2017 Past

New Year's Day, 2018. It was short, 2017. And perhaps this year will be even shorter still in light of the coming of the Lord Yeshua Messiah. But what this year brings is new beginnings. New, fresh things that we've yet to see and now I believe that it will come to pass. Just as last year was the time of much moulding, I believe that even with the beginning of today new things will begin to arise not just in the lives of individuals but mayhaps the entirety of the body of Messiah Himself. It most certainly is for me, even from this first day of the year I can already sense from the deep recesses of my being that it's going to be much different than the year before it. Such a prospect excites simply because it goes to show that the journey in Messiah is anything but monotonous. It is simply exhilarating to be found in His will because we will never be found unsatisfied.

Looking back for 2017 I found satisfaction of life everlasting. Many desire many things but what I wanted was quite simple to begin with: contentment with Yeshua. And that was exactly what I received and got for this past year. All that I have experienced and gone through for 2017 truly was good in the eyes of Elohim towards me and He was truly gracious in leading me through each and every single moment to where I am now. Even at this moment, I find myself lacking the words to properly describe how last year was magnificently wrought for me in Yeshua and because I found Yeshua, I found all that I need, want, and more so. It has been a good year, but nonetheless the new year brings about an even greater outpouring and blessing with it alongside its accompaniment of obstacles and challenges to breakthrough. None of these move me to mouse away, rather I am quite excited at the idea of more breakthrough at the price of overcoming.

The new day has come and with it, new things. I am content, happy. Not because I have what I need and want though I do, but because Yeshua is now with and in me that I am content. What more do I want when I can partake of fullness every single day from henceforth? However, that doesn't mean that I've been made perfect yet. There are still many areas that need the powerful hand of Messiah on me but I've given myself to Him, it shall be resolved in their due times and measures. Though I am imperfect yet He makes me perfect through my imperfections. How wonderful the Elohim I serve is that I just can't help but to speak of His praise all the day.

[Psa 50:15] And call upon Me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify Me.

[Psa 71:8] Let my mouth be filled with Thy praise and with Thy honour all the day.

Hallelujah.

-Monday, 1st January 2018, 2 years 3 months 25 days, 0346

In With The New

The Bible Reading this year is really quite the enjoyable experience. Not to say that I didn't enjoy past years but rather that this year there really is such an excitement about me as I take the evening and early morning watches to read the Scriptures. The sense of time have long since past, having stayed in the sanctuary for the past couple of days. Having to do everything in the confines of the church really is quite the invigorating experience for me and sometimes I seem to lose track as to exactly what time of the day and the day more so we are in. Having come down to CRC here with a few others for the Bible Reading, I'm glad I did so. It was quite a breakthrough for me in the sense that once more I can begin to devour the Word of Elohim once again. I had been stuck receiving from Yahweh for a while now and it just feels so good to once again being able to read more than just a few chapters now. What an exhilaration, what a rush.

We are nearing the very near end of the Bible Reading and yet I can't help but sense that this is but the beginning of many new and exciting things to come in the Lord Yeshua Messiah. As we draw near to the close of 2017, 2018 is looking to be the beginning of a season of new things and I can't help but recall the verses regarding so.

[Isa 42:9] Behold, the former things are come to pass, and new things do I declare: before they spring forth I tell you of them.

[Isa 43:19a] Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it?

[Isa 48:6] Thou hast heard, see all this; and will not ye declare it? I have shewed thee new things from this time, even hidden things, and thou didst not know them.

[Eze 12:28] Therefore say unto them, Thus saith the Lord YAHWEH; There shall none of My words be prolonged any more, but the word which I have spoken shall be done, saith the Lord YAHWEH.

The year ahead, Elohim willing looks to begin with the closing of the former paths and ways and things and the beginning of things yet not seen, either in this ministry or even in our lives. Something new, something exciting is abounding not just in Glory Place but in all the other prayer houses as well. We're growing.

-Friday, 29th December 2017, 2 years 3 months 22 days, 0513

Stronghold of Dogma

You know, looking back at the year that has passed already I'm actually really contented with how thing have transpired until this very moment in time. True, there were many a times of going up and down but ultimately I see all roads lead to the same path in Yeshua Messiah: upwards. I'm really, really satisfied with how this year turned out because it was truly beyond my expectations and because it was beyond my expectations there were many times I was simply awed at the simplicity and powerful manifestation of the Word of Elohim in my life. I am truly glad at this moment and am very expectant as to what the new year holds not just for me alone but for all of us who are in Messiah's body.

Just recently as I had a wedding dinner to attend together with my family, I stayed in CRC in the meantime. During that time, my father and I usually have our talks about our different paths of life in life and how, but it would mostly be mine; our progress in Yahweh is. Whether it is producing the fruits worthy of it or not. And during this time, the Holy Spirit spoke very clearly to me, I have strongholds in my mind. At the time, I was perplexed because I had taught that Yeshua had removed the majority of the major powers in my mind and that I was set free. It turns out we all could always be more set free. The stronghold which He revealed to me was the accumulation of the many revelations, blessings, miracles, and joys in Elohim that I had attained to during this year. When He spoke thus, clarity came to me and I understood exactly why such things can become a stronghold for me.

Many times, we each have been given a special revelation for a specific season of time and it sticks with us. It becomes a part of us, interweaving dogma. Our lives are built upon all these revelations which over the span of days, weeks, months, years Yahweh has been revealing to us and it becomes a lifestyle for us. It is a good thing to be sure but there is a flip side, sometimes we become so set in our ways that it leaves little room for greater things to be poured out unto us from heaven above. And so, by the grace of Elohim upon me He has so desired that I should be free to receive more from Him and I shall and I am. After spending a while to just tear down the strongholds in the mind in the name of Yeshua, I was set free and I am pleased to inform that whatsoever was creeping upon my mind has lifted off. It's as though it has become a clean slate for the new year ahead and it's many showers of blessings.

Of all that we have received, we must be ever willing to lay it down back at the altar when the time comes else we will not be able to progress a step further. Even the blessings, the anointings, the gifts, the joys that we have attained to must all become lost for a greater anointing to begin to flow. It is a step of glory to glory after all. We wouldn't want to be found at the base of the ladder when the time comes, no, we'd rather be climbing one ring up another and that in turn means being prepared to lose your footing on the previous step to plant yourselves on the new. Now, I am very expectant because of all the blessings Yeshua has given and shown me now I see a far greater glory which shall be revealed in me and us altogether in the year to come. Glorious day, and with such a breakthrough we can begin the Bible reading marathon together once more. A glorious day indeed. Praise Yahweh.

-Tuesday, 26th December 2017, 2 years 3 months 19 days, 0055

Offenses Aside

We're nearing the end with each day that passes. And not just the end of the year, but even the end of the age. More and more each and every single day we are beginning to see that the work of Yahweh is hastening ever so quickly in righteousness and it is time that the Word of Elohim is fulfilled in every way possible.

[Rom 9:28] For He will finish the work, and cut it short in righteousness: because a short work will the Lord make upon the earth.

And indeed it is, it is unbelievable to me just how fast the work of the Holy Spirit is progressing in me, in us, in every single one of us. And more so now I believe that it is time to rise up.

[Dan 12:3] And they that be wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament; and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars for ever and ever.

[Mat 13:43] Then shall the righteous shine forth as the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Who hath ears to hear, let him hear.

I'm not particularly sure as to what exactly I should write in this moment of time but I can sense ever so clearly in my spirit that something is about to take place once more. Perhaps more than anything, judgement is beginning in the house of Yahweh now and the Lord Yeshua is sieving His people like wheat from chaff. They that have built up a strong foundation in Messiah will continue forth into a breakthrough unlike any such before it, but they who are just flowing together but not exactly experiencing for themselves the riches of Messiah will find the times to come challenging to say the least. It's not something to dread, but rather something to look forward to.

[1Co 3:13-15] Every man's work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man's work of what sort it is. If any man's work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward. If any man's work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire.

To us who really know the end, we have an assured hope in Yeshua that though we may stumble and fall, we will still be saved by His grace and mercy but through fire. There's honestly not much else for me to write, as I see the end of 2017 approaching ever so quickly I ponder to just how the Holy Spirit has led and preserved me thus far. Truly, it was simply all Him and nothing of me. Had it been me, it would surely not have turned out far greater than I could have imagined or thought of.

Perhaps the one thing that keeps ensnaring the young people, myself included are emotions more than anything else. During the Young People's Camp I've noticed that emotions ran rampant throughout. People become increasingly agitated with the contrast of personality and character with one another, sensitivity more so sky rockets to unimaginable heights. So much so, that even a slight would cause bitterness, resentment, and hatred to be fanned aflame from within. Honestly, these are the times when we must realise that emotions are not our dominant drive, the Spirit is. We have honestly been led by our noses, figuratively speaking of our emotions; for far too long.

I honestly believe that we as young people are meant to be built up like a fortress, a strong tower. Not one where our emotions turn stone cold dead, but one where it becomes dulled when faced with the onslaught of every day offenders and offences. There passes not a day for me when I would not be offended by something someone said or even by my situation. However, I've realised the needless neccesity of harbouring it because it's not worth my time and energy to peruse and pursue after such things. I've better things to expend my thoughts and energy on. I do get offended, however I realise that carrying my offense further with me in my walk with Yeshua would be detrimental not just to me but to others as well. So, I've learnt to discard them in the name of Yeshua and praise Him I am set free because of it. Seriously, praise Yeshua.

-Saturday, 23rd December 2017, 2 years 3 months 16 days, 1717

Abiding in the Vine

The Young People's Camp titled 'Living As Sons of Elohim' have just ended and majority of the young people who were in attendance have already departed with a select few staying behind until the end of this year to participate in the non stop Bible reading marathon held in the various prayer houses around Malaysia. This was an entirely different camp from the usual norm, even from the get go. Firstly of course were the young people. This time around, we had real proper young people to attend the camp. Ranging from the age of 11-23, the oldest of our participants just so happens to be our staff and helpers who are serving there. Secondly, it was held this time at Semarak Revival Centre instead of its usual Glory Place Mantin and perhaps that that there is a change in the anointing of Yahweh for the seasons and times. This camp felt so very relaxed and chilled just like a seminar, even Pastor Jean herself humouredly referred to it as such in one occasion. The atmosphere is very peaceful and many of the young people really enjoyed themselves there at the camp especially during the worship. All I can say is that this camp has been very liberating, for me and for many more so in more ways than one. Praise Yahweh.

I've experienced many things during this camp. Dreams, visions, confirmation of the Word of Elohim, revelations but all this are simply experiential to me. What is far more endearing to me is that this camp has changed me. I don't know how or when but something has indeed changed from within and from within the without changes in accordance as well. During this camp, I've felt that there was an abiding between the Lord Yeshua and myself more so during this camp that I was not able to do usually during camps, seminars, and whatnot. Usually, I'd always find such a hunger to read and read the Word whenever the anointing is present but during this camp this particular anointing was withheld from me and another one was poured out upon me. I've felt the anointing to receive.

What do we mean when we say we want to live the life of the Son of Elohim? How do we do that? What is needed? And the answer that I found is simply to receive. Though this is but a simple revelation during this camp it became so profound and real to me. All I could do was to receive. It didn't matter whether I was lifting up my hands or even just sleeping but I was absolutely conscious that I was receiving at all times from the presence of the Holy Spirit in our midst. It was all I could do. I had so wanted to read the Word and continue from where I had left off but I simply couldn't, I just had to receive and received I did. Because of that, now that the camp is over I find that there has been a shift in the atmosphere around me. It feels lighter and somewhat airy if put into physical terms but more than that, I feel free. Much more free and liberated than how I was before the camp. Not just free, but free indeed.

The road leading up from henceforth appears to be marked with many an exciting prospects. However, I fully trust in my Messiah and am confident that in Him all things will continue to work together for His good which in turn is for my good. Amen, praise Yahweh. From this Young People's Camp, I am excited. Simply from the prospect that from now on nothing is ever going to be the same again, whether we want to admit it or not. That excites me, knowing that Elohim is indeed moving us from glory to glory just as by the Spirit of Yahweh. How radiant it is tonight.

-Monday, 18th December 2017, 2 years 3 months 11 days, 2353

Season of Change

The season is changing and perhaps the change that comes with this season is one that we may not expect but in premeditation it was within our scope of vision all along. Basically, this vision is fraught with many changes to come. Whether by situations or people I believe that now is the time to set our sights upon the Lord Yeshua Messiah because should we have our sights upon anything or anyone else besides our Lord then surely we invite sorrows upon sorrows upon ourselves.

There's not much else to write except that I am quite impressed with the moving of the Holy Spirit in these last days. What a way to close this present year and begin the new one. As we move into this season of many a changes, I find that the one Person I can cling onto Who never changes is simply the Lord Yeshua Messiah. Surely as I cling onto Him as a sash clings onto the waist of a man, I am safe beyond doubt. Come what may, I know that when I'm in Him and He in me it's all good. I know He has and will and is turning, turned all situations around for the good of they that love Him, they that are the called according to His purpose. Amen.

-Thursday, 7th December 2017, 2 years 3 months, 2334

Life

I've recently been sharing together with Megan the things which Yeshua is accomplishing in each of our lives and I am amazed to know that truly despite everything we may seem to see and hear, there is stable progress and growth amongst us. Even as we shared with each other our revelations and testimonies over chicken lunch, I found that that is the most enjoyable time for me: when instead of speaking of the things under the sun, we can speak of the Son. We speak the Word and it benefits us so much, if only we knew how much so.

Anyways, I've decided to share my revelation which I have received and have been asked to jot down. The revelation of living the life of the Son of Elohim. And though I have had the privilege of sharing but a small fraction of it, I realised that what I tried to convey in such a short amount of time was not enough to give the hearers understanding. This is an extensive one because I realise beforehand that everything pertaining to Elohim connects with one another in the Scriptures. Whether Old or New Testament, everything is interwoven with one another like chains. Thus, it is of the glory of Yahweh to conceal a matter and the glory of we kings to seek it out.

[Pro 25:2] It is the glory of Elohim to conceal a thing: but the honour of kings is to search out a matter.

The revelation I received is actually quite simple: Messiah fills all and is in all and is in we all.

[Rom 11:36] For of Him, and through Him, and to Him, are all things: to whom be glory for ever. Amen.

In Him we have everything but without Him we are nothing. I likened this to a man wearing a full costume from head to toe. You see, the costume is not alive by itself but appears to have some resemblance of life because of the man inside who animates it. It is his life that gives life to the costume. Without the man, the costume is dead. And even when the man is in the costume, unless the man moves only then does the costume move. The costume does not move by itself though it has the man inside. It moves when he moves and if he doesn't move it doesn't move as well. The life of the costume is tied solely to the life of the man inside. Without the man inside, the costume has no life. The same is shared when Messiah is in us. We no longer live, we have died and though we have been resurrected with new life the new life is Yeshua's, not ours.

[Gal 2:20] I am crucified with Messiah: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Messiah liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of Elohim, who loved me, and gave Himself for me.

Without Yeshua in us we can have no life in itself and the life which we have now is not on our part to do anything. We are but vessels of His power and glory and life more so. We cannot hope to live out the life of Messiah because only the Messiah can live out His own life through us. The same is applicable that I cannot live the life my sister has, though I may copy all I want about her I cannot hope to enter the ladies wash room because I'm not a girl. We can copy and try to live out the life of the Son of Elohim but in the end there are things we will find which we cannot do. The amazing news is that He can live out His life in and through us.

[Phi 2:13] For it is Elohim which worketh in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure.

Our minds must be changed and renewed to the point that we come to acknowledge that we have no part to play in the great will of Yahweh for humanity. There's nothing we add to Him and there's nothing we take from Him. Yahweh isn't greater all the more that we believe in Him, He never changes. He is always glorified and awesome and holy with or without us knowing it. The point also applies to our life of faith in His Son, Yeshua. We think that we can do many things for Him but the answer is no, we do not. All things that He wants to be done will be done with or without us present. And as we come to that mindset that truly it is not of us who plans or does anything, the burden is lifted from us.

[Rom 9:16] So then it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of Elohim that sheweth mercy.

Sometimes we are under bondage so many times because we take on so many problems and tasks at hand, to care for the body of Messiah when in fact Messiah Himself shall care for His own body. I believe that this is because we still think that we can do something. There's nothing I can do without Him present no matter how good or how godly it may seem. We see all these things as our own things and therefore the bondage is there because we see that this is our problems and our duties to fulfil. I've come to a point in my life where I found my walk has become increasingly lighter as the days go by because I see the problems that come my way as His problems and not mine. If it were mine, then I would have to wrack my brain to think of a solution to resolve each and every single one. But no, it's Elohim's problem and thus the resolving of each and every issue in my walk with Yeshua shall and is resolved by Him and not I.

Messiah fills all and is in all, whether good or bad. When we have a renewed mind according to Romans 12 then it is so that we may know but not do the perfect will of Elohim. Because it is not in our capabilities to fulfil the will of Elohim.
[Rom 12:2] And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of Elohim.

The works of Elohim are done by Elohim which is why they are called the works of Elohim. A renewed mind is made to prove and know the perfect will of Elohim and not to do them per se because it is no longer us who have any part to play in His master plan. His life in us fulfils His own will and purpose through us. That way from the conception of a good work or a thought to the manifestation of it Messiah fills all in all and man is nothing before Him. The only work ever mentioned to be done by the Lord Yeshua Himself was to believe on Him Whom the Father has sent.

[Joh 6:29] Yeshua answered and said unto them, This is the work of Elohim, that ye believe on Him whom He hath sent.

The works which we do are foreordained and prepared by Elohim Himself, and all we have to do is but to walk in willingly into them. Not to think of more things to be done or how it can be improved, it is prepared by Yahweh and thus shall be perfected in His due time. We are simply called to walk into them so that Yeshua in us may perform and do them through us and by the doing of it He receives the glory and not us because we know that we had no part to play whatsoever except to be there to witness the work being done in and through us.

[Eph 2:10] For we are His workmanship, created in Messiah Yeshua unto good works, which Elohim hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

All we are to do is to believe, walk into it, and witness the glory of Elohim being formed. The Holy Spirit shall take over and will cause faith to beget the works testifying of said faith in and through us. Many times we ourselves think to know better in the moment of time what ought to be done because of past experiences and whatnot but that is not the case with walking in the Spirit. We have no choice but to acknowledge Him in all our ways because only He knows the way to heaven because He is Elohim.

My life is light, though the road I walk may be narrow and difficult. Because it is not I who walk it but Messiah putting me on like a costume walks that road to heaven in and through me. So then, when immense problems or many a tasks come to hand I can smirk and enter them well. Because I know, I know that the problems are not my problems but His and thus He shall resolve them in and through me and receive all the glory because of it. The tasks are not mine but Elohim's so He shall take it over marvellously as always. It's not 'What can I do to solve this?' but 'What shall Yeshua do to solve through me?'

[Pro 3:6] In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.

Do we really do that? Then shouldn't our lives be ever so free and light because He takes over? Why are we still so weighed down? Because we still see things as our things and have not committed them to Him. We are still alive carnally but when Galatians 2:20 takes its powerful work in us to manifest, then we'll begin to see that everything that we have, all the blessings, all the issues, all the ups and downs is not on us to manage because we've died and now our lives is Messiah. It's His things now, He shall deal with it in and through us and thus receive all the glory because we acknowledge Him. Praise Yahweh.

-Monday, 4th December 2017, 2 years 2 months 28 days, 2216

New Season

The season has changed once more with the entry of the final month of 2017, and this time around it appears to me that the season is one of the outflow of the power of the Holy Spirit and life of Messiah Yeshua. Inasmuch as the previous season was of learning to be led by the Spirit, the time has come for practical steps forward with what we've been endowned and enabled with from above. How quaint and awesome Yeshua really is, for the desires of my heart which pertains to Himself He has fulfilled in me and now it is at last the time for the manifestation of the sons of Elohim in spirit, soul, and body. If the previous season was one of infilling this is the season of the out flowing of what is within us because as I was discussing with my friend, David that if there is no out flowing of every water then the water stagnates and dies in the well it accumulates in.

I am now seeing that everything in my life ties together with one another and everything is one way or another coming full circle. He that declares the end from the beginning has made such a marvellous work in my life that I stand before Him humbled at how He has put together all things for my betterment. With the construction of the new sanctuary under way I have been brought into many new experiences and jobs and almost every single one of them I have no experience nor knowledge whatsoever and yet I'm not one to shy away from such things. Because I know that what I go through now though it may be as though I stumble into the dark yet I have the light of the gospel of Messiah in me, and the Spirit of the living Elohim bringing said gospel into clarity for times and seasons. Needless to say that for every unexpected situation though I may not have the answer, but I have been taught that the answer comes from above and all I need to do is first step into unknown realms to see Messiah take me over.

The days ahead are exciting, because He has brought me into new things and newer experiences. Everything is coming to full throttle in this last month I so believe and it will only accelerate even further in the months and years to come. With every new challenge lies the prospect of greater breakthrough and anointing. Perhaps the issue that we receive so little from Elohim is because we ourselves are unwilling to give ourselves completely to Him for Him to work effectively through us for His own glory. That we are so comfortable in what we do that we give no leeway for the Holy Spirit to take us on divergent courses in which some actually leads us to a deeper depth of our relationship with Yeshua and His Spirit. We mayhaps are set in our routine in and out, day after day, that because of our love of tradition we in fact nullify the work of Elohim in us. To be led by Him is to be taken to where soever and whenever He pleases and when we do surrender to that, life becomes infinitely exciting. The monotonous daily life becomes one filled with much joy and anticipation as to what Yeshua shall do for the day for, in, and through us.

This is definitely such a season for me. And as it has begun, I am excited to see where He shall lead me. Praise Yeshua, how wonderful.

-Friday, 1 December 2017, 2 years 2 months 24 days, 0124

Blessings In Being Led

It's but the same season with a new phase in it altogether. As I'm seeing and even witnessing the confirmation of it time and time again, this is still yet the season for the leading of the Holy Spirit and yet it is time for new and fresh beginnings as well. Everything is changing in new ways and that includes people as well. I find that now more so that the work of Yahweh especially in my life is reaching a steady climb upwards even more speedily than when we first began. It just goes to show really that Yahweh really is hastening His work for the sake of His elect and the coming of His Son, Yeshua once more.

[Rom 9:28] For He will finish the work, and cut it short in righteousness: because a short work will the Lord make upon the earth.

All the more now in these last days and times that I'm beginning to see and experience the tangible manifestation of power by and from the Holy Spirit in everyday life. We have power, we have authority, we have all rights in the name of Yeshua to determine our course of life. What I merely mean by that is that we have the power to not just live the life of a son of Elohim but to enjoy every moment of what it truly means to live said life out. It does not come from us but rather it is lived out by the believing and continual believing of the Word of Elohim in us.

[Isa 54:14] In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee.

I am free from any and all oppression.

[Psa 36:8] They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of Thy house; and Thou shalt make them drink of the river of Thy pleasures.

I am satisfied with all the fullness that I have in His house. I drink from His pleasures.

[Isa 46:4] And even to your old age I am He; and even to hoar hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you.

From young unto old I am carried by His everlasting arms.

It's not that we stock ourselves with the Word of Elohim and let them gather dust in the deep recesses of our lives but rather each and every single day provides opportunity for every Word to be fulfilled and manifested in all His glory through us. We can say and quote and yet find ourselves unbelieving even at the most foundational of promises because we don't see it come to pass for us. Frankly, the Word stands supreme. And it is because of Elohim Who is merciful that He confirms the words of His servants. However I find that now there is a need not just to believe because every can do that, but to keep believing. Holding fast onto the anchor of our souls which is Messiah and not wavering in the slightest at the promises promised unto each and every one of us in Himself.

[Heb 6:19] Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and stedfast, and which entereth into that within the veil;

[Heb 10:23] Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for He is faithful that promised;)

[Rom 4:20] He staggered not at the promise of Elohim through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to Elohim;

We want to glorify the name of Yeshua but how to? Simply by not wavering but to believe in all that He has said can and more than that will come to pass for us. Simply because it has been written. Praise Yahweh, really. This season brings about much blessings in the simplicity of believing that we are led by His Spirit and then we will begin to see that we truly are led by Him at every given turn and corner. It's not positive thinking or optimism, but a solid fact of the matter that we truly are led by Him to as many as would believe. I do, and I am blessed because of it.

[Gen 28:15] And, behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of.

What a powerful promise not just to Jacob, but to us who are in Yeshua now as well. Praise Yahweh.

-Tuesday, 28th November 2017, 2 years 2 months 21 days, 0402

Walking Forth in Spirit

The rain is pouring down like a shower was just turned on to the max and bit not Glory Place again was partially flooded but even the roads were completely blocked with water. So much so that at Nilai people had to U-turn and head back the way they came to find another route to traverse over the flood. Myself and Jefrin included we were caught up in all that on our way back from Nilai after disposing some rubbish. It was exhilarating and an eventful drive no doubt but perhaps more so that this is nothing more than but the beginning as I believe. Something new and exciting is forming and soon enough it will be upon us all.

There really is nothing as of late to detail in the blog simply because this is still in the continuing of the season of the Holy Spirit and thus He has been leading me ever so faithfully through it all. There's not much to write because even as I write how everything is being confirmed and fulfilled in accordance to whatsoever Elohim has revealed unto me I find that this anointing is one that is specifically specialised for myself. The Holy Spirit leads each of us no doubt. However, the way in which He leads us differs from one person to another. The road which I take, I do not expect my family and friends to comprehend let alone walk the same specific path with me and vice versa. We each have our paths and journeys to take in the Lord Yeshua Messiah and yet our end goal is the same. We each began the same way and will end the same way, and yet the journey from one point to another is entirely different for each of us.

I have the absolute confidence that Yeshua is doing a mighty, awesome work in my life which will one day surely burst forth onto the scene but until then I am kept, moulded, refined, and made ready for that day. I find myself becoming more and more distant with the concept that I can do everything because as I've been graciously taught, whether through the Word of Elohim or through experience; the power, the life, the everything does not come from me but from Him Who lives in me and works through me to those around me. Many a times I find that I have been given the desires of the Heavenly Father to carry out and yet I know that there is another step awaiting me and that I find that only a select few can understand.

[Phi 2:13] For it is Elohim which worketh in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure.

Many times we have the will in waiting for Him but we do not wait for the impartation of the power to do of His good pleasures. I've seen time and time again how so many people lay their expectations upon not just myself but upon themselves and it all falls flat. Why? Because we understand that we must wait for the will of Elohim to be revealed to us before me move but we don't understand that it is a two part of waiting. We wait for the will to do, and then we wait again for the power to do of His good pleasure. We receive one by the Spirit and then intend to perfect the work with the power of man and flesh? Surely we are mistaken and surely we fall short so many times because of it.

[Gal 3:3] Are ye so foolish? having begun in the Spirit, are ye now made perfect by the flesh?

I understand that much is required of the sons of Elohim no doubt. However, the sons of Elohim operate when they are led thus and not because of whimsical ideas. We are impatient, and in another aspect impertinent because when we have received whatsoever it is from Yahweh telling us to go forth, we go without waiting for the endowment from on high. We say we understand the concept of waiting upon Yahweh but the fact of the matter is we don't. We know how to wait for the promptings of the Holy Spirit and go thus with the prompting alone instead of waiting further for the power to manifest and fulfil that prompting as well. Am I being clear to the reader and even to myself? There needs to be a longer time of waiting because everyone thinks that there's something that must be done when there is absolutely nothing that we can do. All we are are but vessels holding the power and glory of the kingdom of Elohim and we as vessels wait for the Master to use us and pour us out.

The time is coming when we will find our works which we do are simply not enough, unsatisfactory, and never complete because we see them as we ourselves having to do them. No, we're wrong. We are His workmanship, created in Messiah Yeshua for good works which the Father has prepared for us that all we have to do is but to walk through them. And in them, He works in us to give the desire by the Holy Spirit and the power to fulfil that same desire by the same Spirit. So that Messiah Yeshua will be glorified in all and through all.

[Eph 2:10] For we are His workmanship, created in Messiah Yeshua unto good works, which Elohim hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

I am satisfied each day with the work handed out to me because I see them as not my own but His which He will Himself accomplish in and through me as I first walk forth into them. So, the burden lies no longer on me, the expectation is beyond me to meet but when I see Yeshua; I see everything is already met and exceedingly so. Praise Yeshua.

-Thursday, 23rd November 2017, 2 years 2 months 16 days, 1617

Carry On

Truly Elohim is gracious even unto someone such as myself. Having just finished sharing the Word of Elohim for the 1st service, I found myself having need of much more to learn and to witness of in my walk with Messiah Yeshua. Perhaps it's become more frequent but still the need to remind myself that I have much yet to learn is very much needed in my walk. Of all things attained thus far it is simply but the tip of the iceberg. And that is something I welcome because it gives me the opportunity to learn more and experience all the more greater things which are yet to be manifested in my walk with Yeshua. In the areas I find lacking in my life, I see the grace of Messiah which rests upon me that He is able to supply and exceed my limitations and thoughts to thoroughly show me that there is much more to His life than what I had previously thought.

Perhaps this is vague but as of this moment I am led of the Holy Spirit. Not to say that I wasn't led before but now I can affirm with confidence in Messiah Yeshua that I am led by His Spirit in me, through the storm and the sunny days. This is truly the season of the leading of the Spirit and I am blessed to be able to be led graciously by Him. But more so than that I am blessed to be able to see the word and the promises spoken to me by Yahweh arriving at their fulfilment in one way or another. And more than that it is as though my perception of my surroundings have changed somewhat. No longer do I once looked at things at surface level but it is now as though what is hidden beneath is coming to light. And even for myself I find that in this season the Holy Spirit is showing me that it is not because of who I am but because of Who He is that He reveals things to me. It's not what I can do for Him because I understand there is nothing I can do for Him, but because He wants to do His works through me that He empowers me ever so graciously. In the end, He doesn't even consider my emotional state of mind; when He moves I am expected to move and flow together lest I be left behind. And though sometimes I move in obligation to His Word I find that halfway through many a circumstance my obligation turns into voluntary joy and pleasure.

[Psa 110:3a] Thy people shall be willing in the day of Thy power, in the beauties of holiness from the womb of the morning:

Praise Yeshua that this is truly what I wanted though I may not audibly say it. Even as Pastor Bernard was reminding us to remember back to the time we were saved as well as the time we were born again into the kingdom of Elohim and see how far we've progressed or even how far we've regressed, I am reminded that this has been an outstanding road thus far. It has been very much an enjoyable ride altogether because I find that though the road we walk is difficult and narrow, the yoke which we carry is light and easy. More so that even our Heavenly Father carries us through it all and will continue to do so even to hoary hairs.

[Mat 7:14] Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

[Mat 11:29-30] Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.

[Isa 46:3-4] Hearken unto Me, O house of Jacob, and all the remnant of the house of Israel, which are borne by Me from the belly, which are carried from the womb: And even to your old age I am He; and even to hoar hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you.

What a mighty Elohim we serve and walk together with. Praise Yeshua.

-Sunday, 19th November 2017, 2 years 2 months 12 days, 0327

Holy Spirit Leads

As I write this I write from the port town of Port Dickson where I am spending my off day in the prayer house here. It truly is a beautiful place and it reminds me of a certain apartment that my family and I have very fond memories of somewhere in the Highlands. The atmosphere, scenery, everything about it is just reminiscent of our holiday home away from home which we used to frequent but now no longer due to the fact that we serve the matchless Elohim day and night. In all honesty, in this particular season and time I find that there is less to write and more to experience which cannot be put to paper to describe. This season emphasises on the leading of the Holy Spirit as I believe and with how everything is just lining up ever so beautifully I must concur with that judgement. Everything and everyone is falling into place like a puzzle and it is my privilege to see all things truly working together for the good of them that love Elohim, they who are the called of His purpose. Truly, a privilege to witness and behold.

There isn't much to speak of as I've mentioned already but merely just a quick recap of the events of daily life. The construction of the new sanctuary is under way and smoothly running and we are expected to finish on time, praise Yahweh. Perhaps even more exciting news is the prospect of claiming the entirety of the third floor of the City Revival Centre where the church is held on for the kingdom of Elohim's glory. The massage parlour who was once opposite us have been ousted and now the large, one storey space is left abandoned until we come along and claim it; even right now in the name of Yeshua. Many who have entered have easily noted with how the layout is that it is ideal to be transformed, Elohim willing into a sort of cabin stay where seekers and the like can come to reside next to the prayer house there. That prospect excites me, seeing the hand of Messiah Yeshua sovereignly over us and where we go, truly we are the sons of Elohim and we have the power to destroy the works of the devil and deny entry to the powers of darkness wherever we wish. Praise Yahweh for such authority in Messiah Yeshua through the Holy Spirit.

This is the season for the Holy Spirit to work mightily, no doubt and I for one am excited to see just what ways He shall lead each of us individually and corporately as a singular body of Messiah. Though our paths vary, we all walk the same highway of life and holiness unto Yahweh. It's just a matter of what means we reach our upward calling in Yeshua. Praise Him for that and for days to come I am expecting greater things as per usual with Him and from Him.

-Tuesday, 14th November 2017, 2 years 2 months 7 days, 0509

Totally Wonderful

And how He has answered. A new season is now ushered in and I know exactly what this season is all about, the leading of the Holy Spirit. It's so exciting to be led by the Spirit of Yahweh because we simply do not know how He will exactly lead us and where into He will direct us but we can be certain that though it may seem arduous, it is for our good that it is so. To be led by the Spirit is to allow Him to lead us in ways beyond our comprehension and understanding and certain of the fact that the end is always good because it is Messiah we seek after. For the past few days, I've been put into perspective of seeing the tangible working of the Holy Spirit in my life and I can truly see His hand upon me to lead and guide me down the desired paths and roads. Though the situation may seem odd and at times out of place it always ends with all things coming together ever so beautifully.

Even as I write this, I am quite in amazement at the leading of the Holy Spirit thus far in my life. He has never ceased to amaze me and continues to cause me to walk in His footfalls. Because of that there is now a trust and a bond between Himself and me so to say in that I can easily expect my prayers to be answered or my words confirmed one way or another even as the thought occurs in my mind. I have seen the gracious hand of Yeshua Messiah upon me in that there is a true fellowship by the Spirit going on right here in my walk with Him. As I ask, He gives the answer. As I speak, He gives the confirmation. There has been nothing that I have not seen that hasn't in one way or another had the hand of Elohim upon it. My life truly is under the watchful gaze of the everlasting Elohim Who is my refuge.

Though there are times also when I hear from the Holy Spirit things which I am not particularly fond to hear of. Yet these are the times for the great breakthrough indeed that awaits me at the end of it all. Just yesterday, my father was speaking to me about something that ought to be done and I brushed it off as saying it's none of my concern whatsoever because in the end I continue to maintain my stand that I did not come here to the house of Yahweh for the sake of others. I came to serve Him because He called me into His service, to be His son instead of being the ideal example or role model everyone sometimes expects of us. Honestly, it just goes to show that many times we have many concerns but over the course of my time here already I've learnt that whatsoever I do without the leading of the Spirit to foreshadow it because a recipe for disaster. Spiralling out of control from the littlest things simply because I presumed to know the will of Elohim in that season and time when I did not. Anyways I'm deviating from here now.

Back to my father, I simply told him that I would only move when the Holy Spirit gave me the prompting to do so and would you have it, in just 24 hours time I've received the prompting and not just a prompting but even conviction to carry out what must be done. The thing with being led by the Spirit is that He takes us with Him to ride His high hills but also to the deepest depths of the sea, through ups and downs. As His people it is on our part to walk with Him not just when a silver spoon is in our mouths but when it's time for the fire and the flames. Ah, this is nothing new of me to be honest. Yahweh truly is gracious and I understand what must be done. Let it be done then, as You have so given me the will so give me I pray the part to do as well of Your good pleasure. How marvellous it is to be led of Your good Spirit, I never have a dull moment with Thee.

-Saturday, 11th November 2017, 2 years 2 months 4 days, 1056

Quick Write

It's been a while since I had last wrote however what is there to write in this moment in time? Yahweh is as usual doing something marvellous in my life but I have yet to receive clarity into exactly what He is doing in my life at this moment. Because of that I'm just waiting to see what exactly He intends to spring forth in my life for this season in time and so I've refrained from writing at the moment simply because there's not much to write about.

Everything is going on smoothly for me, Elohim is gracious. Everything is falling into place and even now I see as I was reminded that even the mistakes and presumptuous actions I've taken thus far in my walk with Messiah Yeshua has been worked together for good. Praise Yahweh. And now perhaps my main desire is to be completely led and driven by the Holy Spirit and I praise Yeshua that that even is coming to past.

Life in Messiah is always good and now is no exception for me. Looks like I've run out of things to say however I do look forward to what Elohim has in store for me in times to come. Praise Yahweh.

-Wednesday, 8th November 2017, 2 years 2 months 1 day, 2312

Quick Write

It's been a while since I had last wrote however what is there to write in this moment in time? Yahweh is as usual doing something marvellous in my life but I have yet to receive clarity into exactly what He is doing in my life at this moment. Because of that I'm just waiting to see what exactly He intends to spring forth in my life for this season in time and so I've refrained from writing at the moment simply because there's not much to write about.

Everything is going on smoothly for me, Elohim is gracious. Everything is falling into place and even now I see as I was reminded that even the mistakes and presumptuous actions I've taken thus far in my walk with Messiah Yeshua has been worked together for good. Praise Yahweh. And now perhaps my main desire is to be completely led and driven by the Holy Spirit and I praise Yeshua that that even is coming to past.

Life in Messiah is always good and now is no exception for me. Looks like I've run out of things to say however I do look forward to what Elohim has in store for me in times to come. Praise Yahweh.

-Wednesday, 8th November 2017, 2 years 2 months 1 day, 2312

Willingness

Life is good. In consequence to what I've written this week as it is thus far is full of unexpected twists and turns and yet in a deep recess of my being I kind of expected such things. After all, my previous posts was one where I welcomed the challenges as it came so that I may breakthrough.

This week has been nothing short of miraculous. From Monday onwards until Thursday morning as I write this I am filled with the Holy Spirit as I see myself guided and strengthened by Him for every and all occasions. For Monday we had been given the task of providing coverage for the construction in progress of the new sanctuary here in Glory Place and as such we had to pull down large bamboo trees and bend them in angles where it would provide as much covering as it could without breaking it. Two hours into the work, the rain came down and seeing the fervency of my brother Caleb performing the task even during the rain I knew I couldn't leave him to it alone. I didn't but stuck with him through and through until the end and by the end of it all I was drenched and tired but thoroughly enjoyed myself. I even had the privilege of climbing the telephone pole for a higher vantage point during the work, it wasn't so much a work but more of an adventure.

Such was the case today as well. Having been given the task of fixing the leaks on the roofs of the new cabins I went forward without actually knowing what I would get myself into until only later on. The tar which I was to use was viscous like anything and completely stuck itself to my skin, my clothes, my shoes, and my equipment. By the end of it I was left covered in black goo. People even were concerned about it but it wasn't a bother, this isn't the first time I've dabbled in tar and how sticky it can get. What was most important was that I enjoyed myself yet again.

All in all, every and all tasks given to us can be such a pleasure if we so desire it to be. But the reverse is also applicable as well where we make our jobs dutiful and with a heavy heart we do it, not because we want to but because we have to and that changes our perspective and mood about the whole thing and even for the rest of our day in some occasions. Because we do not know how to find pleasure in the work of Yahweh it will be very, very difficult to continue on our walk with Him. When we find no pleasure in Him, our walk is a walk begrudgingly taken and that kind of journey holds nothing but sorrow and disappointment. But the blessing of Elohim is that He's given us His Holy Spirit to lead and guide us into all truths and works in Himself so that we needn't even lift a finger per se. What I merely mean by that is that we are supplied richly with the power and strength of Messiah and needn't turn to ourselves for the solution. But to access such a gift is first to yield ourselves entirely to the fire as in Romans 12. Not to fear the flames but to know that as we launch ourselves willingly into it, the will of Yahweh will be revealed and done in and through us in our times. After all, I firmly believe that there will come a time when even the things we do will no longer be accepted unless we bring a willing offering unto Yeshua.

[2Co 8:10-12] And herein I give my advice: for this is expedient for you, who have begun before, not only to do, but also to be forward a year ago. Now therefore perform the doing of it; that as there was a readiness to will, so there may be a performance also out of that which ye have. For if there be first a willing mind, it is accepted according to that a man hath, and not according to that he hath not.

[Exo 25:2] Speak unto the children of Israel, that they bring Me an offering: of every man that giveth it willingly with his heart ye shall take My offering.

-Thursday, 2nd November 2017, 2 years 1 month 26 days, 0051

His Work Is Perfect

Having had a late ending to the City Revival Centre service and perhaps a later ending to our dinner, we have just begun to make our way back to Semarak and in turn later to Glory Place Mantin. Seeing as how now I can just take my time with this I begin to ponder the road that Elohim has thus far taken me on. Doubtless it has been an exciting one, one where there was never a dull moment. However, I found that even then there were times where it was monotonous and yet in that monotony I found such simple pleasure in doing the same thing over and over again that now, it's already been two years since I had left the service of the world in favour for the service of Yahweh. It truly is marvellous as I recount the blessings that Messiah Yeshua has graciously wrought in my journey and how He has mercifully preserved me until this very point in time.

Do I travel a lot? I don't think that I do. Rather I'm a man of simple pleasures, if you give me rhythm then I can make a song. Give me a routine and perhaps I will find my pleasure in it. Some people make grow bored of the same actions and principles day in and day out but the wonderful thing about Messiah and His life is that even though we may do the same actions and go through the motions day in and day out, His life makes all the difference. His life makes our journey that much more exciting and adventurous. I'm reminded of a verse that I had read before:

[Ecc 3:11] He hath made every thing beautiful in His time: also He hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that Elohim maketh from the beginning to the end.

Now it may sound bad but what the author of the book of Ecclesiastes speaks about is the world without end, in other words eternity. He has placed eternity in their hearts so that no man can find out the work He brings forth from beginning to the end. Even as I write this I'm beginning to see a clearer picture of what this actually means. It means that because Elohim placed eternity within us, we have every expectation to inherit eternity and the works thereof. What I mean by that is simply that we are eternal spirit beings inhabiting dusty bodies and because of that we have a loose grasp of time. Time seems to fly by ever so quickly and more so when Messiah's Day approaches. We have a hope that the works we do now in the Spirit foreshadow the eternity we shall spend with Him in glory.

Am I making sense? To myself I am but I'm not too sure what I'm trying to imply is getting across to the reader. Anyways this is but a mulling on my part. A deep contemplation of what I've gone through and what I'm going through at the moment. But I realise that for my stay here in Glory Place Mantin for the past two years I do not find it monotonous in the slightest though I may be going through the motions. Because of the life of Yeshua everything becomes fresh and exciting for me. And it is to that regard I find worship ever such a joy because the presence of Yahweh and the Spirit of Yahweh moves in ways we cannot predict neither comprehend at times. The days continue onwards and yet I find myself expecting so much of Yeshua Messiah and I keep finding myself astounded because He has not just met but greatly exceeded all my possible expectations. Everyday here in this place is a blessing because there really is no place I'd rather be.

I'm growing albeit at the pace set by the hand of Messiah upon me and that can be no helping about it except that to speed up the process is to simply yield all the more to the moulding and refining of Himself upon me, even if it means going through the furnace to do so. Because I see what is waiting for me at the end I do not deter myself from going through it, rather I find that if I am unable to take the first step the Holy Spirit is here in and with me to launch me forward. Many a times He has already done so and many a times I've been blessed because He gave me the necessary push when I wasn't able to.

The journey has been long and at the same time no distance covered whatsoever. Time and time again I've seen and experienced that of all things I've gained and learnt that I have yet to really learn proper. There's so much yet left to witness and go through that of everything I've experienced thus far only further emphasizes to me that there is still so much more to learn and gain from in my walk in the Messiah. It really leaves a sobering sort of feeling upon me every single time I recall this, that with every high breakthrough comes a sobering to properly keep me grounded in the foundation and truths of the gospel of Messiah. Every single time and it is truly by the grace of Yahweh that He has led me thus far.

I've been delaying this post for a day already, guess it's time to post it soon. But nonetheless I relish the time I have to just minister to Yahweh in every way whatsoever. Praise Yahweh.

-Tuesday, 31st October 2017, 2 years 1 month 24 days, 0324

Seasonal Song

It's a new season in Messiah once again and this time it kicks off with impartation of an anointing for a new song. During the Friday House Church here at Glory Place Petaling Jaya as I was reading through the song of Moses, I realised that I had connected with it more than I could ever realise. It was as though I could feel every ounce of emotion and what he wanted to convey when he gave his final song just before he went up onto Mount Nebo to see the land and then die. It was further confirmed in a way by sister Moriah and I found a new song welling up within me now.

There are times when I make songs, though rarely I do; and they are categorised into two different groupings. The first is by impartation of the Holy Spirit and the second is simply because the need of it arises or because there was a song welling up within me. I can firmly affirm that the Song of Solomon was of the former category and it is standalone until now. I believe that what Yeshua has imparted onto me is yet another song of the Lord and that is good. Megan has been up and about with so many songs that it spins my head to fathom just how many songs she wants me to hear and hear and hear before she is satisfied. Whenever I'm around her, should she be holding a harp I can almost guarantee that she'll want me to sit down and hear one of her songs.

Not to say that that isn't a good thing, it is simply the anointing of Yahweh upon her that she can freely and easily craft song after song for Messiah's joy. And now, the same anointing is upon me as I see it and it is just for this song of the season. Elohim willing I will be refining and tuning it up until it reaches the point where I am most satisfied and Yeshua as well Elohim willing. It's getting quite early and I must turn in now lest I find myself groggy and unaware again in the early hours of the morning. I do have things needed to be done in the end, until then reader.

-Saturday, 28th October 2017, 2 years 1 month 21 days, 0406

Glorious Promotion

Yet another while since I had last wrote but now even as I sit here during the wake service of one of our ministry's sister from Melaka, I begin to ponder what exactly is Yahweh trying to speak unto us through it all. I'm not necessarily grieved with her promotion, I hardly knew her but yet I have this consolation that she is right now in the place where we who believe in the Lord Yeshua Messiah desire to be. That in itself should be a mighty comfort to her family and friends.

But I begin to ponder that is this truly what Elohim desires to do? With what He has been speaking to me, I just wonder is it true?

[1Co 5:7] Purge out therefore the old leaven, that ye may be a new lump, as ye are unleavened. For even Messiah our Passover is sacrificed for us:

To me, with all the glorious entering of eternal rest for our beloved friends and family in this short year which is already drawing to a close, this is nothing short but a word from Yahweh unto us. And if not unto us then unto me. I do not question what Elohim does, He gives and He takes away and it would be foolishness on our part if we only accepted from His hand opened to us His blessings and not His challenges poised to us. Yeshua calls us to walk with Him with a silver spoon in the mouth and also when the cross is looming before us.

[Ecc 7:14] In the day of prosperity be joyful, but in the day of adversity consider: Elohim also hath set the one over against the other, to the end that man should find nothing after him.

[Job 2:10] But he said unto her, Thou speakest as one of the foolish women speaketh. What? shall we receive good at the hand of Elohim, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips.

To me, and this is my own personal opinion Yahweh is removing the past so that the present may manifest the glory of Messiah. Many times we glory in the past, we retain memories of good times long past by and that includes even the workings of Elohim in our lives. However, as such the Holy Spirit has been teaching me that clinging onto the past however good it may be is detrimental for our continual walk with Messiah Yeshua. Many a times we always remember the former things even when Yahweh told us not to remember them. And to me, that includes the wonders of Elohim that He has wrought in and through each of us.

[Isa 43:18-19] Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.

[Isa 65:17] For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind.

But we still do remember. I praise Yeshua that sometimes even forgetfulness becomes a blessing amidst controversy. After all, Joseph named Manasseh after Yahweh had caused him to forget all his labour and toil thus far when he had become prime minister.

[Gen 41:51] And Joseph called the name of the firstborn Manasseh: For Elohim, said he, hath made me forget all my toil, and all my father's house.

I'm not saying remembering the works of Yahweh are bad in such regards, however having a fixated mind on past things surely is a bad hindrance to our walk which must continue on else we be swept away in floods of dissipation. There is one thing that Elohim wants us to remember when we look in the past:

[Isa 46:9] Remember the former things of old: for I am Elohim, and there is none else; I am Elohim, and there is none like Me,

When we look back, do we see Yeshua? Or do we like the people of His times see the works of His hands and not behold the beauty of His countenance? Are we fixated on past works which will hinder the working of the Holy Spirit in ways we cannot imagine? When we keep looking back in many ways to me it shows that you are convinced in your mind that Yahweh has already given you the best He can give and what is to come cannot compare to yesterday or yesteryear. That in itself is unbelief in many ways. When we look back our eyes must look unto Him always lest we become fixated on the gifts instead of the Giver of said gifts.
Such is now I believe, that Elohim is removing the past so that the present may come and come with its full manifestation of the sons of Elohim. We desire to see the days of Elijah, of Ezekiel, of David. What I want to see are the days of my Lord Yeshua. With just one Son of Elohim, the entire world changed one way or nother, and now He desires to transform many of us into sons of Elohim for this present age. Are we ready to receive the present outpouring or is old wine still better than the new?

[Luk 5:37-39] And no man putteth new wine into old bottles; else the new wine will burst the bottles, and be spilled, and the bottles shall perish. But new wine must be put into new bottles; and both are preserved. No man also having drunk old wine straightway desireth new: for he saith, The old is better.

-Monday, 23rd October 2017, 2 years 1 month 16 days, 2144

Deep Waters

And of course with every high there must come Sennacherib, king of Assyria to contest it. What I mean is simply whatsoever written within the Bible must and will come to pass one way or another.

[2Ch 32:1] After these things, and the establishment thereof, Sennacherib king of Assyria came, and entered into Judah, and encamped against the fenced cities, and thought to win them for himself.

If you read the previous chapters prior to this, you'd see that Hezekiah restored the worship in the tabernacle and many other sorts of deeds of faithfulness, only then did the enemy come against him. And even after such a breakthrough it is of no surprise that the enemy should come against me as well, it is after all written in the Bible. But many would argue that that was King Hezekiah and not I, and yet everything that is written is for my example and learning. So that I would not repeat the errors of the saints of old and to trailblaze for a new generation that shall follow shortly thereafter.

[Rom 15:4] For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the Scriptures might have hope.

[1Co 10:11] Now all these things happened unto them for ensamples: and they are written for our admonition, upon whom the ends of the world are come.

So it is to my benefit to take heed where I stand lest I fall because they that fell in the wilderness were those who practiced the law of Moses and kept its commandments somewhat. Only that they could not enter into their Promised Land because of unbelief and it would be hazardous for me if I didn't take heed and fell by the same error.

Today is Deepavali, a Hindu festival holiday and as such it was of no surprise that the enemy came with much force against me. Today, the sun was exceptionally scorching and as I worked; barely fifteen minutes into it I already wanted to collapse and die. I felt myself dying the more I continued and persevered. I badly had wanted to go into the sanctuary to just lie down there and rest as I was going through my deliverance and yet I knew I couldn't, I must overcome in Yeshua's name. Every time I heaved and exerted some form of strength for the replanting of the banana trees today I felt like I wanted to vomit and purge out all at the same time there and then. When I went to the wash room I had never seen myself that pale in the mirror in such a long time. However, praise Yahweh that after the halfway mark at 2 o'clock in the afternoon my breakthrough came once more. Though I did feel tired, it wasn't anything severe like in the morning and I was no longer feeling nauseated. Through the prayer of my brothers in Messiah, and constant encouragement by them I rose up in the name of Yeshua and overcame.

As I look back at it now that it's all over, it was a needful experience. It just goes to remind me that of all things I have learnt there will come a time to put them to practice and when the rubber meets the road, do we play chicken or conqueror? Yet another reminder that everything given and blessed unto me is by the grace of Yeshua in my life and without Him I would surely have succumbed and perished. I have made it thus far because He upheld me all the way through. Yet another lesson of learning to remain sober and vigilant indeed. Praise Yahweh for such things.

-Wednesday, 18th October 2017, 2 years 1 month 11 days, 1809

Greatest Feeling

It's been really good. The fast this time has really been good. This fast for me has been one that has the breakthrough that I didn't know I wanted and yet I realise now days in that this is the most perfect breakthrough that I could have received in this due time and season. For a long time I have had a difficulty in putting a rein in on my emotions but now I've realised that they have been subdued and put under my authority as along with the rest of my body somewhat in the name of Yeshua. This was particularly a burden which I never knew I had and yet when I experienced the deliverance from it I have not felt ever this light and easy before.

This is perfect for me because now my mind has been completely cleared and focused upon the Lord Yeshua once more. Not that it isn't already but there is a change this time. I'm not exactly sure how to put it down into words but now it feels as my purposing of heart is exactly as what the Bible describes it to be: with all my heart, with all my mind, and with all my strength. In another word, I have been restored to how my fervour once was the very first time I came to this ministry before all sorts of matters and complications came into the equation. However, in this time I can add not an inexperience but rather all that I've learnt and learnt until this period of time can be used to reinforce and keep the fervour in place and to keep the fire alive and aflame.

There's not much else to write now besides the fact that I've experienced a breakthrough that I can never come back from ever again. Not in a bad way, but with this breakthrough my mind has never been clearer than now. I know what is needed to be done and this time, emotions will not hinder my walk any longer and neither any time soon. Praise Yahweh for such a glorious breakthrough and my prayer is that this will be but the start of many more incredible ones to follow in Yeshua's name. Amen

-Monday, 16th October 2017, 2 years 1 month 9 days, 2309

Rejuvenation

The preparation for the trip has been meticulous and thorough to say the least. And I am privileged to be able to be prepared by Yahweh in going for this trip to the Holy Land. And the preparation which He gives not only encompasses the physical, but even the emotional and spiritual being of myself. For that I am ever grateful because in the last few days I have received much of the refining and moulding of Elohim that I've been humbled and humbled good. In my imperfections I see the perfection of Yeshua and for that I am glad because when I see how I am yet made perfect I rejoice. Because that means that inasmuch as I have attained, of all things I have learnt and experienced; there is still yet much more that there is for the Holy Spirit to teach me and impart to me.

This is just the day before we depart and I've recently once again undergone yet another trial and by the grace of Messiah He has brought me out to a broad place. All in all, I am amazed at the work that Yahweh has done in my life thus far. I could never have imagined that my situations could be resolved so easily as it is now. In fact, if it was the me from a year ago I would be hard pressed and perplexed as to what ought to be done. I would have been obstinate and so set in my ways that I wouldn't budge but now it feels like I've become ever so malleable. To be able to flow whenever and wherever should the need arise. However, that is not the case for all times and even if it is for most times; if it is not for all then I still have yet much more to acquire from Yeshua by the Spirit.

I'm excited because now yet another yoke has been loosed from me and now I see just exactly who walks the road which I wall in the Spirit. And that road encompasses only Elohim and myself. Going into this trip, I find that the best solace would be solace in Messiah and that my comforts and consolation come from Him and Him alone. What need have I now to look at others? They have their own purpose and calling in Messiah just as I have and they have their own road and journey to traverse just as I do. However, to one He has given the road to be ever pleasant and to the other a road paved with much tribulation although both roads in Messiah leads to the same Way.

I was always puzzled at the parable of the workers with the same wages. Although some worked from the beginning of the day and some came in at the last minute, all groups receive the same wage, a denarius. At first I too found that unfair but then I realise, this parable speaks of salvation and our journey in Yeshua. Some have been here since the beginning and have borne the brunt of the sun but some, and I believe that I am of the latter end; come in at the end and partake of the harvest that the former had laboured in. This isn't unfair, though it may seem so. The Scriptures declare that he who sows will rejoice with he who reaps together as one.

[Joh 4:36-38] And he that reapeth receiveth wages, and gathereth fruit unto life eternal: that both he that soweth and he that reapeth may rejoice together. And herein is that saying true, One soweth, and another reapeth. I sent you to reap that whereon ye bestowed no labour: other men laboured, and ye are entered into their labours.

From this I found much comfort, not in the fact that I need not labour for what I reap although I do; but I am comforted that each of us has a separate and special calling in Elohim. All that Yeshua is concerned is that we be concerned firstly not with our own flesh and blood, our own kin but rather our walk with Him first. When Peter asked Yeshua about the fate of John, He simply answered:

[Joh 21:21-22] Peter seeing him saith to Yeshua, Lord, and what shall this man do? Yeshua saith unto him, If I will that he tarry till I come, what is that to thee? follow thou Me.

Although I knew about this, now I know first hand. My road is paved just for me and Elohim to walk together and no one can touch it. It is the same for others and for the times that I have intervened in them thinking that I knew better, I repent because I did not know what I do. In ignorance I had done thus but shall do no longer. I am reinvigorated and refreshed like never before because now, like Paul has said I have been released from a yoke so that I no longer care so much so for my brethren. They too are in the hands of my Elohim just as I know I am and they shall be fine, Elohim willing. I now need only care and to take care whether I continuously walk in the will of Elohim or not. Truly, praise Yahweh.

-Sunday, 17th September 2017, 2 years 10 days, 1251

Two Years

The past few days have been quite interesting, however worth noting is that once again a new season of Yahweh is here and it becomes even more personal as time flies by. It is hard to imagine that more than two years have elapsed already in my time serving Elohim in His house and I have seen so much, experienced plenty, been riding higher and brought lower than I can fathom, but more so that I can witness the Spirit of the living Elohim working His effective workings in my life in leading me up till this point of time. However much I've learnt and gained and have, yet still much more and greater things which are yet to come in due time. I've merely just begun my journey with Messiah and I see my end goal far ahead. However, we each have to start somewhere and that somewhere has gone by in a span of two years ever so quickly.

Perhaps this time is just a time to commemorate and ponder upon the wondrous works that Yahweh has done in my life in bringing me here to this point of my journey with Him. Actually, even as I write this I've realised one thing that the gifts and the calling of Elohim are without repentance. What He has given unto us He will not revoke simply because that is His Word but then the ball falls in our courts to properly use the gifts and the anointing given unto us. Through this I've realised one thing lately because of certain incidents. Let's begin from the beginning:

I did not sleep at all this past Wednesday, only receiving a few hours' of napping would suffice for it as I believed. So, when my work was ended I rushed to Semarak so that I could rest before the Wednesday Prayer Meeting began but 5 minutes into my sweet rest, Megan called. She was indubitably irritable because I had left without telling her when she wanted to follow me and thus I was needed to drive back there and pick her up. I didn't want to because I knew I would pose a liability to myself and her should I drive sleep-hungry as I am in that moment. Knowing this, I believed and spoke that Yahweh would supply her with the transport she needed to come to Semarak early as she pleases. As I told this to her, she thought I was joking and outright rejected the help I gave to her. In the end, I had to return for her but 5 minutes into my drive back to Glory Place, she rang once more. That was when I knew Yahweh had intervened, He had supplied her transport as I knew He would. However, she really peeved me off when she said she didn't want to trouble me and just allowed me to make the drive all the way to GP and back for her.

I was waiting for her to tell me that she would follow the van here so that I could return back for a few more minutes of my nap, I even pressed her to tell me that because from her hesitation I already knew my prayers have been answered. Nonetheless, it all went a different route altogether. All I could do was laugh and praise Yahweh for that but one such thing that the Holy Spirit stirred within me was to limit myself to speak with her. There was nothing to speak and there was nothing to retort, many times the fires of strife blaze because we don't know how to close our mouths. In the end, the ride back to Semarak and GP after the meeting was quiet, as I'd like. But there was no resentment, no bitterness, I wasn't even angry. I was just motioned to have nothing to say and it was a good time. A time where I could just once again enter silence.

Through this I realise, I'm no role model. I never wanted to be one. When Megan told me that I was being a terrible role model I just shrugged her off. I really just don't care about setting an example for people to follow. Why follow me when I have so many faults at hand? Just look up people, look at Yeshua then everything will be fine. When I came to serve, I remember the road Yahweh showed to me at the beginning and it's a road that is not paved, but a road that only He has prepared for me. Only I can walk this road He calls for and so I have no reason to care about many things either beyond or about me. With what He puts into my heart thus I would do, but otherwise you can expect me not to lift a finger. I didn't come to serve Yahweh to become a role model, I came to serve simply that it would be me and Him. To be very frank about all this, though I am acquainted with many people and am bonded with my family by blood, there is no real drawing of them to me nor vice versa. Only for two people have I felt the intense pulling of Messiah towards them to be heavily involved in their lives. Perhaps one day I will tell you readers.

People expect many things of me, they really shouldn't because the more they expect of me, the less I'll do to meet said expectations. If they truly want something done, then commit it to the hands of the Holy Spirit and pray that He might impart it for me to do those things which are beyond me and I will. I found that the more concerned I became about many things, the more I found myself powerless to change matters. In the end, everything lies in the hands of Yeshua and for these two years He has never failed me though I may have failed Him many a times. As I continue to look unto Him and remain in Him, all things worketh out for good as it should be. These past two years have been interesting but I know that the days ahead shall be far more so than ever before. Praise Yahweh for that.

-Saturday, 9 September 2017, 2 years 2 days, 0247

Deliverance in the Camps

We have just finished the prayer advance and more than anything, it was a time of deep cleansing and scrubbing for the house and people of Elohim. During this seminar, many things have cropped up and they were not pleasant things. However, it is good that they manifest. It just means that the cleansing is in effect. There is really not much to speak about this prayer advance because I had already blogged the majority of what I've experienced in the previous post. However, I believe that Yahweh is doing a most wonderful work in our midst in these last days and surely when the revival comes as we have prayed, then we will be ready because He is cleansing us of all impurities.

I've been praying for deliverance to occur in Zion and so Yeshua has graciously answered my prayer. In retrospect, had I known what I must go through I would not have been so thorough with my prayers to purge and break me. Today as the day closes, deliverance has come upon me. I feel completely out of it, lethargic, weary, with a splitting headache, and continuously falling asleep here for the entire day. And it wasn't just me, other people as well were really feeling the oppressiveness in the air and were none better because of it. However, I also had to go through a time of continuous purging today. It might have been the curry that I ate yesterday which was spoiled beyond belief, then again it is simply time that I excavated all that was within me. I realise that the curry doesn't have much to do with it, though it may have been the catalyst. This is the deliverance that I've been praying to come upon me and it would be a shame of face if I didn't take it as I ought.

More than anything, I've realised that Yeshua truly is merciful and gracious unto me. All that I've prayed and spoken to Him about was in one way or another confirmed and I believe that He is bringing forth something great and marvellous. After all, His works are indeed great and marvellous. Not to say that everything is going my way, but that Elohim is taking me down a road where I can see that everything and everyone has a part and purpose in my continual growth in my walk with Messiah. And perhaps the same could be said of Megan, my sister.

The road ahead is marked with many a things, some good and some for our betterment. Nonetheless, it is for our good that all things occur in our lives, Yahweh intends to bring something awesome forth from all this. And so, let it be done. In Yeshua's name. Amen.

-Sunday, 3rd September 2017, 1 year 11 months 27 days, 2200

Being Adorned and Prepared

This is already the halfway point for the seminar, "The Heavenly Bride Adorned and Prepared for Her Husband" which lasts from last Thursday to the Thursday to come and thus far I have thoroughly enjoyed myself for every single day. Why? For the simply reason that this seminar is the seminar which I have received the least amount of work possible by far. I spend the majority of the hours in the mixer room and that to me is a sanctuary within the sanctuary. The equivalent of the Hiding Place found in Glory Place Mantin, it's just that reclusive though it is stuck right in the middle of the sanctuary.
During this time I am often found lurking around the sound room for the full duration of the day, from morning to afternoon, evening, night, and some more after I'm always around the mixer room and that is something I thoroughly enjoy through and through. People may be ever so elated that they have been chosen to take part as teachers and helpers in the Harp School but as for me, I have since longed to join the Bowl sessions because ever since the Harp School began I have yet to fully attend a single one. But now, I'm involved with each and every Bowl session and it is ever so good. As far as I am concerned my breakthrough has already come and I see what Elohim is bringing me through is right and setting me aright.

This truly is the season for a hideaway and by the grace of Yahweh I have been chosen to come away for a while to rest and just be in the presence of Yahweh by the Spirit. Where everyone else desires the company of others and even their loved ones, what I desire most as of this season is to be left alone to be with my thoughts and Messiah. That is not to say I don't enjoy the occasional banter but in these times and seasons that Elohim brings us in, what I want is just to be somewhere where I can just be myself before Yeshua Messiah and have sweet fellowship with Him. It's what's been keeping me going and strengthening my faith in Him all the more, you would be surprised to know of the mighty workings He is accomplishing in my life and of the words which He speaks to me.

Onto the breakthrough, I have been given the almost daily prayer watch of 3-5am together with Caleb and in the beginning I thought that I had been thrust into the thick of it at the get go, but instead Elohim is gracious unto me as per His usual favour. As I worshipped, the presence of Yahweh just fell on me and greatly refreshed me for the time of my watch, and not just during those times either. Having only 4 hours of rest per day does something to the body but what Elohim has shown and reminded me again is that I am able to experience His supernatural power by just believing it. Whenever I come into the presence of Yahweh, especially during times of worship I believe and am fully convinced that whenever I open my mouth to join worship singing, I shall be refreshed, and I always am. Never once since He revealed this secret to me that it failed. But I'm diverting. Back to the breakthrough; whenever I finish my watch, my hands drip with oil. I don't see it, but my hands are just coated with oil and is so fragrant that with just one whiff, I know that it is fragrant anointing oil. But beyond that, the real breakthrough is when I'm during the mixer room. That's when as I sleep, am at rest, or when I am on watch duty for the needs as each day may require; Messiah speaks to me through His Word and the surroundings. Everything He speaks becomes so real, revealing things to come. More so He speaks concerning me in that He shows me my ways and I found that once again inasmuch as I have already attained to I still have yet to experience perfection. I am not perfect yet but I have this confidence that He shall perfect that which concerns me shortly. It's even written in the Bible.

[Psa 138:8] YAHWEH will perfect that which concerneth me: Thy mercy, O YAHWEH, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of Thine own hands.

This walk that we walk with and in Messiah, it's ever so real. If only we'd believe then we will see, if only we'd believe then we shall have it, if only we'd believe then everything becomes alive in Messiah. For only in Him do we begin to live, to move, and to have our being. Praise Yeshua. Onwards for much more!

-Sunday, 27th August 2017, 1 year 11 months 20 days, 0220

Secret Place

You know, as I'm pondering as to what exactly Elohim is working in my life, I found that more than anything He is opening my eyes and ears and stopping my mouth. This is yet another new season in Yahweh and this season calls for silence, I think I had mentioned this in the previous post as well. But everyday that passes I find that the time to voice out, the time to speak is most definitely not now. Despite everything that is happening I have found that the best answer that one can give is one that is first drawn from in silence. In this present age and time I am seeing that we all have so much to speak forth but I find that those who speak forth so much in the end prove nothing more than those who utter little.

For me, I am finding my solace in the stillness of places and moments where I can just be with Yeshua and just myself. Because it is in those moments that I draw strength, vitality, life, and everything that I will have need of; whether knowingly or unknowingly so, for the expanse of each day's requirements. However I have learnt that just because the situation that I am in is less than ideal for Scriptural meditation, quietness in spirit is a completely different thing than being quiet in surroundings. Many of us enjoy times when we have company, and also times when we have time to ourselves and Elohim alone. However it's in the nature of the sons of Elohim that they are immovable in spirit. Though the world around us and even our own worlds shake and tremble so much, we have a river which flows within us that makes us glad, at peace, and at home with Elohim.

[1Co 15:58] Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

[Psa 46:3-4] Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah. There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of Elohim, the holy place of the tabernacles of the Most High.

Though we may busy ourselves with many things, one thing is needed which will really see us through many a seasons in our journey with the Messiah, and that is quietness in the spirit. Not just the quietness in the surroundings because that will only last for so long. But quietness in spirit will allow us to be able to be continuously connected with Yahweh by the Spirit even though our surroundings beg to differ. And this is the season as I believe that Elohim is looking to cultivate this particular aspect in me and surely all the more as what will take place during the seminar in a few days' time. Everything leading up to this seminar is surely a big dent in the enemy's camp and we can expect mighty, awesome things to take place during the seminar and especially all the more when other churches will be coming as well.

All the more reason then to find ourselves hidden away in the hiding place of Yahweh for what is to come. Because whether it may be due to the workload, or because of situations surrounding us and others, the only solution is when we come to the point of nothing of ourselves save for the fact that we know for certain we're in the hands of the Almighty. It's the inner man that will motivate and cause a change to occur to the outwardly. Though the physical came first, it is the spiritual that influences and controls the physical body. And thankfully we are joined to the Head of all principalities and powers governing. Situations don't dictate what we do, we make a decree and it shall be done despite circumstances telling us otherwise. That is the role of a king.

All this comes firstly from the fact that we must come to a point in our walk where there is nothing else that we can do, even if it's something for the Kingdom. There's in truth, nothing that we can do apart from the Messiah and as we first quieten ourselves, we will see that it is the Spirit who works in us thoroughly so that Messiah Yeshua alone receives all the glory. We can have peace and quiet in our vicinity but that doesn't mean we have peace and quiet inside of us. Once we lay hold of the latter, then even if it becomes noisy and a hoo-haa, we are at peace because the Elohim of peace crushes satan underneath us. And that in due time. Praise Yahweh.

-Sunday, 20th August 2017, 1 year 11 months 13 days, 2052

Journey Ahead

It's been over a week since I last blogged and for the simple reason that this week was quite the interesting week that I had to see it through before writing anything beforehand. In line for the upcoming prayer advance being held in about one week's time, Pastor Jean has made a 24 hour non stop harp worship in groups of 3 happen. And as such, it has been exciting. The staff and helpers of Glory Place and Semarak come together at Mantin to worship in watches ranging from a minimum of one hour to a maximum of 3 hours per watch. I have had the privilege of worshipping in the morning every morning from 8-10am as well as together with the children from 6-7pm just before the corporate service every night. Of course, prior to all this I had other plans but you know, this is what Elohim wants and as His children we abide by the will of the Father in heaven. Because what He desires is something good for us and what good it turned out to be for me.

I really enjoyed this week, despite the fact that I had to wake up early which I never liked. Throughout this week many things have happened to me and surely it is all by the leading of His Holy Spirit that He brings me to each and every moment through and through. Throughout the week I had learnt a lesson that I had known but perhaps needed reminding: the tongue. What we speak is important, and sometimes in the spur of the moment we speak beyond what we are called to share and in the end it leaves a bitter taste in the mouth. Which is why I believe that it is timely that Elohim is teaching me that if we do not know how or what to say, sometimes the best answer for the moment is an answer of silence.

Many people in the Old Testament, whenever they hear a word from Yahweh's messenger, speak neither good nor bad because it comes from Elohim. There's nothing to say or add to it other than let it be done and I found that that is the right attitude in such moments of time. We get spurred on, we feel our emotions surging but it is in those times that we must learn the best answer to give may not necessarily be a spoken answer.

This week I was reminded, I really enjoy talking and listening about the Word of Elohim. It's Elohim, plain and simple and He gives me life whenever I share or am being shared to from His Word. But if the topic should come to other matters than I'm much more a bystander because such things don't interest me. Curious wise, perhaps sometimes I might involve myself into the conversation but I'd much prefer to be left in silence and to observe. Many people have many things to say and impart but I found especially during this week that not everyone who speaks much speaks wisdom from Yeshua. Many speak of their own learnings in the past life, in the world; others speak about their issues and needs, such things do not concern me nor does it stir me as much as the Word does. Why do we not speak the Word more? Instead we speak about others more and as we know, strife begins from the gossip of one to another. And strife is like a breach of floodwater, therefore stop it before it begins.

This is a new season and time and I found that once more this season calls for much silence on my part. My part to share will and should be nothing except Messiah crucified and glorified in my life and the living out of it. However, the act of living it out does not come from me, the living out comes from faith in the Messiah Himself. Just like Paul said,

[Gal 2:20] I am crucified with Messiah: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Messiah liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of Elohim, Who loved me, and gave Himself for me.

In other words, I am crucified with Messiah. I no longer am alive, my desires, wants, passions, and dreams are all dead. My character that defines who I am is dead but my physical life and body are still alive. The life in my physical body I live by the faith in the Son of Elohim Who loved me and gave Himself for me.

It's not what we can do, we're dead. It's all about Yeshua Messiah now because only when we are in Him do we live and have our belonging.

[Act 17:28] For in Him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also His offspring.

I don't understand how we came here. Any ways what's done is done and now looking ahead I see the road marked for me and it is a quiet road, one where I can just be together with Yahweh in the stillness and know Him for Who He really is to me. Praise Yahweh for that.

-Friday, 18th August 2017, 1 year 11 months 11 days, 0053