James 1:3-4

There's nothing really to write back home of at the moment. At this time and season is the call to be sober and vigilant sounding forth, because now we're entering the season for warfare and perseverance. Arguably, more than warfare now is the testing of the patience of the saints. 

Right now, I have an abundance of peace with me and within me. I know surely that no matter what may come my way as long as I lay hold upon my Lord and Saviour then He shall see me through yet again. Of the many times He has brought me through, this time shall be no different. And in this season and time more than anything else, the key to overcome the trials and testing laid before many of us is to be patient and wait for the salvation of Yahweh. 

But beyond that, I am glad. Deeply glad within my heart because I know that my faith is surely founded upon the Rock Who is Messiah. That no matter what may come my way, I know for certain that I shall continue forth evermore until the Glorious Appearing of our Lord Yeshua once again. 

Galatians 2:18-20 (UKJV)

18 For if I build again the things which I destroyed, I make myself a transgressor.

19 For I through the law am dead to the law, that I might live unto Elohim. 

20 I am crucified with Messiah: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Messiah lives in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of Elohim, who loved me, and gave himself for me. 

-Sunday, 7th November 2021, 6 years 2 months, 1105

Refuge from the Storm

Last week I received quite the warning from the Holy Spirit to prepare myself for the days to come. Because there will come a time when I will need to go through the storm once more but His promise is that He will be right there with me. With that in mind, I kept it in my heart and remembrance of what He said and thoroughly prepared myself once again for a time of shaking and testing. And it came as how it was told to me. Really, now that the testing is finally over I am really thankful that once again He has brought me out safely and in peace. 

Psalms 66:10-12

[10] For You, O Elohim, have tested us; You have refined us as silver is refined.

[11] You brought us into the net; You laid affliction on our backs.

[12] You have caused men to ride over our heads; We went through fire and through water; But You brought us out to rich fulfillment.

Isaiah 43:2-3a

[2] When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

[3a] For I am YAHWEH your Elohim, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior; 

The testing came just like a torrential downpour, one after another. One hit after another but throughout it all I realised that I wasn't shaken nor was I disturbed by what was happening to me. Rather, I was at peace and had peace within myself to see it through to the end. For that I'm really thankful because through this particular refining that I can see the growth that the Holy Spirit has caused to flourish within me. I saw the improvement, the difference made when He takes over and I just rest in His presence. And now that the storm has passed me over I can once again give thanks and continue my journey in serving and knowing my Lord Yeshua more and more. But as I've mentioned time and time again that I still see that I am far off from reaching the end of my journey and race. It still feels like I'm still in the first quarter of the lap and that inasmuch as I've grown and matured, there's still so much more to be done in my life by Yahweh. 

Nonetheless I am thankful that there is a place, a ministry where I can just give my life up so that I may attain to Messiah. That I can serve Him all the days of my life and continue to know Him more and more for myself. Surely there will still be days where the storm comes and strikes but I have an Eternal Hiding Place for myself always. Praise Yahweh. 

Psalms 61:1-4

[1] Hear my cry, O Elohim; Attend to my prayer.

[2] From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

[3] For You have been a shelter for me, A strong tower from the enemy.

[4] I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah

Psalms 57:1-3

[1] Be merciful to me, O Elohim, be merciful to me! For my soul trusts in You; And in the shadow of Your wings I will make my refuge, Until these calamities have passed by.

[2] I will cry out to Elohim Most High, To Elohim who performs all things for me.

[3] He shall send from heaven and save me; He reproaches the one who would swallow me up. Selah Elohim shall send forth His mercy and His truth.

Isaiah 25:4a

[4a] For You have been a strength to the poor, A strength to the needy in his distress, A refuge from the storm, A shade from the heat; 

-Sunday, 24th October 2021, 6 years 1 month 17 days, 1059

Summary of Few Weeks

You know the more I look back on all the previous posts that I've made and I recall just what exactly happened soon after that, I am amazed to say that many of them have been led by the Spirit and the pen had been taken over by Him in that aspect. Many of the things that I wrote were pretty much prophetic of the times and things to come, especially where it concerns me. This is not to brag but I am just reminded that the Holy Spirit has always given me a clear heads up and warnings especially to the seasons and times we draw near into each time. He has not ever given me counsel and on point advice to turn situations around. 

Why exactly am I writing all this? It's simply because now we are in the midst of deep cleansing so everything that is hidden in our lives are being exposed and dealt with by the light of the Holy Spirit. I myself am not excluded from this deliverance and cleansing and again I find myself to be so filthy and dirty in His presence. Whenever He cleanses me and wants to expose the deep things which I hide, I am always bracing myself for the heavy blows and impacts that I'll receive. It's like I'm always riding in a bumper car and I'm getting knocked about. I'm safe by the protection of my car but nonetheless I am still taken for a spin and tumble every time. That's how I always feel during the times of cleansing. I know it is for my good but I just can't get used to the fact that I need to receive so much humbling and correction, whether by the Lord Yeshua Himself or by those whom He wills to use. I am familiar with it but I wouldn't say I have grown amorous towards it at all. 

I don't have much to say now. Other than truly, what I have written has come to pass yet again. I'm in the midst of warfare and immense cleansing. And yet I know clearly that I shall come forth once again from all of this. Hallelujah. 

-Friday, 8th October 2021, 6 years 1 month 1 day, 0142

Prepare for War

We're nearing the end of September now. But what am I record or say? As of this moment we are all experiencing breakthrough upon breakthrough and as Pastor Jean has mentioned prior to this season and I also too believe that we are in the midst of a season of great reward. But of course, with abundant blessings also come the turbulence of trials and tribulations. As many as are receiving the blessing and the breakthroughs so much the more that many are also struggling and are at the precipice of decision, to stand for Yahweh until the end or to crumble under the herd mentality. 

The warfare is intensifying once again and it's not just myself sensing that but others from different nations also received the same things I did. So we are in agreement. The Holy Spirit is moving across nations and continents, from the centre of the world to the ends of the earth everyone will experience the hand of Elohim upon them whether for good or for otherwise. And He has given us in these said times time to return to Him, the call is sounding out far and wide, loud and clear and many are answering it. Although it is my concern that many more are ignorant to the times we are living in, that when sudden destruction comes it will be too late. If we do not make the Most High our dwelling place now in the times of peace and somewhat quietness then in the times of storms and floods we shall be swept away I'm afraid. And believe you me it will come, because everything that has been written shall come to pass. 

2 Timothy 2:20-21

[20] But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some for honor and some for dishonor.

[21] Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work.

Psalms 91:9-10,14-16

[9] Because you have made YAHWEH, Who is my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place,

[10] No evil shall befall you, Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;

[14] “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him on high, because he has known My name.

[15] He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him.

[16] With long life I will satisfy him, And show him My salvation.”

We're nearing the crux now, the eye of the storm where it is most peaceful and yet surrounding us will be wild winds and hurricanes and thunder and lightning and fire. Let us return to the Lord Yeshua while there be yet time to do so. 

Isaiah 55:6-7

[6] Seek YAHWEH while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near.

[7] Let the wicked forsake his way, And the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to YAHWEH, And He will have mercy on him; And to our Elohim, For He will abundantly pardon.

-Saturday, 25th September 2021, 6 years 18 days, 0618

6 Years

It's one day now past my 6 year mark of serving Yahweh and I think and remember of the many things that I have experienced and gone through during this past 6 years. I've seen people come and gone, I've seen the high hills of the Lord and also the deep pits of difficulties. I've gone through much struggles and tests of faith and patience. Received many miracles, healing and deliverance. Having know the company and the fellowship that I have and can have much more with the Holy Spirit and also with others. Friendships formed and lost, seasons come and go and yet here I am this day. From the beginning on 7th September 2015 until now it's been an exciting 6 years of serving Yahweh. And although there were many times that I had to endure affliction and even the unjust cause when it comes to serving Yahweh I have not regretted stepping out from the world to serve Him full time. 

The world right now is on the precipice, it's only going to become much more restricted and harder from henceforth because it is just as foretold in the Bible. 

Matthew 24:6-14

[6] And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not troubled; for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.

[7] For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines, pestilences, and earthquakes in various places. 

[8] All these are the beginning of sorrows.

[9] “Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for My name’s sake.

[10] And then many will be offended, will betray one another, and will hate one another.

[11] Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many.

[12] And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold.

[13] But he who endures to the end shall be saved.

[14] And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come. 

The world is taking sides now, and it is clear that as Christians we need to make a choice. Take a stand for our Lord even at the cost of our lives and livelihoods. Because being in the world and immersed in its systems, it will only draw us further and further away from the Lord Yeshua instead of bringing us closer. How can we say He is our Healer when we are sick we go to men to be diagnosed and take medication daily? How can we say He is our Provider that when the time comes instead of believing He will provide for us and our family we instead take it upon ourselves to earn a wage and to pay for the bread which we eat? The world is made in such a way that is it entirely independent from Elohim and teaches everyone to be so when at the beginning of creation, Yahweh had made mankind to be entirely dependant upon Him. We must make a choice now before the door closes, before the choice is made for us whether we like it or not. 

We are dependant on so many things that we find it difficult to put our trust in Yahweh for even the simplest of things because since childhood until now we've been taught that we ought to earn those things which we wanted with our own hands. Not so with the Lord Yeshua but when we ask in His name He will give it to us so long as it pertains to His will and His will is not a mysterious thing to understand. It's all written in the Bible already what the will of the Lord is for us all if we but take time to read and meditate on it. We must learn now if we are to make it and endure to the end how to put our trust and faith in Yahweh for everything. It takes time to unlearn those things which the world has taught us and to learn what the Word of Yahweh wants to teach us. We cannot say that when the time comes faith will arise. Yes it definitely will, but faith is like a tree. Unless it has time to take root and grow, it will not bear fruits and manifest in our lives. 

Now is the time to exercise our faith and to stand for what we believe in, even if that means making an enemy of the entire world in the process of it. But in the end, the one who rules this world is none other than the devil who is called the god of this world and has blinded the eyes of all those born into this world. 

2 Corinthians 4:3-4

[3] But even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing,

[4] whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Messiah, Who is the image of Elohim, should shine on them.

1 John 5:19

[19] We know that we are of Elohim, and the whole world lies under the sway of the wicked one.

Revelation 12:9

[9] So the great dragon was cast out, that serpent of old, called the Devil and Satan, who deceives the whole world; he was cast to the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.

Revelation 12:9,11-12

[9]So the great dragon was cast out, that serpent of old, called the Devil and Satan, who deceives the whole world; he was cast to the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.

[11] And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.

[12] Therefore rejoice, O heavens, and you who dwell in them! Woe to the inhabitants of the earth and the sea! For the devil has come down to you, having great wrath, because he knows that he has a short time.” 

On a side note, something rather prophetic happened during the 6 year mark of my serving Yahweh since 2015. It was yesterday when my car battery died while I was in the middle of running an errand in the nearby adjacent town of Pajam. I had to call Glory Place and they sent help to jump start my car with one of their own and I was able to drive it to the car battery shop to purchase a new one. But it was what the shopkeeper said to me concerning my car's old battery that caught my attention. 

I'm paraphrasing of course, but the gist of what he said what that it was a miracle my battery lasted as long as it did (my old car battery was suppose to last only a year, but he found that I had been using it for 3 years and more now). I had been really working it down but now he said he will change it to a brand new battery. It will be much like the old one but will be full of new life and power. And as I told him I'd go and get the money from a nearby ATM for the price of the new battery it dawned on me that what we were both speaking of was prophetic in its own way and no mere coincidence since it was the exact day of my 6 years of serving Yahweh. 

I see it as that old battery as my old man, my spirit within me is worn out and now on exactly the 6 year mark I've been given a new spirit, new life, and brand new power in Messiah. And I had to pay a price before I could use and experience it and so I have as I believe. Having given up the world and making my mind up that I'll never return the way I came, surely now I believe I will see new life being bestowed and released towards me and that I will experience the things which the Lord Yeshua has prepared for me by His Spirit. The glories that follow the sufferings in Messiah, the consolation that comes after the affliction. Joy in the morning from weeping in the night. Hallelujah and thank you Lord Yeshua for this new life You've given to me and surely I shall experience from now on greater things yet to come in Yeshua's name I declare and pray. Amen! 

-Wednesday, 8th September 2021, 6 years 1 day, 1531

Glory and Majesty

We're in the month of August now, two thirds of the year in now already. How fast the time flies and yet in this time of remembering I remember the marvellous works that Elohim has done throughout all these years for me, my family and loved ones. More so for myself of course since I'm not that privy into the affairs of others. But I see the mercy and the grace of my Lord Yeshua in bringing me out from the world and its systems to be able to freely serve Him here in the place which He has called me to: Glory Place Prayer Centre of Malaysia. 

From the beginning of the 5 years until now, leading up to already 6 years I can see the sovereign hand of my Elohim upon me to have led me thus far. Strangely enough although it's been 5 years, close to 6 years serving Him I find myself still having to learn so much and to be moulded by Him more and more still. Of all the things which I gained, it feels like it's still just the tip of the iceberg and that there's still so much I have yet to experience and receive. 

Looking back on my posts 5 years ago and even remembering how I was and looking at myself now, there's definitely been change that had taken place in my life by the working of the Holy Spirit. And I have gone through much, although compared to my peers in the faith it's still minuscule in comparison. However I remember the times I've struggled, engaged in my own personal warfare, had deliverance and healing taking place, the times where it was so difficult and everyday was just an internal warfare but Yahweh has brought me through each and every single one until today, now. He is faithful, He is faithful indeed. The very fact I can stand here and continue to serve Him still is most definitely a miracle by Him for me. 

I've experienced also many blessings, much less material and more the immaterial. The things which the world cannot give me I have received and experienced and enjoyed, and I have not regretted stepping foot out of the world one bit. Peace, life, healing, power, joy, love, an overbearing patience, forgiveness, cleansing, the glory of the kingdom, visions, dreams, the breakthrough of nations, peoples, and families and much more than I can even recount. I've been to places dreamed of, I've seen things written in the Word come to pass before my very eyes, I've seen how the presence of Yahweh changes a person so much just like how Saul became Paul. I'm blessed, really, really blessed. 

You know, this sort of post maybe I should have waited until I've hit 6 years on the mark before I write this but even so I felt like giving thanks to Yeshua for bringing me thus far. And I know that surely He will bring me to the end of the road, for this is what He has promised me. That I will be taken care of and those with me so long as I continue to walk the path He has paved for me. His footfalls have become my pathway and His Word lights up the night around me. Praise Him for all goodness and glory belongs to Him and yet He gives it to us as well. Praise Yeshua. 

-Sunday, 8th August 2021, 5 years 11 months 1 day, 1057

Perpetual Shalom

I have not written for over 20 days and now it's nearing the end of July already. How fast the time flies, there was so much to do and to be done and even I was completing my cleansing and deliverance. The durian season is already over and now we enter into a time of renewed vigour to wage war against the enemy of our souls. I really want to praise Yahweh that He has brought me through what had to be one of the most intense cleansing and deliverance that I have ever experienced and I have received my breakthrough. Having completed the 21 days of Daniel's fast and also my cleansing I found that my taste buds and smell has changed. The things I used to find pleasant are not so any more and now I find that it's more enjoyable to not eat many a times than to eat much. I had never thought that such a breakthrough would be possible for me but it is and it is now. Praise Yahweh. 

On another note, I found that my life has become more peaceful. Sure, there are still times when I might get upset or irritated but now I find that there's a perpetual peace within me, not as the world gives and neither can it take away. I've got peace like a river in my soul, more than just a verse it has become reality. Praise Yahweh. 

Isaiah 66:12

[12] For thus says YAHWEH: “Behold, I will extend peace to her like a river, And the glory of the Gentiles like a flowing stream. Then you shall feed; On her sides shall you be carried, And be dandled on her knees.

-Friday, 30th July 2021, 5 years 10 months 23 days, 1251

Durians Week 4, Esther's Fast Day 3, Daniel's Fast Day 17

Wow. I think this might be the longest that I haven't written anything thus far. A lot of things have happened recently and there's a lot to write down. But we all must start somewhere so I shall start here... 

The durian season has picked up the pace these past few weeks, with Week 2 and 3 being the most hectic and most abundant of weeks filled with durians. We had to go up the mountain and back down on an average of 3 times a day: one in the early morning, another in the late morning and the last round in the afternoon. Tiring though it was to bring them down carefully we also had to continue working to open the fruits and pack them since they can't be stored for more than two days before their flavours run. So on an average our working day starts from 8am to 5pm, just like an everyday man. But praise Yahweh that now we have hit the peak season and are coming down slowly. The fruits though there are still plenty are not as many as before. Hence, we've been given grace and leeway to work from 9am to 3pm with going up the hills only twice now. Praise Yahweh for His sustenance and strength throughout the peak season. I had no idea how we managed to pull through everyday and yet we did. Surely tis a miracle, I say! 

Have you ever joined a Daniel fast before? According to Daniel 10 in the Bible, Daniel ate no pleasant food nor did he drink any wine during the 3 weeks he was mourning and fasting for his nation's redemption. 

Daniel 10:2-3

[2] In those days I, Daniel, was mourning three full weeks.

[3] I ate no pleasant food, no meat or wine came into my mouth, nor did I anoint myself at all, till three whole weeks were fulfilled.

That's what we were called to join in this time and season of the Holy Spirit as He leads us altogether. So we did it. I forgot when we had started but now we are in Day 17 of it. What do I say about this fast? Hmmm... First off no salt and sugar for they are pleasant food, no meat, no processed food or drink at all. Only fruits and vegetables and unprocessed grains, nuts and beans. At first I was a bit sceptical about this, whether or not there would be any flavour whatsoever and surprisingly there was. Vegetables and fruits have their own natural sweetness and savoury flavours that normally get covered up by salt and sugar and other seasonings. The food I had eaten was good, in fact I came to enjoy myself during this fast. And besides the food reminds of the times we had eaten meals in the Holy Land. It was quite similar in that there was the great usage of fruit and vegetables in their diet, the lack of salt and sugar overall in their food, and the not eating of shellfish and some other kinds of meat. All in all, I really enjoyed this time that we could fast the Daniel fast for 21 days. 

However, when we came to our staff's monthly Esther fasting and prayer everything changed. The warfare suddenly spiked to an unrelenting level so much so that almost everyone was going through some sort of cleansing and deliverance throughout the past 2 days. Even for myself it was a real struggle. At first I had thought that my cleansing came earlier than everyone else's since I had mine on Tuesday and it was really intense. I was up the whole night just waging warfare and rebuking the enemy that I didn't sleep that night except for 2 hours or so. The pain was real and furious as I continued to reject and drive it out of me before I received my deliverance from it early in the morning that Tuesday. 

It has come again albeit in a different form, feverish symptoms and aches in the joints and coughing. My head felt burning but my feet were like soaking in ice water, so cold. Even now as I write I'm continuing to destroy the enemy seeking to oppress and harass me. I will not stand for this! And nearly everyone else is going through their own warfare as well. Such is the intensity this time that I believe that the breakthrough shall be immense as well. The Daniel and Esther fast have one thing in common, for the great turnaround of the nation itself and surely that's what we all who are doing it believe shall happen. Hence, the warfare coming in like floods upon us. But we are not afraid not perturbed, we know we have the victory and surely we shall see the breakthrough very soon. All we need to do is to continue to hold onto our Lord Yeshua Messiah and look to Him and not our conditions. We shall stand. Praise Yahweh. I look forward to the closing of the two fasts that surely we shall see great and mighty things which we do not know. Praise Yahweh for His mercy endures forever! 

Friday, 9th July 2021, 5 years 10 months 2 days, 0246

Durians Week 1

We've just begun our durian season once more here in Glory Place. Although we had estimated that it would begin the first week of July, instead the fruits have begun to fall earlier than we had expected and now it seems that by the end of July we will finish the season indefinitely. 

You know, although I never told anyone I had thoughts that the number of durians falling would severely outweigh the number of personnel that we have to go and collect them but that is not the case, praise Yahweh! As many as were helping were as many as the number of trees that were ripening and falling at the same time. Meaning each person had to look after one tree. Of course we are just in the first week of the season so many more will begin to fall from now on, however I am assured that somehow some way Yahweh will cause all things to work together for good. Praise Yahweh. 

During the first day, it was especially tiring for me to have to go up the hill three times in a row but as the days went on my body immediately got used to it at a brisk pace. Now, I can easily go up three times everyday. Once in the morning at 8am, second time at 11am and once more at 1pm before I can be dismissed to prepare for my watch at 4pm. I had expected for myself the days to be long and arduous but they aren't. Instead I found that they're moving at a really fast pace. The days are filled with niceties and pleasantries. I am enjoying myself thoroughly. 

-Saturday, 19th June 2021, 5 years 9 months 12 days, 1408

25 Years

Yesterday was my 25th birthday, I'm 25 now. There isn't much to write home about that particular day now. Back then I used to put so much emphasis on celebrating my birthday, that we should have a party, some food and games and all that usual stuff. But as I got older or more specifically as I continued to stay here in Glory Place I didn't see the great need to celebrate it as I used to. But I'd much rather now to just have a quiet meal with my family and loved ones and I would consider that to be a birthday well spent. 

Honestly, that day passed by quite briskly and perhaps the highlight of it was when I was prayed for by Pastor Jean and she released the anointing to me. I could sense the fire coming down upon me even as she was still praying and I was beginning to sweat even though it was a cool night I felt hot. That night for the Friday overnight worship it felt real easy to worship and just to let the Holy Spirit take over. In fact, that was what happened last night so I didn't feel drained or tired out but rather I was refreshed in the presence of Yahweh. Praise Yahweh, another birthday has come and gone and now I'm 25. One step closer... 

-Saturday, 5th June 2021, 5 years 8 months 29 days, 1358

Time of Gathering Strength

Wow, okay I've not written much for this past month. But mainly because there's nothing of note to write about in this season and time. What I can say is that now is the time to stock up, not physically but spiritually with the Word of Yahweh. Because very soon we'll begin to see things suddenly changing or suddenly shifting in unexpected directions and everyone will be caught unawares. Except of course for those who know the Word of Elohim. This is the season where what is written will surely come to pass and we need to make sure to take stock of it ourselves. Immerse ourselves in the Word of Elohim, and find pleasure and rest in His presence because the time will come where it will be very precious indeed and those who have not cultivated time with the Lord Yeshua will be found short handed in such times we're living in. 

Actually, that's about all I have to say at this moment in time. Right now, is a time where nothing is seemingly going on but the undercurrents in the spiritual realm are beginning to move and stir itself up. Now's the time to be found in the house of Yahweh, in His secret place indeed. 

Psalms 27:4-6

[4] One thing I have desired of YAHWEH, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of YAHWEH. All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of YAHWEH, And to inquire in His temple.

[5] For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.

[6] And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to YAHWEH.

-Monday, 31st May 2021, 5 years 8 months 24 days, 2045

Reflection

Next week we'll be having yet another special Yeshua Heals Healing & Deliverance Services during the weekend. And it's today that we will officially wrap up the 40 days of our fasting. In the beginning, the time really was so slow and it felt like each day was just crawling. But now, it feels like I'm not even fasting any more. Sure, I do get hunger pangs every now and then but I know that I have the power and authority in the name of Yeshua to subject my body to my own will and it must listen. 

There's really not much to write about at this time since now everything has gone back to its pace and that's not a bad thing. It's been a long time since I was able to fully wage warfare against the enemy and not allow them to simply overcome me. But now having received so much cleansing and deliverance during these 40 days I can feel strength rising up within me and the Holy Spirit giving me the strength to persevere, endure and to overcome them. Such things I remember I once had when I first began my serving of Yahweh but somewhere along the way I must have lost touch with that. Thank Yahweh for restoring the strength in these much needed times. Take over oh Lord Yeshua... 

-Sunday, 16th May 2021, 5 years 8 months 9 days, 1202

Strength

It has indeed been a very long time since I had last written anything at all. But as I had previously written before it has indeed come to pass as I saw by the grace of Elohim upon me. Throughout this entire time I've been bombarded non stop with attacks by the enemy to shake me and to shake my faith in Messiah Yeshua. And because of all the non stop warfare that I've experienced and gone through I realised that I've grown. I found now that the attacks of the enemy which used to cripple me so much now I can just brush them off and deal with them immediately. And I found that there is an inner strength that is being built up in me, a perseverance if you will. 

Now, the warfare is still continuing but I am not as shaken or unsettled as I once was when all this began. But you could say that I've learnt to not allow the voices, the thoughts, the lies of the enemy to affect me any more. I can now see them for who they really are and I can deal with them and they have to leave. Praise Yahweh. How does unrefined gold become refined? When put through an intense furnace all the alloy and corruptible materials on the gold element will melt away due to the extreme heat and only pure gold will remain. I found that that's exactly what I've been going through recently all this time. 

I was most definitely unwilling to go through all these warfare but I still decided to press on and go through with them because I see what awaits me at the end of this lap of the race called life. I see breakthrough and real change taking place and it is not by my own might not by my own power, but by the Spirit of Yahweh. In fact, in the next verse it is rather interesting to note as well: 

Zechariah 4:6-7

[6] So he answered and said to me: “This is the word of YAHWEH to Zerubbabel: ‘Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ Says YAHWEH of hosts.

[7] ‘Who are you, O great mountain? Before Zerubbabel you shall become a plain! And he shall bring forth the capstone With shouts of “Grace, grace to it!” ’ ”

A capstone is a final part of the building that is always built or placed in lastly to complete or perfect the building. Now the building that hosts the presence and the Spirit of Yahweh is us, the body of man. But even then to be perfected it must be not by us, but by the Spirit of Yahweh as well. So it is this same Holy Spirit Who is bringing me through each and every day, each and every wrestling, each and every war. Day by day, I see His hand upon me to lift me up when I fall and to strengthen my feeble hands and weak knees so that I may continue to march forward. And with each step taken, new found strength is made. What a breakthrough, what a privilege to go through and see the glory that awaits after Calvary. Praise Yeshua! 

-Friday, 7th May 2021, 5 years 8 months, 0119

Season of War

Oh boy, this month, this month of April. This is a month and the season for much warfare and deliverance to take place. It's like now in this instance I am engaged in one battle after another. Carpet bombings of the enemy against the spirit, soul, mind, and body. Whenever it seems I might have a respite then the next wave comes. Truly, just like how the Bible describes the enemy as coming in like a flood, however there is deliverance for the people of Yahweh and to those who continue to turn to the Messiah. 

Isaiah 59:19-20

[19]So shall they fear The name of YAHWEH from the west, And His glory from the rising of the sun; When the enemy comes in like a flood, The Spirit of YAHWEH will lift up a standard against him.

[20]“The Redeemer will come to Zion, And to those who turn from transgression in Jacob,” Says YAHWEH.

It feels like my spirit and body are being strained to its limits this season and it also amplifies itself with the fact that I've been learning by the Spirit of Yahweh how to carry others' burdens and issues. 

Galatians 6:2

[2]Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Messiah.

How do I know that those are other people's burdens that I'm carrying and not my own? Am I just imagining the pain, oppression. discomfort etc that belong to my own being and not another? Absolutely not, I would in no way imagine myself bearing pains too much for myself to bear. Instead I've noticed by the prompting of the Holy Spirit that I should examine myself before and after each meeting. I've noticed that before the meetings begin I am always okay, alright, peachy keen but when we begin to open Zoom for the rest to join then I also begin to experience all these things. And when the Zoom meeting ends, quite immediately all of these oppressions and hurts just abruptly leaves me. So I've noticed that now I can carry others' burdens just like how I've remembered myself praying to Yahweh a long time ago that I would like to do so just like Pastor Jean. I didn't realise that so many people needed to be set free and many times I've allowed all of these to really influence me and affect me so. It should not be. 

I remember once when Pastor Jean shared that often she would prefer not to bear the burdens of so many and now I know what she meant by that. There is this weariness that just comes upon me whenever I keep finding the same particular burden coming again and again despite dealing with it. I remember the bliss in ignorance that I had, but I never want to go back to not knowing this aspect of the Spirit. He has given me what I have asked of Him and He is showing me how to not just handle but to turn this into a blessing for others. There is no turning back for me, though I have entertained that thought I will not allow it to take away my blessing given me by Yeshua. 

So this month, the warfare is really great. Not just myself, everyone I see around me are going through their own personal warfare and cleansing. None are exempt from this and this is a sign that truly this 40 days fast is going to become something great. Two weeks ago we began our 40 days fast so that we can fast for the breakthrough of Israel and the nations of the world including our own nation. 

Isaiah 58:6

[6]“Is this not the fast that I have chosen: To loose the bonds of wickedness, To undo the heavy burdens, To let the oppressed go free, And that you break every yoke?

Coupled with fasting and warfare surely we will see a great change taking place very soon, even now! So I look forward and continue to press on day by day. Although surely the warfare is intensifying surely the glory to be revealed shall be much more so. I continue to take step by step forward however small it is. Praise Yahweh, onwards! 

-Wednesday, 21st April 2021, 5 years 6 months 14 days, 0041

Relationship

I haven't written for a long while now and just reading back on my last post it was quite the bummer. But I am pleased to report that the deliverance is over now and I am set free, praise Yahweh. 

Actually for the past few weeks I have been undergoing many a cleansing and a lot of the rubbish that I didn't even know I had in my life was being exposed and dealt with in the presence of Yahweh. Because of that now it's like I've entered into a new facet or a deeper level of my relationship with the Lord Yeshua. He is becoming so real and personal to my life and not just for me, but for many others as well both here and online. 

I can recount perhaps two of the more recent encounters that I've had with the Lord Yeshua during this time, but that is not to say that it is just these two encounters. There were indeed many more but I find that I need to specifically write down and remember these two: 

1) I remember that during this month's staff fasting and prayer daytime sessions I was on worship. This took place actually on Thursday, so it's still quite fresh. I remember that one day prayer the Holy Spirit was moving mightily in our midst and caused us to wait upon Him for a long time, like from 11am until 2.30pm. I was actually thinking to myself how good it would be if I could also experience that when I lead worship on Thursday the next day. So as we began the meeting on Thursday we were just waiting upon Yahweh for a while and while I was waiting the Lord came to speak with me. I remember that I had a conversation with Him and that we were both talking about what should happen that day. He was asking me how long we would like to wait today and I told Him that it would be nice if it could be as long as yesterday or more, Anything specific? He asked me. And I said that 3pm would be a good time. Is that all? He said. And I asked if it is possible then 3.30pm however I told Him that although I knew He could do everything and anything I would be content if it could just reach 3pm. I am the Elohim of all flesh, there is nothing too hard for me, just watch; He told me. And truly, that was what He did, we waited until 3.45pm before we began to worship and during that time when I began to know within myself that we would pass 3.30pm I was just greatly humbled before Yahweh that not only would He speak and confer with me something so trivial like this but that He would also give me above and beyond what I asked or thought. So I was just giving thanks for that whole day for what He did. 

2) This just happened during the Friday overnight prayer meeting yesterday. Pastor Jean sensed the Spirit wants to move into crying for the lost and those who have yet to be saved or come to the Messiah. So of course she prayed for all of us to receive the spirit of prayer and intercession so that we can shed tears for those who are lost and I was really concerned how I am going to cry. I was crying out to the Lord Yeshua to give me the tears to cry and the burden to pray for the lost because I knew that I couldn't do it by myself. That was when I once again had another talk with Him by the Spirit. He asked if I really wanted to cry and I said yes. So He said to me that He will take over and I don't have to worry but must believe and pray. After that I felt like someone had rubbed oil on my eyes, the kind of oil that when you run it on your skin the area becomes hot. I felt that around both my eyes and I felt so comforted and at peace that surely the Holy Spirit will just take over. And praise Yahweh He did, when I just began to open my mouth I felt the tears begin to fall from my face. It was like an open tap and I just felt myself crying and crying while I prayed. Praise and glory to Yahweh. 

But of course which each breakthrough that I experience the enemy won't just stay quiet but they will rise up to try and cause a ruckus. So with each breakthrough I am reminded to watch myself because when we are on a roll or soaring so high with the Lord that's when the enemy is most opportune to pull us down with them and suppress us. I need to always be on guard lest I slip and fall again. But really praise Yahweh for all the breakthroughs and I know that things will not be the same again. 

-Saturday, 10 April 2021, 5 years 7 months 3 days, 1252

Deliverance

This coming week we'll be having 5 nights of Yeshua Heals Miracle Healing Service from Wednesday till next Sunday. So before the services take place the Holy Spirit is really bringing cleansing and deliverance to us, to His people and I myself am not excluded from that. All it took was for one minor issue to really trigger the deliverance in me. I'm thankful that I'm going through more deliverance, to be cleansed more and more from the carnal nature and its fleshly ways; but at the same time I utterly dislike going through deliverance, having more and more of the ugliness of myself exposed and to see how vile and utterly corrupt I still am. Really it is the great love of the Lord Yeshua that I am being cleansed so I know that all things shall work for my good. That's all I can manage to write for now... 

-Sunday, 28th March 2021, 5 years 6 months 21 days, 0219

Just Thinking

There isn't much to write about or to say. But perhaps I can say that in a few months time it will be the durian season again and we look forward to it once more. Praise Yahweh. 

What's been going on lately? It's just that right now I'm deep in thought and just waiting. Waiting for what exactly even I am not sure but I know that that which I am to receive must come from the Lord Yeshua. I'm not sure how I can explain it clearly but right now for the past few days I've been in deep meditation and just being still in the Lord to hear from Him and to listen closely to what will soon come. Things are beginning to change, in fact I can sense that we are on the cusp of something big and this will without a doubt change the way we see and perceive things. Whether it is good or not will be left alone with for now until the day it fully manifests itself. 

I'm actually feeling a conflict of emotions and thoughts right now. A hotpot of different thoughts and feelings. But I am not strained by it. I know when it is the Holy Spirit speaking to me and He only speaks according to His Word. Even though it might sound like it is His will to do so, confirmation will come from His Word. Let that be a grounding principle. There can be no real revelation of His will without both His Word and Spirit, not one or the other. Creation took place with both, it is only sure that revelation comes with both as well. Hmmm... 

-Wednesday, 17th March 2021, 5 years 6 months 10 days, 2125

Take Me Higher

We've just finished our monthly Staff Fast & Pray this past Friday and Yahweh really moved greatly right after that. During the fast we were spending most of the time just waiting, receiving, and repenting on behalf of the church so we spent most of our time just soaking ourselves in His presence and letting the Holy Spirit move as He pleases each day and night during the 3 days of fasting. Right after that, during the Friday overnight prayer meeting there was a great breakthrough that took place. 

Before we began the meeting that night the worship team as usual would gather together and pray and commit the time and the service into the hands of our Lord Yeshua, so when it was my turn to pray as I mentioned the word "worship" immediately I felt a prompting in my heart that this is what the Holy Spirit wants to do tonight. I felt a growing excitement and expectation for the night's worship and how Yahweh would be moving greatly during that time. 

As we were worshipping suddenly Pastor Jean stopped the worship to ask all of us, both here and those online to receive the anointing of heavenly worship. So as we just spent a moment to wait and receive we began once more to worship by speaking and singing in tongues. And after that there was such a mighty release and a mighty breakthrough that took place. For myself personally, it felt like I was in heaven. I knew that I was worshipping here in GP still but at the same time I felt like I had entered into a different realm altogether. The worship was no longer about us trying to find the right song or singing well or playing well or anything about ourselves even. It was very easy to flow along with the worship from heaven and it was like all of us were caught up to experience it. 

It's difficult to put into words the sensations and the experience I had during this previous Friday overnight but what I can relate to it the most was like how I was a passenger in the car and the Holy Spirit is the driver. We both were going to the same direction and destination but He was the One Who was leading the way and all I had to do was relax and let Him guide me along. It was such a heavenly experience that night and it wasn't just me, many of us both here in GP and those online experienced the breakthrough into a new height of heavenly and spiritual worship like never before. Even now I can tell that my worship isn't the same any more after that experience but instead it's no more me trying to hype up the people or even me trying to find the right song to sing and what to do during worship. It's all about Elohim and what He wants to do, I just relax and let Him lead on as I just bear witness with what He wants to do for that meeting and that time. 

I'm truly thankful that I can join this Friday overnight prayer meetings every week and not just this service alone, every day and night we have meetings and services and everyday it's a new move of the Spirit each time we gather together in one accord in one place. Praise Yahweh that I can serve Him relentlessly. 

-Saturday, 6th March 2021, 5 years 5 months 27 days, 2330

Eternity's Time

You know recently I've think I've come to understand what this particular verse means: 

Ecclesiastes 3:11

[11] He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that Elohim does from beginning to end.

Recently, I think since this month began and now it's already ending there's just this feeling of eternity in me in everything that I do. I'm not quite sure how to write it down so that the reader may understand but it's like everything I'm doing, everything I'm going through and everyday that passes by is measured to the scale of eternity. I remember that when I first began to serve that I always dreaded the time of work because I know I will be needed to doing heavy duty jobs like cutting the grass or going up the mountain in search of durian fruits in its season and times but now when I put them against the backdrop of eternity all this feelings of dreading the time are gone. Instead there is contentment, there is peace and there is actually anticipation in what I'm going to do for that day. I just found that my time is not limited to 24 hours or to 7 days a week but instead I have eternity to enjoy right now. Not to say that I become slack in what I'm doing since I have this revelation or clarity of the Word, but rather I found that the hard, arduous work or even the tedious things that needed to be done aren't as weighty on me as they once have been for a long time. I found myself free to enjoy the presence of Yahweh and the communion of His Spirit daily whenever I work and do things or even do nothing, the time just flies away like a midsummer's dream. 

The days are going past very quickly now and it is pertinent to say that I am enjoying each and every single one of it. Sure, there are times when it's not all rainbows and sunshine. There are times where I must weather the storms of life and times where it feels like all the waves and billows are crushing me under their immense pressure but praise Yahweh that each and every time that it has come nigh unto me He has faithfully brought me out of them all. And now looking back I truly see that all things work together for good to those who love Elohim and are the called according to His purposes. How great, how marvellous indeed. Thank you Lord Yeshua. 

-Sunday, 28th February 2021, 5 years 5 months 21 days, 0242

NPIA 48

Right now we're halfway through with our 48th National Prayer and Intercessors' Advance themed Ruling With Christ Over Nations and everyday there has been a great move of the Holy Spirit. Particularly during the daytime sessions from 9am - 5pm, everyday perhaps the most common thing that has happened throughout these past 5 days was that there has been a release of such expansive peace and shalom and also the mantle of prayer and intercession that has been released alongside it. Everyday it seems that we are hardly doing anything except to wait upon Yahweh, to receive, to pray and give thanks and to continue to receive after all that. 

Of course getting used to the long hours for the first few times was a bit challenging but now the time really breezes past really quickly and soon enough it's evening already and soon after night time. The days are proceeding faster than I anticipated and I am glad that I can enjoy this time of waiting in His presence continually. More than just doing nothing, more than just closing my eyes to rest, it's an active and conscious waiting to receive something great whenever we do so. 

Throughout this advance I see the main theme really is to rule over nations in prayer because in this past few days the nations have been taking every opportunity to pray and to intercede and to join the call of prayer and testimony. Truly the Holy Spirit is moving and that whatever we do as we believe then the Lord does confirm the words of His servants. Prayer is really powerful, as you believe and continue to believe that whatever you prayed for knowing that it is in the will of Elohim it will come to you as many a times it has towards me. 

-Tuesday, 16th February 2021, 5 years 5 months 9 days, 1516

Truly Romans 8:28

On January 17th 2021 early on the Sunday morning, my father was called home to be with our Lord Yeshua. After standing on divine healing, he was healed externally and eternally before he went to sleep. And it was a beautiful passing because he slipped off in his sleep surrounded by family instead of in the hospital alone and with strangers or in other places he is unfamiliar with. How Biblical and how awesome was the presence of peace and the presence of the Holy Spirit in the room when my mother and I found him sound asleep, passed on to the Lord. 

Are we sad that he left? Of course, however we are also glad that our father has made it. He has finished the race, kept the faith, and fought the good fight right until the end. And amazingly this was all orchestrated by Yahweh, everything from the preparation work of the wake service and funeral and all its details right until the last day I spent with my mother and Megan all month before I returned to Glory Place to resume my call to serve Yahweh here in this place. It all had come full circle and all three of us saw that. It is truly glorious indeed that we have such a Heavenly Father that watches over us and loves us. And the reality of it is becoming much more tangible to us now that our father has entered glory. 

The days ahead are shining bright and filled with hope. I still do miss my father, but at the same time I rejoice knowing that as long as I continue to run this race of faith and finish it as well when the time comes that we shall meet again. It's not returning to the monotony and everyday life and struggles, it's an entirely new chapter and a new beginning for us now. Praise Yahweh for His faithfulness towards my father and for the testimony that is his life, believing in the Lord Yeshua for healing until the end and that is what he has received. The healing of the world deals with the outwardly but the healing of Yeshua deals with all aspects of life: external, internal, emotional, mental, spiritual, family. The healing Yahweh gives to His people encompass all round about and brings life. Much more than what the world offers, and He has been true to His Word. He never fails. 

-Sunday, 31st January 2021, 5 years 4 months 24 days, 2235

Romans 8:28

Wow. Many things have taken place in these last few days that I wanted to take some time to wait and gather my thoughts before I write down anything in particular. Praise Yahweh for His providence and blessing and also for His protection and grace upon my family, loved ones and I. 

Perhaps I should begin by saying that on Sunday 10th January I've been called back home because my father had slipped and had fallen down and that he needed my help back home. So I returned at the bequest of my mother and Megan to support and care for my father as he recovers from this incident. But this was not the beginning, or rather a few months ago he had been going through cleansing and deliverance already and by the time I've arrived it's been about a month or so of constant cleansing for him. So my mother requested Glory Place to release me for a substantial number of days so that I can be here to help at home. And counting now, it's been nearly one week already. How fast the time has flown however, it was not that way at the beginning. 

How I longed to be back in Glory Place, my heart yearned within me to be back there and to be able to just join the meetings going on there day and night. I really had to pray and seek Yahweh earnestly for the first few days to relieve me of this distress and that I would be content with the lot He has given me now to be at home, and He has done so. I have enjoyed my time spent here these past 7 days, it's almost like I'm on a sabbatical here. True, I need to help my father again and again and although I found that tiring and rather stressful at the beginning, now I am glad and I rejoice that I can not only speak the Word of blessing but become a blessing myself to my family, particularly to my father. 

It was long and it felt like an eternity the first few days being cooped up here at home with my family but after that it was smooth, it was wonderful, the time was just moving along and the day turns into night at the blink of an eye. I want to praise the Lord Yeshua because I know for certain that my father is recovering more and more each day. I'm not just speaking in faith although I am, but even in the physical his body is once more returning to normal. He is purging out all the impurities through both ends and he is regaining his appetite, voice, and strength once more. And I believe even more than how it was before all this began. Everyday I see the progress and everyday I thank Yahweh that it is one day closer to the glorious healing that is waiting to manifest in my father (and secretly one day nearer to which I can return to Glory Place. Although I enjoy myself here, I still long to be back there in the house of Yahweh all the days of my life and to behold His beauty). 

Everyday is one step further and one more step in progressive healing for my father. Uphold him in your prayers, they are much appreciated and it speeds up the process very much so. Praise Yahweh. 

-Saturday, 16th January 2021, 5 years 4 months 9 days, 0430

New Year

2021 is here now but I won't wrote much as it is quite late already and I plan to go to sleep soon in lieu for tomorrow's beginning of our monthly staff and helpers fasting and prayer once more. The year started of with the passing of our late Pastor John Thomas on the very first day of the new year after our Watchnight and Thanksgiving Service. I do not know what others might think but I find this especially significant and I believe that it is the Holy Spirit Who is giving us a sign that He is bringing forth new wine and greater things. To me, this passing was just like the passing of the torch. From the older to the younger generation. In fact, I had received a Scripture verse concerning this as well: 

Psalms 45:16

[16] Instead of Your fathers shall be Your sons, Whom You shall make princes in all the earth.

To me from what I understand the fathers symbolises the generation that was, or rather the older generation and the sons represent the generation to come or us, the younger folk. I believe the time is coming soon that we will see a great surge of powerful moves of the Holy Spirit everywhere and a great influx of souls into the kingdom of heaven. We will see things that has never taken place before until this time, all because I believe we are one of the last generations that will see the second coming of our Lord Yeshua. And with the passing of Pastor John I find it all the more assured that my stand and my choice to serve Yahweh and give my life to Him was not made lightly. I am so thankful that in such exciting times like now which we see are taking place, I can be found both physically and spiritually safe and untouched by the things the enemy wants to do and the things which the Lord Yeshua has prepared for those who love Him and which He shall reveal by His Spirit. 

The hastening of the work of Yahweh has begun and it is moving at such a pace that even I did not expect it to. We are witnessing what may perhaps be the great birth of revival in nations and the great shaking that has been promised of long ago. He who has ears to hear, hear what the Spirit is saying to the churches now... 

-Wednesday, 6th January 2021, 5 years 3 months 30 days, 0435