Timelessness In Time

It's now 3 days-ish into the seminar and I'm already losing track of the time and the days. The days are just breezing through and time is becoming more and more irrelevant. This in itself is a wondrous breakthrough because this is the first time experiencing eternity during the seminars. Back then I used to see all my duties as duties, it was my obligation to perform them but now something has changed. It's hard to describe but really it is about a change in the perspective. Pastor Jean talked many times to us young people about experiencing eternity and now I'm beginning to see it coming to past.

This seminar thus far is far different in the sense that to me it has been very chilled to a sense. I'm seeing my work as no work and where my help is needed whatever it may be I'm more than happy to oblige despite appearances. In fact I'd reckon that the amount of work for this seminar concerning me has been decreased exponentially and now all the time I can chill even when I work it's pretty chilled as a particular brother of mine enjoys to say. Even now there is no better word to best describe my situation here in this seminar. Even though sometimes I lack sleep, even though sometimes I see troubles brewing, even though sometimes I miss those moments all in all it's very chilled here with me. Praise Yahweh.

I feel set free, whatever I need to do I can because I have the Spirit of liberty in me that freely gives me all things to enjoy thus. Although not everything edified myself or the brethren but nonetheless I have the liberty to do so. It's only on my part whether I want to do thus for the building up of my walk with Elohim or for the tearing down of said walk through various means and lusts. It's as though I am as comfortable here as I am at home, the same liberty that belongs only in the house is now being made manifest here in this seminar for me.

Looking back on what I've written it looks pretty gnarly and bad to a tee. But I just don't know how to describe just how free I am. I see all things working together for my betterment if not now then it will be treasured up for a later time. How absolutely wonderful and now I can see that change is coming. Change from which I do not know what to expect of and from. People are changing, the times are changing, but we have an Elohim Who never changes. We put our hope on and in Him and His Son Yeshua Messiah. Something wonderful is coming for those who are able to go through what comes next. Only the rich fulfillment, only the green pastures belong to those who first walks through fire and water.

[Psa 66:12] Thou hast caused men to ride over our heads; we went through fire and through water: but Thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place.

But even then we have a living hope. In Yahweh do we trust.

[Isa 43:2-3a] When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. For I am יהוה thy Elohim, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour:

-Sunday, 29 January 2017, 1 year 4 months 22 days, 0155

Long Post

It's here now. Tomorrow is the beginning of the 40th National Prayer Advance 'Harp and Bowl; On Earth As It Is In Heaven'. The advance will continue on for a full 10 days and even then during the middle of the advance will be the Harp School held for the first time and most certainly not the last time. Leading up to it all the preparations made for this seminar has been varied and somewhat different than the previous ones that I had attended before. Usually, the days before the seminar are quite busy and meticulous and everyone is scurrying about getting everything and anything done in preparation for the advance and that includes myself. But for the past 3 days and even today I'd reckon, it has been free and easy due to the constant down pouring of the rain ranging from a small drizzle to a robust shower; coating Glory Place with a cool mist and chilly weather throughout the days recently.

Now here I am, writing this particular post even so early in the morning and I know that there are those who are even awake now working on the harps, reading the Bible, worshipping, praying, and taking the watches prayerfully here, in Semarak, and even in CRC. Looking back the road that has been paved for this particular advance is one wrought with many a trials and tribulations. Much more to myself than to others. Not to say that anyone is exempted but the privilege to warfare is given to all sons of Elohim and we would be missing out on so much simply because we become afraid of what should come upon us. Breakthrough only begins amidst breaking within ourselves and upon our enemies. In the days leading up to this advance I have been bombarded by many things: physical manifestations of the enemy. Ulcers, hurts, physical pains in the body, spots. Mental instability from those around me trying to shake me. Old hurts, flaming emotions, grieves and sorrows. And even spiritual dryness. The urge to continue on in my clinging sins, the need to pick up the phone always and the needless succumbing to temptation and sin. And yet I am glad. Why?

You cannot begin to imagine just how happy I am. It is such a joy that encompasses me about and such a peace that I can enjoy constantly. Through all this even as we draw near to the advance I can see already the end of it. Even writing now at 4 in the morning and just looking outside my window I am reminded of the many murmurings and complaints that have come my way due to my incompetence and yet I just feel such a peace that is falling not only on me right now but on the entirety of Glory Place. The glory of Yahweh is alighting upon us here and now. I am glad that all these things have come upon me for many a reasons but I suppose that one of the main reasons is that because Elohim is giving me the privilege to live what I preach about. He has given me the honour of going through what I have always spoken of and now I see that Yeshua Messiah is so real unto me. In the midst of my issues the Messiah is lifted because where I am at my weakest He is shown the strongest in and through me.

[2Co 12:9-10] And He said unto me, My favour is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of the Messiah may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for the Messiah's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

It feels like I could just keep smirking like this all night long because throughout this time of patience and perfecting of His work I myself am being perfected. This all points in the lack of power within myself to overcome and instead points to the unshakable fact that only in Yeshua is my hope. Without Him I am lost, perished in the wilderness but now because of Him I have every reason to smile and be glad even in the times when I ought to be saddened. I know full well that if now in my current state of mind and thought I were to be perfected I would without a doubt leave Messiah and instead trust in the power of myself. My faults cause me to cling and cleave for everything unto Yeshua and even now the most basic things I have begun to see will be marred without His Spirit leading me into and through it.

This will most certainly be a long post. About time I'd reckon and I will be spending time just laying it down. I have much to say and yet as time continues on the need to speak it out becomes lessened and lessened. Because I see that why should I complain to any other when I can just bring my cares to the One Who cares for me and just abandon myself at feet? I know the power of silent prayer and thanksgiving, not giving voice my problems and issues and not bringing it forth to man who may or may not have the answer but rather to Yahweh Who knows all things and performs all things. Not to say that I should not share my burden with any other but now I find that even that requires discernment because not everyone can carry my weight and vice versa. What you go through might not necessarily be something that I can help you with much less bear together with you. And even then there are those who think the burden will be lightened if shared across the board with everyone which might be true sometimes but most certainly not everytime. Which is why I find that now the greatest solution to all things is just to abandon myself to Yahweh let Him be my Elohim.

Actually I didn't really want to write about all this but instead I had wanted to just express how awesome Yahweh has been in bringing me through all this preparation for the upcoming advance and yet here we are. How wonderful. I find myself just bubbling inside right now with such a song of praise unto Elohim simply because He is worthy of it all. I am reminded constantly that the greatest blessing He has thus far blessed me with is not material blessings, not the family extended unto me, not the many revelations in His Word even but simply what Paul says:

[1Co 8:3] But if any man love יהוה, the same is known of Him.

To know Him and be known by Him is the single greatest pleasure I have felt throughout my time and stay here for the past year or so. On account of everything that has thus transpired in my life, through all its ups and downs it all leads upwards and there is nothing greater than to know Yeshua for Who He is and to lay hold of Him inasmuch as He has laid hold of us.

[Phi 3:12] Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of the Messiah Yeshua.

And now it is drawing ever so near: the day of the beginning of the advance and even as I believe a breakthrough and a change so marvellous that we will either be pushed upwards or shaken downwards by it. This advance I have thus far with my own eyes witnessed great warfare unlike those before it that even those who appear standing are shaking before the storms and winds ahead of them and those appearing shaking are standing on solid rock. It is here in this seminar that many a changes will begin to take place without a doubt. It is here that I believe those who were thought at the back seat will now rise up and those on the top will be brought to humility. It is here that the plans of many men and women, though they being the sons and daughters of Elohim will be moved into wondrous paths so unexpected that it will be obviously the hand of Yahweh upon them. Breakthrough cometh and only those willing to step up to face the Goliaths and be the Davids Yahweh is looking for will get it. This will be a marvellous time for the people of Elohim but more so for those who will be able to breakthrough because I know that no one will ever be the same after this advance one way or another. To put it to a beautiful close:

[Psa 2:1-4] Why do the heathen rage, and the people imagine a vain thing? The kings of the earth set themselves, and the rulers take counsel together, against יהוה, and against His Anointed, saying, Let us break Their bands asunder, and cast away Their cords from us. He that sitteth in the heavens shall laugh: יהוה shall have them in derision.

[Psa 59:8] But Thou, O יהוה, shalt laugh at them; Thou shalt have all the heathen in derision.

Now is the time I hear the Heavenly Father laughing at the counsels of men and where He will show that only His will shall be done on earth as it is in heaven. Now is also the time that He will be laughing with joy with His sons and daughters as they begin to manifest in this season. Truly the season of breakthroughs have come at last! Praise Yeshua!

-Wednesday, 25th January 2017, 1 year 18 days, 0444

Trials and Tribulations

A flurry of emotions are swelling up within me like a storm. I feel angry but not at anyone in particular. It's the enemy that I'm angry with because they had dared to touch my family and more so those I love. But I am also quite saddened that no one sees this, that what they're going through is nothing but the contentions of the enemy against the fulfillment of the Word of Elohim in their lives. They can preach and preach all they like about how they've already overcame or are overcoming and yet when the enemy comes in they immediately begin to sway like dry leaves in the wind. It just really puts a dent in my heart to know especially that my loved ones can talk the talk but when the time comes to walk they fail with stride.

Not to condemn them but I simply put them into remembrance unto Yahweh that this is simply the results of not listening to what He says through different people and means. Though a drunkard after having drunk his fill repents, he must still bear the fruit of drunkenness and that comes from over drinking oneself. Though a driver repents over causing the death of someone other in an accident he must still bear the fruit of death that has come. Likewise now the years looking back have once again returned to haunt not just my family but my friends as well. The years past are surely catching up to them and when they do it will swallow them whole.

No one wants to forget, and that will be their destruction. Everyone wants to remember the good times long past and the times used for learning but despite all this we have been commanded to never look behind ever again.

[Luk 9:62] And Yeshua said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of יהוה.

And yet we still do. To our own hurts and demise. I thank Yahweh truly for He has given me even the gift to forget because now I see that I am but a fraction together with those who want to move forward never bringing anything, any extra baggages with them. Why do we still remember our past? It is evil. Why do we still draw our pattern of living from our past when our pattern is He Who is? Yeshua is the great I AM. He is ever present and never past. So why? Why?

I am deeply troubled by this because I see that now Megan is especially being duped by the enemy and despite what I have told her she is now beginning to fall into a pit. There is nothing that I can do, period. The warning has been giving and now the burden laid on me is that by the sure mercies of Elohim that He would bring her up once again. She is caught up in a swell of her own emotions. And it is those same emotions that will destroy her if she is not careful. That is also a critical point that I see in my father. Despite the good that he does he thinks that he is capable of all things but now is the time for his own shakings to come. True that with Messiah in us we are able to do all things but as of yet I have not seen Messiah in my family doing all things. It's all pretend and for show. Now is the time that Yahweh wants to move but simply because we think that we are ever capable to do His work for Him then He will not move one bit.

The time is coming not just for the both of them but even for us all. The Holy Spirit demands complete respect and obeisance to His voice and ways. If we will not be led willingly then He, being gentle as He is will lead us no further until we come to an end of ourselves. And I am concerned because the time that humanity came to an end of itself was because of the flood. Will we have to likewise perish in the flesh so that the spirit may be saved in the day of our Lord Yeshua Messiah?

All this is not by coincidence. With the seminar 'Harp and Bowl; On Earth As It Is In Heaven' just around the corner the enemy has pulled out all the stops and have begun to send their Goliaths to us. Now Yahweh is looking for His Davids but are we willing to be taught by Him just as how David was or will we begin to put our trust in our own ways like Saul did and we surely know how his end was. This is exciting to know that all that I have said has been confirmed one way or another, whether good or bad it had all been confirmed. Now is indeed the time of breakthrough but can we actually breakthrough or will the enemy break us instead?

-Monday, 23rd January 2017, 1 year 4 months 16 days

Changing of the Seasons

Things are beginning to change once again here in this ministry, especially amongst the young people serving here. There's ever so slight a shift in their behaviours and beliefs that now is the time where what Pastor Jean has prayed has begun at last. The shakings are here once again and this time it looks like it will be ever so minor but with major ramifications for us all.

Leading up to this upcoming seminar in a few days' time, 'Harp and Bowl; On Earth As It Is In Heaven' and I can't help but get this sense that it is not just talking about praise and prayer here but the whole package includes. What it means is that the warfare in the Heavenlies will also be manifest here in this time in earth as it is in heaven. And how true that now with my own eyes I'm beginning to see that we young people are in for something marvellously great. But of course the thing with breakthroughs is that we can't call a breakthrough a breakthrough if there is nothing for which to break through. The enemies of our soul will be here in this time to deter and sway us away from walking onwards with Yeshua but praise Yeshua that He has given us assurance in His world. That in Him we have already overcome and the world and its cares are subject to us instead of vice versa.

All that is left on our part is to walk the path with which Yahweh has prepared for us to walk into with Him. He leads us and guides us because He is our Elohim and we are the sheep of His pasture and hand. Needless to say that the path we walk is uncertain, fraught with troubles but the path we walk carries hope. In fact we have a living hope in Messiah that we are not forsaken but are ever with Him where He is.

Leading up to this seminar, many changes will most definitely happen and is happening even as I write this. But the fact of the matter is we cannot be stiff necked any longer lest we lag behind to our disadvantage and inevitable destruction. With change must come the willingness to accept and conform to the change because all that comes our way comes with the blessing and permission of our Heavenly Father. We cannot be stuck in our old ways any longer I perceive, it is only due to the grace of Elohim that He has allowed us to get comfortable all this time but now it's time we once again be transformed with the renewing of our mind so that we may continue to prove what is the good, acceptable, and perfect will of Elohim in our lives. It's time to loosen up our necks because Yahweh has taken from us the bonds and yokes that made us all hard, we have no excuse not to.

-Friday, 20th January 2017, 1 year 4 months 13 days, 1814

From Dark to Light

It's good that sometimes I see things not turning out in my favour or as how I had envisioned it to be. It just goes to show me that I have yet much in me to be cleansed off from and that of all that I have already received and been gifted with it is just but the beginning of much more. My errors cause me to see the necessity of a Saviour in my life and it is good to know to such things causes me to cleave all the more to Yeshua. To love Him more than my necessary bread.

It has been a while since I had last blogged apparently and it has been longer since I had last been to morning devotion which begins every weekday at 8am to 10am due to the needs of the recording being done before the upcoming due day of Wednesday. That is not to say my day begins late but rather I wake up to continue recording in recent days. Today was apparently a free day in the morning and so I had every opportunity to come and join the morning devotion like before. That is until my father texted me 6 something or other in the morning. I thought it would just be about something or even nothing but apparently he came armed. All of a sudden he began to criticise my way of living and the staying conditions of the boys' dorm are not up to standard and thus many complaints have begun to pour in. This is actually the first time I'm hearing this because of the times I've asked the boys who stay here in the dorm with me as to whether they enjoy it here or would they rather shift elsewhere, they unanimously say they enjoy staying here. Like a sanctuary beside the sanctuary rarely does anyone come up here and that is why the boys have every liberality to be as they are. Not to say that they are left unchecked but rather they can just talk freely here and be themselves. That is also not to say that they do as they please, we have made it a point to keep the places we stay as neat and clean as we are able and suiting our tastes. Not to mention that they to the best that they can try to attend the meetings and services and that is why I'm there to just monitor them apparently as I've been told. But not everyone's taste are the same so there will always be those who are looking to step on toes.

My father really hammered into me that I have been suppressing the opinions of the boys. If that is the case then what else can I really say? My father is always right even when he is wrong he must be right. Though we sometimes agree on many things there is something that always causes contention: the method of execution. My father is a doer, applying what he has learnt in his years to his methods of training and teaching me, my sister and the young people and even to the advice of the older ones. But as for me I have already received my mandate and solution to every problem that really causes a problem to crop up in his teaching me: I do nothing.

Yahweh has taught me a long time ago that really the solution to everything is to just do nothing and let Elohim be Elohim. What is a god if not a force or higher power that must be worshipped and adored? A god is something or someone that demands full attention and obeisance and that a god would decide one's course of life. That is Who Yahweh is to us but more than that to His sons and daughters He is our Heavenly Father. And my Heavenly Father has already taught me that the key to everything is just to look unto Yeshua, the Author and Perfector of our faith. To just be still and to know that He is Elohim over our lives. That means He governs every course of action we take.

Personally, that is what I enjoy doing best; nothing. I had long ago since asked the Holy Spirit to take over and to give me rest and He is performing the former and had given me the latter. There is nothing better than that a man should rest in Elohim and cease from his own works. Now I do not count out the fact that there will come a time when even we must take action but for me I have seen and witness and testify to the fact that everything that has happened thus far has only happened so wonderfully beyond what I can imagine simply because I did nothing. The Holy Spirit told me that I ought to do nothing so that I might receive everything He has from me and know I see that this not only applies to me but I believe to everyone as well.

Praise Yahweh! You know I had begun this writing with the intent for something else but now I am just so ministered to and lifted up in my spirits. Lagenda is about to begin now and more than that I am delighted once again. I came pondering over what my father had said and though he may be right, it still weighed me down aplenty. But now, it is not on my part to perform. It's all of the work of the Spirit now and for that I am glad. I came unprepared to share the Word of Elohim but now I'm so charged up. How awesome and wonderful it is to be in the hands of the living Elohim to them that are His sons and daughters for He bears us up above His everlasting arms if we ever should stumble and fall.

-Monday, 16th January 2017, 1 year 4 months 9 days, 2009

Hebrews 4:12

This season it feels as though that the fruit is beginning to mature. This is on a personal note of mine but as of right now I can see plainly that the months of prayer before have at last begun to be brought forth into fruition. I can see by the Spirit that He reminds me of the prayers I have made months prior and now they are showing forth its physical manifestation in my life and surrounding.

That is something to give thanks for but nonetheless what Yahweh has really put into my heart in this time is that He truly is the Elohim Who remembers everything. Who sees all, hears all, and certainly recalls all. Everything I have done up until this point in time whether they be to the glorifying of the Heavenly Father by the Spirit or not so edifying actions taken has been noted and written down for times to come. Perhaps to bring to remembrance of the sovereign goodness of Yahweh or to remind me that of myself outside Yeshua I am nothing. All in all, He continues to show me that above all what has been sown into the Word of Elohim has not been for naught but will certainly reap the harvest in due time.

This just means that all the times that I have read the Bible over and over again are not for nothing. They are being kept for a time and a purpose to come. This is great because then the need to memorise and remember the Scripture verses does not fall upon me but rather it now comes by revelation for its due time and due season. He will be the One to guide me into all truth in their correct times and circumstances.

[Pro 15:23] A man hath joy by the answer of his mouth: and a word spoken in due season, how good is it!

Truly then John 14 comes to pass here in my life that all the things which I have read which Yeshua had spoken He will bring into remembrance in their correct time of manifestation.

[Joh 14:26] But the Comforter, which is the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

The Holy Spirit has the power to bring back to our remembrance all that we have read from the Bible but how can He do so unless we first fill ourselves up with the Word of Elohim? When we remember something we draw from our past experiencing it but we cannot remember something if there is nothing to draw from in the first place. That is not to say that Yahweh is incapable of bringing forth something from nothing, which He can; but He is even more eager and looking over us to perform His words.

[Jer 1:12] Then said יהוה unto me, Thou hast well seen: for I will hasten my word to perform it.

Thus the necessity and the importance and the power of the Word of Elohim looms over me reminding me that this Book that I handle is one that gives life and power and the Spirit freely without measure to those who truly find Yeshua in it. After all, in the entirety of the volume of the book it is written of Him after all. So it becomes on my part to continue to store up more and more of the Word of Elohim in my life, even if I don't understand what I am reading but I know that in due time the Holy Spirit will bring it into the full light of revelation of and in Yeshua Messiah.

[Pro 15:28] The heart of the righteous studieth to answer: but the mouth of the wicked poureth out evil things.

A word fitly spoken in the right time and the right place is much more desirable that for many words with no place for them whatsoever.

-Saturday, 14th January 2017, 1 year 4 months 7 days, 1925

Proclamation

It's been a while since I had last written. There's much to tell but I'm at a crossroads at where to begin. I believe that it is best to begin at the current fasting and prayer. This month's recent fast and pray has been quite an interesting one if I may so reckon. Despite me breaking my absolute fast at 4am on the last day, it was quite enjoyable and different to say the least. I had to proceed with recording and had to lend my voice to the tunes and it was amazing to see the Holy Spirit take over. Even when we were fasting for 3 days without touching food and water our voices were pitch perfect. Well, calling it that might be a long shot but it was our usual singing voices with no drawbacks from the fasting whatsoever. You'd expect that our voices would be raspy and hoarse but it wasn't and that in itself is yet another miracle that we sometimes take for granted. Our whole life is meant to personify Yeshua's which means that it to personifies a life filled with miracles every day. This is no exception. Continuing on with the testimonial. On the second day of the fast we began recording by far; and this is one biased opinion that I am giving, the most difficult song I have had the privilege to listen to and to sing along to for over the course of 8 hours from 8pm onwards to the dawn of 4am the next day. It took a real toll on me but praise Yahweh I have had no greater pleasure than to finish that song at the end.

Really all we had to do was to sing a certain phrase of that song 3 times but the times where we slurred our speech or messed up our timing was incalculable. Nonetheless it is by the grace of the Lord Yeshua Messiah that we had actually managed to finish it at all. I had thought that we would have called it off until the next time we recorded again but praise Yahweh that we finished it and did it sound marvelous in the end. At the end of the recording session I felt a prompting from within saying that it was time to wrap up this fast. And wrapped it up I did. Never had ice lemon tea felt as invigorating as it did the moment it touched my throat. It was almost like waterfall of pure delight cruising down my throat quenching my thirst. Call it what you will, but I personally believe that so long as we continue to walk with Yeshua by the Spirit He would turn even our mistakes into something glorious unto His name. After all:

[Rom 8:28]] And we know that all things work together for good to them that love יהוה, to them who are the called according to His purpose.

It was only at the end of the fast that I had seen just exactly why I was called to put an end to the fast early. On the last day when the staff and helpers of Semarak and GP Mantin gathered together in GP to end the fast corporately, the electricity was cut minutes after we began. It was hot, humid, and for those who continued in the 3 day absolute fast; a marvelous thing that Yahweh has done. From where I sat I could see people dozing off in the humid heat, fanning themselves with cushions no less, and some even with the gall to return to their rooms to wait out the heat storm. People were sweating like nobody's business but frankly speaking I did not really sweat that much. In fact, I felt pretty normal at that time so much so that I could concentrate on the worship and what Pastor Jean was sharing with us. Despite having only a brief rest before gathering together I felt refreshed the longer the day dragged on. Praise Yahweh that truly in His foreknowledge He allowed me by His grace to break fast before this event because even I know that I would find this to be quite torturous indeed, hoping not for the second coming of our Lord Yeshua but for the returning of the air-conditioning​ and the coming of dinner time. My mind would be elsewhere and not focused on Yahweh.

Usually what we do during a corporate meeting during the fasting and praying season is that we would gather together from 11am to 5pm and longer Elohim willing. We would worship, pray, wage warfare, wait upon Yahweh, hear Pastor Jean share the Word to us etc. But this time was completely different. Pastor Jean asked each of us to declare forth the power of the Word of Elohim by searching through the Bible and proclaiming loudly the verse which speaks on the Word. So it began I honestly that was absolutely enjoyable and fun. Megan, my sister commented on the fact that she has never seen our people perusing through the Bible ever so diligently before now. Everyone was thoroughly enjoying themselves just proclaiming the Word of Elohim which is living and powerful. The time just flew and our circumstances forgotten, we actually forgot that we were sweating and hot and humid. We were just too focused on the Word. Everyone took part in it and as it continued on I could just sense such a deep pleasure of Yahweh as a Father upon the good works of His sons that we are doing exactly as He pleases. For me it felt as though He is so pleased with us that we are just declaring His Word with such exuberance and excitement. This fast and pray was exquisite and I believe that it will only become better as time continues onwards.

It is late already and I have to get up soon, the second part in which I would talk about the current changing of the seasons I will write given the time Elohim willing. Until then, reader...

-Saturday, 14th January 2017, 1 year 4 months 7 days, 0501

Psalm 119:143

You know considering that recently I have been involved heavily with so many different duties and agendas I am somewhat relaxed right now. Not that I was at the beginning though. I really racked my head to try to balance it all out without nothing left behind nor leftover. It really took a toll on me and also factoring in the fact that I have never had any experience whatsoever with recording music, the levels peaked. Recording music, vocals, mixing, balancing, bouncing; all these things I had no idea how to operate and what more how to produce a beautiful track. It was as though I was groping in the dark. But thankfully there were those around me who have had experience in such matters and as such guided me as much as they were able to teach in conjunction to how much I was able to absorb. Needless to say they were many times I mucked up and was reprimanded because of it. I dreaded that, but really there is not one person I've met thus far that enjoys getting scolded.

This really oppressed me plenty. But over the course of my days in the recording team for the new album to come, I have received my breakthrough. And that breakthrough unsurprisingly came from Psalm 141:5:

[Psa 141:5] Let the righteous smite me; it shall be a kindness: and let him reprove me; it shall be an excellent oil, which shall not break my head: for yet my prayer also shall be in their calamities.

This really opened my eyes to see that indeed Yahweh rewards those who diligently seek after Him. What I mean by that is that a long while ago I had once prayed to Yahweh that in Yeshua's name He would take me and break me from my pride and haughty ways. That He would thoroughly shake and break me so that I may be remoulded into the ideal vessel of honour unto Him, sanctified and useful for the Master and prepared for every good work. Through all these it really struck a hard blow to my ego and now I see that it is a good thing. My prayers are getting answered and through all these breaking down I am being rebuilt up on the Foundation tried and sure, Yeshua Messiah.

I realised a while back that the greatest blessings come in the midst of hardships. Sure, we can receive breakthroughs in our times of rest and peace but it is when there is confrontation that there also will be breakthrough. Just like how David through Elohim broke through all his enemies like water, so too is it the same with us.

[1Ch 14:11] So they came up to Baal-perazim; and David smote them there. Then David said, Elohim hath broken in upon mine enemies by mine hand like the breaking forth of waters: therefore they called the name of that place Baal-perazim.

Confrontation with the enemies of our soul is a good thing because they bring with them the breakthrough that we seek. The house of Yahweh is situated beyond the valley of the shadow of death and one must pass through it to enter His sanctuary as in Psalm 23. In the same psalm it is given unto me the revelation by the Holy Spirit that Yahweh prepares for us His people a banqueting feast in the midst of our enemies. The greatest of joys are found in the midst of sorrows because unless we know what we have lost then only do we treasure what we still have left and will continue to receive from Yahweh.

I found out a long time ago that of all the breakthroughs I have received, one of the greatest I have gained is from their borne from adversity and contention. I remember that there was a brother who was at odds against me. It was over something really petty but apparently to him it mattered a great deal. Not going into the matter further, one day after months of him avoiding me and refusing to talk to me the strife within broke out like rushing water. He pulled me one side to berate me and scold me for things long past. I realised during his reprimand by the prompting of the Holy Spirit that this is the time for the breakthrough for the both of us. For me because it is the effective working of the Spirit within which fueled me with so much joy for my brother being set free and for him because at long last this burden is taken off him through this. I wasn't angry with him despite the things he said, rather I was glad in my heart that at last he is a free man in Messiah once again no longer bound prisoner by past hurts and meager contentions. We reconciled and have long since moved on. Praise Yahweh for that and for him.

Thus I look forward to the revealing of my faults and failures because it is in these times that I am reminded that I stand not because of myself but because of Yeshua in me, my hope of glory. The errors of my ways causes me to always look unto Yeshua acknowledging my constant need for His intervention and taking over in my life. If I was perfect I know within my heart full well that I would not need Yeshua one bit but because of His great mercy He shows me areas still lacking in my life and that causes me to cleave onto Him all the more. Troubles and anguish may come but in the end it is the Living Word of Elohim within us that keeps moving us onto perfection. Praise Yahweh for that.

-Monday, 9th January 2017, 1 year 4 months 2 days, 0401

Patience over Passion

I can't sleep at the moment. Possibly because now is the ideal time to write about what has been on my mind as of recently. Time and time again a single story has just kept on returning to me and considering the current season and situations that we are in in Yahweh it is most certainly well timed. The story of the pilgrim called Christian and his plights to get to the Celestial City to see the King of glory. Written by John Bunyan one particular story keeps on returning to me in moments like these. The story of Passion and Patience.

[I saw, moreover, in my dream, that the Interpreter took him by the hand, and had him into a little room, where sat two little children, each one in his chair. The name of the eldest was Passion, of the other Patience. Passion seemed to be much discontent, but Patience was very quiet. Then Christian asked, What is the reason of the discontent of Passion? The Interpreter answered, the Governor of them would have him stay for his best things, 'till the beginning of the next year; but he will have all now: But Patience is willing to wait.

Then I saw that one came to Passion, and brought him a bag of Treasure, and poured it down at his feet; the which he took up and rejoiced therein, and withall laughed Patience to scorn: But I beheld but a while, and he had lavished all away, and had nothing left him but rags.

Christian: Then said Christian to the Interpreter, Expound this matter more fully to me.

Interpreter: So he said, These two lads are Figures; Passion of the men of this World, and Patience of the men of that which is come: For as here you see, Passion will have all now, this year; that is to say, in this world; so are the men of this world. They must have all their good things now; they cannot stay till next year, that is, until the next world, for their portion of good. That proverb, A Bird in the Hand is worth two in the Bush, is of more authority with them, than are all the Divine testimonies of the Good of the World to come. But as you saw, that he had quickly lavished all away, and had presently left him nothing but rags; so will it be with all such men at the End of this world.

Christian: Then said Christian, Now I see that Patience has the best Wisdom, and that upon many accounts: 1. Because he stays for the best things. 2. And also because he will have the Glory of his, when the other has nothing but rags.

Interpreter: Nay, you may add another, to wit, the Glory of the next World will never wear out; but these are suddenly gone. Therefore Passion had not so much reason to laugh at Patience, because he had his good things first, as Patience will have to laugh at Passion, because he had his best things last; for first must give place to last, because last must have its time to come; but last gives place to nothing; for there is not another to succeed. He therefore that has his portion first, must need have a Time to spend it; but he that has his portion last, must have it lastingly: Therefore it is said of Dives, In your Lifetime you received your good things, and likewise Lazarus evil things; but now he is comforted, and you are tormented.

Christian: Then I perceive it is not best to covet things that are now, but to wait for things to come.

Interpreter: You say truth: For the things that are seen are Temporal; but the things that are not seen are Eternal. But though this be so, yet since things present, and our fleshly appetite are such near neighbors one to another; and again, because things to come, and carnal Sense, are such Strangers one to another: Therefore it is, that the first of these so suddenly fall into Amity, and that Distance is so continued between the second.]

I'll leave it to the reader to digest what he can from this particular parable that John Bunyan wrote but for me I have gleaned so much already from his book and what more this particular story within a story. This does not just bode with temporal wealth but with everything else in between. In this new year I realised that what I need now is the fruit of the Spirit which brings forth longsuffering and patience. Not to suffer long but rather to just wait and see the salvation that Elohim can and will wrought forth not just for me but for everyone else as well in the meantime. Why have something now which will not last when I can wait for Yahweh's timing in which He makes everything beautiful in their due season? What He gives in their due season is eternally lasting and that indeed is something to hold onto and continue forward unfazed by what can be seen.

To those who know my current situation, it is not anything like that at all. It's going well I believe with me but now is not the time for me to claim my inheritance just yet and to go on and splurging it with prodigal living. Rather now is the time that the Holy Spirit had graciously chosen to teach me to wait for Him and His time. Just like James says in his letter:

[Jas 1:4] But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

A revelation that came to me recently is that it is indeed Elohim Who works in us both to will and to do according to His own good pleasure. However the work He does is indeed a good work but together with patience; on our part to wait on Him, then the good becomes the perfect work leaving us perfect and entire and wanting nothing. I want that, to have no want for anything but to be completely satisfied with whatsoever Yeshua Messiah has decided to put on my plate. And the way to attain to it is by simply to wait upon Yahweh, because really there's nothing we can do whatsoever without Him and His Spirit working in and through us.

[Psa 127:1] Except יהוה build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except יהוה keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.

And without Yeshua Messiah nothing can be done. We will have no access to the Heavenly Father without Him and it would be utterly foolish to think otherwise. Yeshua encompasses us all about and is all in all. He is everything that we need, we desire, and we must have.

[Joh 10:9] I am the door: by Me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture.

[Joh 14:6] Yeshua saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by Me.

[Joh 15:5] I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in Me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without Me ye can do nothing.

This indeed is the season of much blooming in the lives of the young people. However a flower does not bloom in the blink of one's eyes. There is a need to take care and to nurture the plant before it blossoms and bears forth fruit sweet to the taste. And to wait to the revealing of a flower's beauty requires patience and the need to watch over it. Thankfully we have an awesome Vine dresser who looks after us who abides in the True Vine.

[Joh 15:1-2] I am the True Vine, and My Father is the Husbandman. Every branch in Me that beareth not fruit He taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, He purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit.

-Wednesday, 4th January 2017, 1 year 3 months 28 days, 0351

Blossom

We're in the first day of the new year of 2017 and things have begun to take place at such a brisk pace already. Considering what the Holy Spirit have thus far revealed to me concerning this year, this will most certainly be quite the interesting year to behold. We have had the privilege of ending the year on a personal high note, just waiting on Yahweh and having His Spirit take over as we entered a new year. Really it's not about how high the worship goes but it just matters when the Holy Spirit is present and He takes over that all things become ever so glorious. For me that was a high note in itself that we could give thanks to Elohim for 2016 by just waiting for Him even till the early hours of 2017. Despite the ruckus caused by all the incessant fireworks just blasting right outside our windows, it makes me glad because it just shows that we are doing something right. The enemy causes a stir the more we press into the presence of Yahweh. That makes me glad.

This year is most certainly a year for breakthrough. Not just for me personally but I believe that it is for all others as well that this year would be the year that the breakthroughs we sought would come to fruition. However wonderful it may be and it is to be expected, that wasn't the interesting bit that the Holy Spirit. I'll leave it to the imagination of the readers for now but this year many things will begin to take place that only we young people will understand and have a secret passion for. Relationships. Not just with Yeshua alone but with one another as well. This was by far the most interesting season that the Holy Spirit had revealed to me thus far simply because behind all this facade I am still a young guy and it would make me a liar if I said that I had no interest whatsoever in all these things. I am excited but I am also concerned because as far as I know it, of all the trials and tribulations that have assaulted the young people in this ministry none had as much success in causing a mess like relationships. I am conflicted in my feelings because this is to my advantage and learning as is all seasons that Yahweh brings me through but this is the season that I would have to tread lightly or risk falling into a deep pit and getting stuck myself.

Relationships with Elohim, families, friends or something more personal; no matter what it may be this season will be the season that everything will blossom and bloom. It's just the first day of the new year and yet I have received confirmation after confirmation telling me that this season is exactly what I reckoned it to be so. It's funny how the Holy Spirit keeps bringing me to conclusions and answers so beyond my comprehension that I just thank Yahweh how long ago He has taught me to discard the thoughts and logical reasonings of my mind in favour for the being led by His Spirit. If I had entered this season with still such a stronghold in the mind concerning arguments and whatnot then it's most obvious I would fail in this season with flying colours. My fall would have been great, in fact it still could if I do not tread lightly in times to come. But praise Yeshua He has sustained me until this point in time despite my imperfections still.

Something is blossoming this year amongst the young people. Things are beginning to take place and the whole puzzle piece is falling together. This year is indeed the year for breakthrough and it comes in ways we cannot possibly expect or comprehend with our minds. My concern for this season is that we would lose sight of our true purpose: pursuing and looking only at Yeshua Messiah. Instead of building each other up, our relationships with one another might just hinder and even tear down what Yahweh has built in our lives. But by the grace of Yahweh this will be a season where things will just begin to bud. Let's go through and remain focused on what truly matters, everything else comes after we first set our hearts and minds in seeking the kingdom of Elohim and His righteousness which can only be found in Messiah Yeshua.

-Sunday, 1st January 2017, 1 year 3 months 26 days, 2159