For example there was one such time during worship of the verses of Ephesians 3 that Yahweh told me that He had something to pour out and as I lifted up my hands I felt hot oil running down my hands to my head until my feet. And so on throughout this camp.

What I've learnt during this camp also benefited me much and more so that as Pastor Jean continued to share about faith in Elohim I felt that my faith was slowly being built up. And Yahweh Himself has shown me that He is very very merciful towards me. During this camp I've had my share of trials and challenges but always before each and every challenge arrives Elohim will speak to me through someone or something. And He would always speak through unlikeliest of circumstances and when He does speak my spirit would always let me know that Elohim Himself is speaking to you now. And when the situation does arise, though I may crack my head on how it is going to be resolved Yahweh does it in such a way that I never would have imagined.

Yes, everything is indeed moving and going just as how Yahweh has envisioned it of this I am confident and therefore rest my hope in Him that I shall not be put to shame. Even as I write this I am quite under the weather and yet there is spiritual and physical strength given to me not only to finish today's work which was strenuous but also time consuming under the sun, but to also be able to do all things through Messiah Who strengthens me. I am glad, simply because now I have the opportunity given to me to seek Yahweh for what He wants to be done in the year to come and as we draw near the end of 2018 I remember that truly every word spoken by Him concerning me He has brought to accomplishment and is bringing forth even now. I am so glad that I can serve this living Elohim, steadfast forever.

[Gen 28:15] And, behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of.

[Eze 12:28] Therefore say unto them, Thus saith the Lord YAHWEH; There shall none of My words be prolonged any more, but the word which I have spoken shall be done, saith the Lord YAHWEH.

Now, I am in the comfort of the Holy Spirit in the sense that it is no longer a struggle to worship and to pray especially so early in the morning anymore. The Holy Spirit has taken over and He is the One doing it and not I, therefore I rest in Him ceasing from all of my works. All I do now is to receive, be blessed, and to bless with the same measure He has given me. Praise Yahweh.

-Monday, 24th December 2018, 3 years 3 months 17 days, 1742

Brightness of the Rising

It's like a clarity has come to light in my eyes. Like a haze whose fog has been lifted up from before me. Like a dark road finally illuminated before my eyes and now I can see and not just see but understand path I am to undertake. Let me explain.

Up until recently I've said that I have received a new anointing and have also received the confirmation of it while I was in Ca Mau, Vietnam. But it was not until last Friday overnight where I received a full and complete illumination of what it is and what it entails to.

This new anointing is being poured out on me and even now is overflowing. And to what it entails to is as I've said more than just worship but every aspect of my life. It was good that I had undergone this discipline as of late because now I realise that it is time for new wine to enter new wineskin. I used to be part of the old guard which would always say that the old was better, more savoury but now I see that what the Word of Elohim says is true because it has happened to me.

[Luk 5:39] No man also having drunk old wine straightway desireth new: for he saith, The old is better.

I never understood it until now. When Yahweh is pouring out His Spirit upon me it is the same but a fresher anointing, the likes of which I have yet to experience because I still clung to the old wine. But now I realise that as I let go of all that I've held dear and true I have received it once again but now mayhaps forever.

[Phm 1:15] For perhaps he therefore departed for a season, that thou shouldest receive him for ever;

This new anointing is the same as the one prior to it but in a new and living way. All that I have is increased exponentially and as I believe will abound much more further than I could have believed. I realised that through it all, it was as though the story of Jacob became a reality in my life.

Jacob when about to confront his brother Esau wrestled with Elohim and prevailed. Thus he was given the new name Israel which means "Elohim prevails". When he wrestled with Elohim He touched his hip and as result it dislocated and was out of joint. The aftermath was that Jacob turned Israel had to limp and could no longer run. When he was planning to meet his brother Esau he separated his company to two in the case that he indeed did attack Jacob, he would have a chance to run away. But with his hip now dislocated and he limping he could no longer run from what was presumably to come.

In the eyes of Jacob, as I personally believe; it must be some sort of disadvantage Yahweh has given to him. True, he now had the new name Israel but now all his plans and desires have been thwarted and has come to nothing. He had nothing to gain and everything to lose but in the end, he gained his brother Esau's love and trust back as well as the complete safety of his entire family. He was finally at peace with his brother after many long years because he lost what he held onto for something substantially greater beyond the eyes of man. Yahweh truly blessed him. Where Jacob could not prevail "Elohim prevails", Israel.

And I realise that that same story is now happening to me as revealed by the Holy Spirit. I presume to think that I had lost something when in fact I had gained a greater and better portion of it. This new anointing that is being poured out and revealed to me is indeed a great and awesome blessing. Even just recently I've noticed that my worship has changed, no longer do I try and choose songs but by His grace and mercy He always comes and His presence always abides now.

Everything has worked out far better than I could have imagined and for that praise Yeshua for the great things He has done. Now I know that as we come to a close of this year 2018, we also come to a close of who I once have been. 2019 holds the hope and the glory pertaining to the son of Elohim and so shall I lay hold of that of which Messiah Yeshua has laid hold of me already.

Another thing which I've realised during my time off duties is that I'm not just a son of Elohim. I had thought that there was all to it but now I realise that Yeshua had two names by which He was called: the Son of Elohim and the Son of Man. I truly am a son of Elohim but now I realise that I am also a son of Man. Not just to relate to things pertaining to the things of Yahweh but also able to relate to the limitations and travailing of man. I have come to realise the need to not just be able to know the heart of Yahweh but to also know the heart of man. This is making me soft, I mean the things which used to bother me no longer do because once I had set the bar so high and lofty that even I could not reach it and yet expected others to. But now I've removed all expectations that I've placed upon myself and others. Let my expectation be from Him alone.

[Psa 62:5] My soul, wait thou only upon Elohim; for my expectation is from Him.

In other words, what I want to expect from myself and others must and shall come from Him. He dictates what I ought to expect and thereby nothing is lost but all glory is gained when what He speaks is fulfilled. I can laugh right now because I've finally been set free and now my only concern is to see the will of Yahweh fulfilled in my life first beyond any others. Praise Him

-Saturday, 15th December 2018, 3 years 3 months 8 days, 2126

Next Day; Continuation

Pastor Brent led the sharing for the morning session and he talked about the move of Yahweh and what is needed to stir a move of Yahweh anywhere any time: faith, giftings, and anointing. When you begin with either one of the three the other two will follow suit as you continue. He gave his example how he moved in the gift of prophecy in a church and as he prophesied accurately, the faith of many began to rise up and the anointing became even greater. In 20 minutes, there was a move of Elohim in the church he visited. The move of Yahweh is supposed to be normalcy for everyday church life. And so he shared and demonstrated as he did the day before and soon began to minister to the people once more. The session soon ended with the salvation of many souls which is always a good thing as I believe. Praise Yahweh

-Wednesday, 12th December 2018, 3 years 3 months 5 days, 1114

We went to Pastor Bao's church to minister and to pray for the complete renovation of it which will be due next year Elohim willing. The testimony surrounding this place is quite amazing, from such a small lot now it has grown into a large compound with room enough for families to stay and live together as well as to serve Yahweh together in a community. The renovation work here is vast and improving upon many things as well as to increase the number of families that can stay here together. A group of young people are now serving full time here at Pastor Bao's church as well. Praise Yahweh.

When we began to worship on the harp here the presence of Yahweh came down strong and mighty upon the place and drew other Vietnamese here to worship with us as well. We really had such a stellar time here just praying and worshipping for a long while. Soon after Pastor Phaik Kiang prayed and ministered to the Vietnamese present and we have heard mighty testimonies as a result from some of them.

Brother Duk (pronounced Dook) was a former drug addict of 4 years but was mightily set free and chose to serve Yahweh at Pastor Bao's church. As Pastor Phaik Kiang was ministering to him he saw a bright light and a dove coming down upon him. He also saw a key that was given to him to unlock something.

Brother Ven is also a former drug addict of one year who when he was delivered also chose to serve Yahweh full time as well. Praise Yeshua for them all, what marvellous things Yahweh is doing and has done in Vietnam thus far.

And I also forgot to mention that we rode on motorcycles to and from the church, but that's just a side note to what Yahweh is doing in Pastor Bao's church.

-1356

The moment I entered into the hall they started dancing like Korean style. I think they even had a Korean sounding song up and running. Whether it was Vietnamese or what I do not know but I had to high tail it out of there. In my defence, they had everything on; the flashing lights, the disco ball, oh my Elohim I pray.

-1903

I'm four floors down and yet I can still hear the music banging from above me clearly. Wow. Now it's something like funky jazz music.

-1908

We didn't really join back the session after that, we just spent our time to pack and prepare to depart for another overnight trip back to Ho Chi Minh city before our soon departure early the next day. It's been an enjoyable trip, Ca Mau. Perhaps the greatest breakthrough was that I've realised that I've received a new anointing. I've felt that I've mentioned that before but it gives regard to mention again I suppose. We barely worshipped during our trip and yet when we did worship the presence of Yahweh came down strong and mighty upon us, upon the place, upon the peoples. And yet I can tell that this anointing carries something more than just for worship although I am yet uncertain for what that implies. The warfare was great but the breakthrough greater. There's a really subtle anointing about me now but what that implies perhaps I will have to see in the near future Elohim willing...

So now, we prepare to head home. See you soon.

-2244

How to Pronounce?; Continuation

The hotel where we're staying at is the same venue for the seminar which will host over 1000 pastors, leaders, and elders from all across Ca Mau and Vietnam together. And praise Yahweh that He has opened the way for us to have harp worship with all of them this day and the next. But of course that time is to come, first breakfast.

Before breakfast I would like to say that the hotel is extravagantly decorated. I mean the lobby itself is full of bombastic chandeliers and chairs the kind you would see a recently married couple would be sitting on during their dinner reception. For one I think it's pretty interesting to see chairs fit for kings all over the place and then again for such a small hotel is this sort of furniture really all that needed? I feel like there's a hit and miss somewhere or other.

The food is good, well as expected of hotel food but the Vietnamese really do know their coffees. It's really packed and good. Kaw kaw as my brother Jefrin would call it. Soon enough it's time to meet up with Pastor Phaik Kiang and the girls to pray, worship for a bit, and prepare for our main session worship in the seminar during the afternoon.

-Tuesday, 11th December 2018, 3 years 3 months 4 days, 0835

We started late and ended early but nonetheless we had a powerful half and hour of harp worship together with the Vietnamese pastors and leaders. The place is crowded and very very hot here. Humid would be the right word since there's not a fan in sight but there's over a thousand people crammed into a small hall. And the way to walk through is very narrow so much so I had quite the obstacle in front of me to transport the harp back to the room. As soon as our worship is over then an American pastor took over to minister and share the Word. Houston (whether that is where he is from or his name I do not know, I don't read Vietnamese) is sharing about the demonstration of the Spirit and of power and he began to minister, to release power and to prophesy.

He began to share to the pastors and leaders here that your congregation wants to hear the Word of Yahweh from the mouth of His servants the prophets and he is teaching on how to hear and know what voice and what prompting is the voice of Yahweh. He also shared that the power of Elohim is always present and always moving everywhere but it is that we people do not move together with Elohim when He moves. He taught how to see, hear, smell, taste, and feel for the move, voice, and prompting of Yahweh and demonstrated it with a few of the Vietnamese in the presence of us all. Hmmm, interesting. Quite interesting.

I just found out that his name is Brent Douglas. Never heard of him before until now.

-1550

My ice is a fish, my drink has ice and it's the shape of a freaking fish. Amazinggggg!

Also, we took a stroll around in the even time to the shops and stalls surrounding the hotel since in the night we have no worship schedule or whatsoever and the other fact that we can't understand Vietnamese. We went to a nearby stall to have some fried cakes and Vietnamese coffee. I've said it before I'll say it again, the Vietnamese really do know their coffees. But I think the roadside coffees trump those brewing in hotels. They are just that good. Really kaw.

-1713

This hotel small it may be but it is like a labyrinth. Corners which go here and there until I myself have gotten lost trying to find the lift upwards. And when I do arrive up at the floor where the seminar is being held, the first sound that greeted me was really really loud music in Vietnamese. We weren't as loud as this when we worshipped but this is ear splitting loud and I'm standing all the way at the back here with Pastor Phaik Kiang and the girls Joey and Melissa. Really, the sound travels.

-1853

We took our leave as the worship ends since the sharing will be in Vietnamese and instead went to our room and worshipped together on the harp. Not surprisingly, Pastor Phaik Kiang came in a while later and thus declared that the sharing was over (we began to worship at 8.00pm and she came in at 8.45pm). We really want to praise Yahweh for the work He is doing here in Vietnam. Though we had merely worshipped for less than half an hour or so many people especially the pastors and leaders could immediately sense the presence of Yahweh move from the first song onwards and the whole hall was filled with the sound of Vietnamese worshipping together with us. Over a thousand strong choir to sing together with us despite them hearing the songs for the first time, many experienced breakthroughs. One such person said that he had returned to his room to rest because he was tired but as soon as he heard the harp worship (they really amped us up quite loud) he felt the presence of Yahweh enter his room and pulled him to the hall to worship and immediately he was refreshed.

We also met many old friends and new ones, particularly those who have either attended our seminars before or even served in Semarak for a while back before many of us arrived; the first generation. Praise Yahweh that the great testimony was that everyone who had attended Semarak before when they came to Malaysia went back to Vietnam on fire and fervent for the Lord Yeshua until this day and many have become pastors of churches and leaders of prayer houses. Praise Yahweh for that.

-2103

Nothing Short

You know there really isn't much to write about at this moment in time. Perhaps all that has been going on in my life so far is that I have been given a sabbatical leave from the majority of my duties and I am thoroughly enjoying the rest Elohim has prepared for me for the entirety of this month of December. This month, I've hardly any duties and because of that I can rest more and enjoy more so the presence of Yahweh at each and every service and meeting here in the ministry. Honestly speaking, it's as though I've become once again a seeker here in Glory Place and that is something I enjoy.

You know, this was something that I had asked Yahweh once before: that He would indeed give me rest in the duties and ministries that I have. Once again not to say that I'm overburdened by what I do because I would not be doing what I am doing if I do not enjoy doing it in the first place. I enjoy what I do but there came a point in time that I realised that I needed to step back from my duties for a bit and seek Yahweh and through the incidents prior to this Elohim has granted me the desires of my heart in ways unexpected. And though it has just begun my tenure of complete rest from all my works I am already enjoying it to the fullest.

I am glad because I am in the hands of the Messiah Yeshua, and that all things which He has spoken to me through His Holy Spirit has indeed come true. He told me He would shake me good and He has shaken me well, He told me that despite that He would have a blessing for me in the midst of it, and indeed He has prepared one for such as myself. He also told me that no matter what anyone may say or do, this will last until the final day of this year and that through this experience a greater depth of knowledge, understanding and intimacy will be broken through to. For such a reward for such as person as myself who has timelessly fallen short of His glory He truly is gracious and merciful, longsuffering and compassionate to those who love Him. Nothing has fallen to the ground of what He has spoken to me and surely nothing ever will. Praise the name of the Lord Yeshua Messiah. Amen.

-Saturday, 8th December 2018, 3 years 4 months 1 day, 2059

Season to Remember

It really is quite baffling how fast the time is flying right now. One moment ago it was just the beginning of 2018 and now here we are at the last 4 weeks of this year 2018. Truly Yahweh is hastening His work on earth and cutting it short in righteousness and to usher the second coming of our Lord Yeshua Messiah.

This year has been a great year, having had many highs and lows but nonetheless I see that I am still on the journey upward and having the upward call I am made all the more sure of my calling to serve Him. This is the time as I believe now to remember the marvellous things which the Lord Yeshua has wrought in each and every one of us. That as we end this year, I personally would want to have something to give thanks to Yahweh for and most assuredly He has blessed me so much that I am left with innumerable blessings and gifts from Him.

And not only that but throughout this year He has made His Word become even more manifest and real to me in my walk with Him. Every word, every sentence, every phrase and promise spoken in the Word has one way or another been made flesh in my life and for such a reason as this would I not give thanks? Many people search the Scriptures thinking that they have life within but the Word testifies of the true life which came into the world through the manifesting of the Word. The Lord Yeshua is the Living Word of Elohim and the Scriptures testify of Him and that in Him is spirit and life and praise Him that that was what I have found and am living in even now by His grace and mercy.

I came to realise that to live in the Spirit is simple because it only requires faith for Elohim to truly begin to lead, mould, direct our lives into His will. Faith is to give complete trust in Him leaving no backup plan or second choice. And He honours such faith. With the same faith we are assured of our salvation, with which we believe in Him that He heals us, the same faith it is needed to live in and walk in the Spirit. Not because of what we can do, else that would not be faith but because He is sovereign and that He is able to do all things.

And so, I have seen that my life, my road though sometimes filled with potholes have all led to the will and purpose of Yahweh once again. Not because I charted the course but because He has led me. Praise Yahweh for His Holy Spirit Who teaches all things and brings unto our remembrance all things that the Messiah has spoken to us. And I am glad that what He has told me of long ago and promised to me He is bringing and has brought to pass. But all these blessings are merely secondary to the greatest blessing of all of drawing even nearer, deeper and more intimate together with my Lord. He is my Elohim and I am His son. Truly, when one walks closely with Yahweh He makes even my enemies or in my case, my situations to be at peace and working together for my good according to His purpose. Such is His great love for me to which I am truly humbled to experience time and time again.

It has never crossed my mind even once and I do not believe that it shall ever that I even ponder of returning back from whence I came; it is the single greatest decision of my life to give my life to serve the living Elohim. He never failed and remains faithful to this day. I am greatly satisfied with the fullness of His house and of His holy temple.

-Monday, 3rd December 2018, 3 years 2 months 26 days, 2245